Tease & Denial

A Queening a Day Keeps the Domme… Cumming!

Posted by Lady M on March 3, 2014
Posted in: Male Chastity, Sex, Tease & Denial. Tagged: , , , , , . 4 comments

Lately I’ve really gotten into queening cagedmonkey. Usually how it works is he will get home from work in the morning and I will go “tuck him in.” Well tucking him in is actually the code for getting a little mommy/daddy time in while the kids watch cartoons. We head up to the bedroom and that’s about the time I straddle his face and rub my pussy and asshole all over his face until I get a nice good hard cum or two. This leaves cagedmonkey laying there, used and covered in my pussy juice. I don’t allow him to wipe off unless there is a lot of creamy white cum on his chin. Most of the time he is left there, wet with my cum, to go to sleep smelling like me.
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It’s really become something we both look forward to. We actually have talked about how we miss it if I don’t get a chance to do it. Especially when I have to take a week for my cycle each month… then we both really miss it. We’ve been trying to come up with a way to work through my cycle because it actually slows a lot of our play!

We are not afraid to do things during, by any means, it’s just not nearly the type of play we have daily.

We’ve thought about extra spankings during my cycle and maybe lots more endurance teasing/torture for hubby. I know we will work it out but these are the things that need to get talked about so we aren’t “missing” things or feeling ignored.

So Much For Two Months….

Posted by cagedmonkey on February 25, 2014
Posted in: Anal, Chastity Device, Female Led Relationship, KeyHolder, Male Chastity, Marriage, Orgasm Denial, Sex, Tease & Denial, Wife Led Marriage. Tagged: , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , . 9 comments

On Sunday night, My Lady and I sat down together for a few drinks while watching some TV together. We probably should have prepared a little more for the drunkenness ahead, because in the past these types of “drinking nights” have led to weaknesses in ML’s resolve. In other words… when we get drunk together, we usually end up fucking no matter what the chastity situation is. Sometimes I’m a good boy and I hold back when ML denies me. Sometimes ML needs to feel it and she allows me to cum inside her. We felt that we had some added extra security, knowing that it was ML’s time of the month. Would this time be different? Well…

After a few drinks, kisses, and horny touches, My Lady began to tell me how badly she wanted to have a nice hard cock inside her. I told her I’d be happy to oblige, but I couldn’t unless she released me. At first she shook her head and told me that I should go get the strap on instead, but then she seemed to soften up a bit. She talked about how she really did miss my cock, the hardness of my shaft combined with the softness of my skin. Then I asked her the fateful question of the night…

“Would you be mad if you happened to pass out drunk, if I unlocked myself and fucked you?”

And she thought about it!

This comes back to a post ML wrote about whether or not she wants me to disobey her. We’ve talked about it before, and so I kinda already knew where she stood. But I had to ask anyway.

She responded with a long “Hmmmmm…”

Then she reached behind her neck and took the chain that holds my key off of her neck. I looked at her with a confused and excited face. “If you’re going to do it, I figured I’d start you off. But you gotta get me to drink more first.” She smiled at me. I jumped off the couch and poured her another glass of wine. While I was up, she also told me to get a porn DVD that we got for free with an online sex toy purchase.

WTF??? We’re going to watch porn together? I thought. But there was no way I was going to argue. I popped the DVD in and we started to watch.

We watched the first few scenes, and slowly both of us began to realize something – the movie wasn’t all that great. I mean, yeah, it was porn, so we were both getting horny… but it could have been so much better. The girls were obviously faking it (except for one girl-on-girl scene, one of the chicks was REALLY getting into it, you could tell!), and the guys were not even doing a good job with their dicks. I said casually to ML, “Man, I could fuck you so much better than that and make it look so much better.”

She whispered in my ear, “Oh yeah? Show me.” My eyes shot wide open. I asked if she was sure; she nodded. In an instant, the key was in my hand working on the security screw on my Jailbird. My cock sprang out and was fully hard in seconds.

So much for being locked in the cage 24/7 for two months!

I was ready to fuck her immediately, only one problem – the dreaded cycle. What to do? My Lady had a wonderful suggestion:

“Why don’t you just fuck my ass?”

Well then! Sounds like a plan to me!

I lubed us both up and slowly slid my cock into her tight ass. We both moaned loudly as I sunk in further. I was still wearing the ring of the Jailbird, so my cock was extra full and hard, and she definitely felt the difference. I fucked her ass slowly, making sure not to cum and ruin the ENTIRE chastity plan and start over at square one. But as we went on, the alcohol started to get my head swimming, which pushed my urge to cum at bay. Soon I was fucking her pretty hard in the ass, and she was loving it.

We stopped, and we planned to take a shower together. I stood up and ML went to get the DVD out of the player, which is located on a floor level compartment of our entertainment center. All of a sudden, the animal in me took over and I came up behind her and shoved my cock back into her ass. She moaned and squealed in that sexy “give it to me harder” way, so I did. HARD. FUCKING HARD. I pounder her until her face was pressed into the carpet. I pulled her hair as I thrusted into her. I slammed my cock into her as I spanked her ass and called her my anal fuck slut. And she loved every moment, asking for it harder and deeper. She really is an amazing woman. 🙂

After washing off in the shower together, we staggered into the living room to remove all evidence of our alchohol/porn fueled sex romp (just in case the kids woke up early the next morning, lol). We snuggled in bed together, sans clothes and sans cage. It was wonderful.

The next morning, we got out of bed. ML looks at me and seriously asks me, “Did you fuck my ass last night?”

“Uhhhh, yeah!” I replied. “You don’t…”

She shook her head.

She didn’t remember ANY of it! She remembered the drinking and porn parts, but drew a total blank on the ass fucking!* I told her that was fucking hot, and she smiled a huge smile at me. I put my cage back on before heading downstairs, the two month plan destroyed but the four month plan very much still in play. And I ended up getting something I was craving very badly, but still I’m denied and needing to cum bad.

*Note: when ML reads this post, it will probably be the first time she hears about what happened. I didn’t give her many details when she asked what happened. So, look for her in the comments. She may have some interesting things to say about being my “anal fuck slut” for a night!

Dom/sub Scene – Fulfilling a F/M “Rape Fantasy”

Posted by Lady M on February 20, 2014
Posted in: Anal, Discipline, Female Led Relationship, Male Chastity, Sex, Tease & Denial, Wife Led Marriage. Tagged: , , , , , , , , , , , , , . 5 comments

Yesterday I wrote about my craving for Dominance. The craving to create a scene where cagedmonkey was on the very submissive side of things. I wrote about wanting to basically use and abuse him… dare I say, to fulfill a lighter version of a “Rape Fantasy.”

For our wonderful followers pleasure I thought I would describe how the 4 hours of alone time in the house went. I really do feel like it’s worth hearing about. For us it was pretty deep Dom/sub stuff, humiliation and forceful sexual things. I do hope you enjoy and I assure you one hundred percent that I am not exaggerating our sex scenes or telling you fantasies.

Our morning started very early cagedmonkey got home from work while I was getting the kids up, fed and out to their day camp. While I was gone I left him with instructions. He was to prepare the bedroom, the bed restraints, get my wand ready and make sure a few select toys were available to me when I got back. He was also to be waiting for me downstairs, naked.

I walked back in the door and my good boy was sitting on the couch – wearing nothing but his Jail Bird. So damn sexy, was my first thought. I’d already explained to hubby how “hungry” I was for him. So walking in the door seeing him like that made me that much hungrier for him. I stripped down to nothing but a black tank top and straddled him on the couch and got him going a bit by grabbing his face and forcefully kissing him, by licking his lips like he was some yummy lollipop. Once I felt myself get past that point… that point of need, I told him it was time to go upstairs.

First thing I did was instruct him to lay face down on the bed, it’s not like I needed access to a caged up cock. This was all about me taking him, using him and abusing him, I had no use for his cock. I tied him down tight spread eagle on the bed.
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Once he was tied down I spent a good time with my paddle against his sexy little ass! Oh good Lord did I ever get turned on spanking him. I literally pooled under me and was actively dripping from my wet pussy.
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I realize that I like spanking him a lot, like a whole lot! I just had no idea I liked it so much that it would cause my pussy to pour out under me while doing it. It is something I really need to do much more! I just loved the noises he was making, the moans and whimper as I smacked the paddle against his cheeks. I spanked him progressively harder, all over his ass. I spanked both cheeks, and also spread his ass apart and swatted his actual asshole and just for good measure I gave his exposed balls a light tap.

After I got his ass a nice gorgeous rosy red, I started to use a prostate massager on him while I used my magic wand to vibrate his balls and cage. The combination of anal stimulation and vibration had him moaning. I just love when he moans! While doing that I could feel myself enjoying the powerful feelings. I was really getting into it the more sounds he made. I continued swatting him with my hands as I was stimulating his senses. All of these sensations had him writhing on the bed (as much as the restraints would allow).
 

I felt so aroused and knew it was time to take what I wanted. Plus I figured while his ass was stinging, it would be a great time to get my strap-on. I strapped my lower half in and grabbed, what we call the “Pearl” attachment – it is a pearl blue, not obnoxiously huge non-phallic rubber probe, so somewhat soft. Before I started in on his ass, I made him get pearl ready so I could use it on him. I walked around the end of the bed, held pearl at the base and demanded he suck it. I fucked his mouth with it over and over while he drooled spit down his chin and all over the bed. I kept sliding it in and out forcing him to gag over and over on my strap-on. Once I felt he’d gagged enough I climbed up on the bed and positioned myself behind him. I made sure to use lots of lube and I began by slowly making love to him, but very soon I realized I could not get the leverage I wanted. I said “oh fuck this,” and yanked pearl from the strap-on and began using it by hand. I was fucking him hard and deep with it, pushing it in as far as it would go. Cagedmonkey was moaning and squirming and, was I ever getting turned on by the sounds I was making come out of him. Soon, he began to moan louder, especially because I started talking dirty to him, telling him what a little slut he was.

When I felt like his ass was taking pearl way too easy I told him I thought it was time for something bigger. I went to our closet and got another one of our attachments, this one was a large, ribbed, bronze dildo – MUCH larger, still rubber but a little more firm. He knew that one was going to fill him up and maybe even hurt if i used it on him. He begged me not to, but I just continued walking to him. I stood right at the end of the bed in front of his face and lifted up his chin. I looked down at him, directly into his eyes, and said, “Suck it, bitch,” and I shoved it into his mouth. I fucked his face with it, forcing it down his throat and making him gag heavily on it. When he tried to swallow all of the saliva that was dripping off the dildo, I told him he didn’t have permission to swallow and I continued fucking his mouth. The spit was running down his chin as I continued to make him choke on the huge dildo.
 
Then I positioned myself behind him once again. He was begging and pleading with me again not to fuck him with it, but I simply did not respond. I slathered that big thing with lube and slowly pushed it into his ass, deeper and then a little deeper. I then began fucking him with it, slowly at first and picking up the pace as I kept going. It wasn’t to long before I was pounding his ass with the dildo, hard and fast as deep as it would go. He was screaming, no and being me to stop. After a few minutes of this torture I felt his body just fall limp on the bed. This didn’t stop me from fucking him, however, I continued to rape his body like a rag doll. The whole time I was calling him dirty names – asking if he liked being fucked like a filthy slut, telling him that I loved punishing his “dirty whore ass”, etc. It was an extremely powerful feeling!

I wasn’t quite done with him at that point. I untied his ankles and demanded he get on his knees and told him if he wanted me to stop so bad he had to show me. I forced him to rock himself back into me and fuck himself with the dildo. I can only imagine how humiliating it must have been being forced to fuck himself with the one thing he is hating! Making him do that gave me an even bigger sense of power. I’m sure I must have giggled out loud at my excitement… making him do that because I told him to. He really is a good subby hubby who takes what I give him.

When I was finally done, I decided it was my turn. I untied him and laid back on the bed and demanded that he lick my pussy to an orgasm. He happily followed my instructions, slurping up my sopping wet pussy and licking me to two loud orgasms. Then I rolled over on my belly and positioned my wand on my clit while I pushed my ass back against his face, forcing his tongue deep into my quivering asshole. I came a couple more times that way, loud and forcefully until I couldn’t take anymore. I rolled over and laid back, exhausted yet satisfied. Cagedmonkey sat there, abused and terribly frustrated.

When the Kids Are Away – Mommy & Daddy Will D/s Play

Posted by Lady M on February 19, 2014
Posted in: Female Led Relationship, Male Chastity, Sex, Tease & Denial, Wife Led Marriage. Tagged: , , , , , . 1 comment

Cagedmonkey and I have two wonderful kids. We love them to the ends of the earth, just like any other parent. Here we have it a little different than most because only our youngest attends traditional public school. We homeschool our older child which means even during school time we always have at least one child home with us. This week is winter break for the public school so both kids are home and going nuts because they really can’t get out of the house like they need to. They’ve been cooped up playing (fighting!) with each other and video games.

What this means is, mommy and daddy have had no time to themselves either. So today I made a few calls and found a local kids gymnastics place that is offering day camps this week. You better believe I signed them up for a class tomorrow. I know they will love it because they both love to run, jump and bounce around. It will be the perfect thing for the kids while giving cagedmonkey and I few hours to enjoy each other.

I’ve been craving a D/s scene, been craving that powerful feeling. I feel a desire to play with a helpless, vulnerable, desperate man. I feel like dominating him, using him, and in a way abusing him. I want to be able to use him in any room in the house that I want and I want to be able to speak and not have to worry the kids might wake up or hear. I want to be able to spank his sexy ass with my paddle and hear him yelp. I want to be able to use my strap-on on him bent over the side of the bed with his face smashed into the mattress. I want to hear his loud moans and hear him begging me to stop when I get caught up in the moment. I just want to be able to do whatever I want, however I want.

Yes, we did just go away for the weekend but that turned out to be rather vanilla. Which was outstanding and wonderful and amazing, don’t get me wrong. There is just something about being in our own home, with our toys and our bedroom. I want to be able to be comfortable using my things, especially my bed restraints! 🙂

I can imagine tomorrow after work is going to be something else for my locked up sexy boy. He’ll be made to please me in anyway I want him to. He will be treated like nothing more than my favorite overused sex toy. I simply cannot wait, I’m getting extremely wet thinking about it. My pussy is quivering thinking about getting him to a point of a moaning, whimpering, begging, crying mess.

Oh that’s so fucking hot!

My Chastity Honeymoon (or “How I Emptied My Balls Before Four Months of Orgasm Denial”)

Posted by cagedmonkey on February 17, 2014
Posted in: KeyHolder, Male Chastity, Sex, Tease & Denial. Tagged: , , , , , , , , , , . 1 comment

What a wonderful weekend My Lady and I had! We had a lot of fun at the casino, outside of the lots of sex we ended up having. 🙂

We checked into the hotel on Saturday afternoon. At first, we intended to just drop off our stuff and head to the casino for some gambling fun, but that plan went into the trash once we got inside the room. My Lady unlocked me once we were inside the room; we started kissing and we couldn’t hold ourselves back. All of the fun ideas My Lady had of teasing me and making me work for my orgasm went out the window – we got undressed from the waist down only, and started making love not five minutes after we walked through the door. I was filling My Lady’s pussy with cum in VERY short order, and her pussy quivered around my cock as she joined me in orgasm.

It was fantastic! After waiting nearly a month, it felt great to cum. The orgasm itself was amazing, but also the feeling of not having to hold back during the buildup and just let loose was absolutely wonderful.

After our quickie, we went down to the casino floor for some gaming fun. My Lady and I bled away some money at the slots before heading to the poker room. We had a lot of fun playing poker – My Lady may have had a little too much fun, along with a little too much alcohol, hehe – even though neither of us was doing very well. I’m the poker player of the pair of us, but My Lady was doing better than I was because I couldn’t get any fucking cards whatsoever….. but I’m not mad about it.  🙂

After we were both pretty well supplied with alcohol, we stumbled back up to our room once again. We stripped down and jumped in the bed with each other. This time, we fucked…. drunk fucked. It was soooo nice – I grabbed My Lady’s ass as I thrusted deep into her and filled her up with another load of my cum. My Lady later admitted that she didn’t remember us having sex this time, which she found very exciting. 🙂

My Lady had me jerk myself off once and we had sex one more time before we had to check out the following morning. It felt great to have some spontaneous, unplanned sex after being in chastity for so long.

My last orgasm came this morning: I woke up My Lady by rubbing her wet pussy – I wonder what she was dreaming of! I rolled over on top of her and slid myself inside her, slowly taking her, making it last because I knew it could very well be my last for quite some time. We both came together again – I love it when we do that! We had a few minutes to cuddle before the kids woke up and ran into the room. So much for our fantasy weekend.  🙂

Later in the morning, My Lady told me it was time to “get dressed.” I know what that means; at the next opportunity, I snuck off to the bathroom, tucked my cock into the Jailbird, and tightened the security screw. I was locked in, where I belong. And here I sit, still locked in, and tomorrow begins over two months of near-24/7 chastity and 4 months of orgasm denial. Honestly? I’m glad and excited to get started. This will be a huge milestone for us in our chastity lifestyle.

Talk to me in a few weeks, though… that feeling may change drastically by then. 😉

Countdown to Cumming…

Posted by cagedmonkey on February 15, 2014
Posted in: Male Chastity, Orgasm Denial, Sex, Tease & Denial. Tagged: , , , , , , , , , , . 7 comments

(Okay, no kidding… “The Final Countdown” is actually playing as I’m writing this post! LOL)

Today is the day. Hopefully by the time you read this (or perhaps even as you are reading this!) I will be cumming in, on, and around My Lady’s body!

Later today, ML and I will be dropping off the kids for an overnight stay at a babysitter’s house, and we will be headed for a nearby hotel/casino for some gambling and our first overnight stay in a hotel without the children present. It promises to be a lot of fun, especially since My Lady has promised to unlock me and have tons and tons of loud, passionate sex with me! I cannot wait!

This feeling is equal parts amazing and nerve racking. It’s amazing because I really do NEED to cum at this point! In fact, tonight before I left for work, ML was teasing my cock in its cage and I was begging her to be unlocked. Any amount of time – an hour a few minutes even… I was desperate to be out of the cage. My desire to cum is even worse than the desire to get hard, but I needed at least one of the two. Finally having an orgasm after about a month of going without is going to be a relief like I have never felt before!

On the other hand… I know what is waiting for me after this weekend. My Lady has laid out the plans for me already – I will be locked 24/7 for two whole months until her birthday. No erections, no time out of the cage. My cock will be encased in steel until April. And looking past that, I will be denied orgasm for at least four months until my birthday in June. I have no idea how I will be able to get through it. Going one month was hard; going four months might just turn me into a desperate, begging, pleading puddle of need! It just might break me! But it is what My Lady wants, so it is what My Lady gets.

Oh yeah, did you notice, by the way… I said “at least four months”? Yes… I’m not even guaranteed an orgasm on my birthday! According to ML, if she is well satisfied (which I always make sure she is) and if she enjoys my desperation enough (which I assume she will, seeing how she reacted to my state during this period of denial), she may decide to extend my denial even further. Fireworks on July 4th? Possibly. Even farther than that? She didn’t rule it out. When I asked if I was going to cum again this year at all… even then, she was non-committal.

Looks like I better enjoy myself this weekend while I can. Who knows when I will get my next chance?

Facetime – The Dildo Gag

Posted by Lady M on February 10, 2014
Posted in: Male Chastity, Sex, Tease & Denial. Tagged: , , , , , , . 3 comments

So I recently got a ball gag with a nice sized dildo on the opposite side. If your curious which one it is exactly, it’s the Fetish Fantasy Deluxe Ball Gag With Dildo.
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At first, I was a little worried the dildo itself would be very hard and might be uncomfortable. Ya see, I’m not very fond of dildos, vibrators or sex toys in general. However, if I’m to keep hubby locked up and denied for longer periods, I’m really going to have to find a way to keep myself satisfied. So, we’ve been testing out lots of different types and sizes of dildos and other toys (that will likely be the subject of another post lol).

So to get on with this post… Holy shit! Haha Last night I decided to strap the dildo gag on cagedmonkey’s face and try it out. We started out first with hubby laying on his back and me on top riding his face, bumping my clit against his nose. It was pretty fantastic, I must say. I was bouncing up and down on his face while he could do nothing but stare at the dildo sliding in and out of my wet pussy and feeling the warm wetness drip down his chin and neck as I squirted my cum. After that we switched positions to see how many different ways I might enjoy using it. We tried a more traditional missionary position and I came nice and hard that way. So that works! I also got up on all fours and rocked my ass back and forth into his face, shoving his nose right in my asshole. All he could do was look right at my quivering asshole desperately wanting to be licking it. Oh man, it was so awesome to just use his face the way I did. Getting off so many times while he could do nothing but take my face fucking. Yummy!

It really turned out way better than I expected and I am very excited about giving it another go. Hopefully with some nice pics and video! I’m pretty positive that this is one toy that will stay in the nightstand next to the bed and get lots and lots of use! 🙂

Tease or Torture – Sensation Play

Posted by Lady M on February 5, 2014
Posted in: Chastity Device, Female Led Relationship, KeyHolder, Male Chastity, Tease & Denial, Wife Led Marriage. Tagged: , , , , , , , , , , . Leave a Comment

CagedMonkey and I have had a very relaxed couple weeks in the chastity device and our D/s play because our Jail Bird is in getting adjustments. The Bird Cage we use as a back up device is really showing its wear and I don’t want hubby wearing it for more time than necessary. So really he’s only been wearing it to work.

I decided, since we haven’t had any real intense teasing play lately, today would be a bit of  a dominant day. Cagedmonkey works midnights so when he got home this morning he got breakfast for the kids and then got ready for bed. He had a headache so I gave him some Tylenol and let him sleep a little before putting him through this intense ride.

I’m not sure what you would call this but today he is (trying to) sleeping unlocked, bound to the bed, gagged with a penis gag and stuffed with the njoy butt plug. While he is enduring that torture? I will be visiting very often to stroke him and edge him.

I’m sure he’s going to be very tired and worn out by this afternoon but I feel like he needed a good reminder of who is in charge of all of his pleasures & sensations.

I’m really loving the idea of sensory deprivation play and I’m working to learn how to make it happen. So for now I’m playing with sensations and making him all filled up and unable to touch or do anything about whatever I do to him. He just has to endure whatever I want to do to him because I am in control of it all. I’m even in control of how much or the quality of sleep he gets. It should be a fun day and perhaps he’ll write later about how he feels about what I’m doing to him. 🙂

Back to Basics – Tease & Orgasm Denial

Posted by Lady M on January 28, 2014
Posted in: Anal, Chastity Device, Female Led Relationship, Male Chastity, Sex, Tease & Denial, Wife Led Marriage. Tagged: , , , , , , , , , . 5 comments

One thing that goes very well with Male Chastity is tease and orgasm denial. It is not a requirement but it’s a great technique. Having that cage around their cock controlling when and if a guy gets an erection makes it easy and fun to control when and if they will have an orgasm. 🙂

I don’t think I’m an easy person to take when it comes to tease and denial. I can get pretty intense. I have to say, I’m very impressed with cagedmonkey’s ability to hold out during my teasing. Yesterday, I spent the entire day controlling my big caged cock. Usually hubby spends his days unable to get an erection but yesterday I decided he would spend as much of the day as possible with a raging hard cock.

Every chance I got I would tease him, stroke him, grab him and rub on him to get him standing at attention. I was so turned on by teasing him that at one point I took him upstairs pushed him down on the bed, unbuttoned his jeans and pulled out that big hard cock. I climbed up top and edged him with my pussy over and over again. I was so sloppy wet and so turned on that I decided to make his eyes bug and I slid his big thick hard-on deep in my ass. Not gently, not slowly, I just slid it right in, all the way! I love hearing that gasp when I do something that shocks him! 🙂

So this sort of play continued as much as possible all day long. We even went out to dinner last night as a family. Before we went I told him that at some point during dinner I was going to tell him to go to the bathroom. He was to go, stroke himself to the edge and walk back with his huge bulging boner. I told him I’d feel it when he came back to the table and if it wasn’t hard enough he’d have to go back and do it better. So as soon as we finished our appetizer I leaned over and whispered, “Don’t you think you ought to use the bathroom before our meals come?” He responded, “yes, ma’am” and off he went.

When he came back to the table he was extremely hard and dripping precum already. I rubbed him under the table a few times through his pants and realized he had leaked through his boxers and jeans and got my hand wet and sticky! Now that’s a lot of precum! 🙂

Our night didn’t end there, hehe. Once we got the littles to bed I gave him almost an hour of straight stroking and teasing and ruined back to back orgasms for him. Then I continued stroking him even after he was begging me to stop because he was so tired! I giggled my ever so entertained little girl giggle the whole time, how fun!

Hey, be careful what you wish for, you might just get it way worse than you imagined! hehe 🙂

Keyholder Dilemma – Do I Want Him To Disobey Me?

Posted by Lady M on January 27, 2014
Posted in: Discipline, Female Led Relationship, KeyHolder, Male Chastity, Sex, Tease & Denial, Wife Led Marriage. Tagged: , , , , , , , , , , , . 3 comments

Being a wife and Keyholder can bring on a lot of confusing and conflicting feelings. Especially when it comes to whether or not we want to allow our sweet locked up boys to orgasm.

I noticed last night as cagedmonkey and I were messing around that I had this feeling of wanting him to be so horny for me that he would just take me. That’s all fine and dandy because I have such a devoted, good boy that I can take his hand and put it on the back of my head and he knows I want him to grab my hair, flip me on to the couch and slide into me. What he also knows is that I don’t want him to cum while having his way with me… and he won’t.

While 99.999999% of the time I do not want him to, I really think there is this itty bitty part of me that wishes I could push him past the point of being a good boy. I said, I THINK! It really felt like it last night. I felt like I wished he was so horny he would disobey me. Of course if he did, he’d be punished for it because it would be cumming without permission but maybe part of me wants that? Maybe part of me wants him to disobey so I can punish him? I really DON’T want him to cum. However, there is this little part of me wants to know if I’m THAT irresistible. Could I possibly get him so horny that it pushes him so far as to not be the extremely devoted good boy that he is.

Perhaps just getting him to a begging, pleading, practically crying mess will satisfy my “am I irresistible?” feeling. It’s so frustrating because like I said I really don’t want him to but maybe I do want him to challenge me!

Anyway… I’m not sure what I really want but cagedmonkey and I talked about this very thing today because that’s what you do in a relationship. You talk, about everything! I told him how conflicting the feelings were but that the “don’t orgasm” feelings beat out the “disobey me” ones. We talked about how we could get to a point of, in the moment, letting him know that he had a choice to obey my rules or disobey them. Well really he always has that choice but if he disobeyed at any other time I would be extremely disappointed and probably get depressed and his punishment would be pretty severe. If there was that moment of me being like “well I wouldn’t be devastated if he was so so so bad that he just had to disobey me and take me” I would need to be able to let him know. If it was a moment like that where I let him know with a few choice words there would still be consequences but perhaps no where near as harsh as him making that decision on his own whim.

I’m telling you… if you ever think your wife, girlfriend, partner and Keyholder has an easy job, you are very mistaken! A lot of us get these conflicted feelings. That’s not to say everyone does but I’m sure a good amount of us do.