The clock continues to tick, and it is now about two and half weeks since my cock was locked away in the Revenge.
Two and a half weeks since I’ve been allowed to have a full erection.
Two and a half weeks since my cock has felt anything other than steel.*
*Not counting the rough, clinical scrubbing during showers… and now even THAT gets me sexually aroused…
Two and a half weeks since I have even seen my penis.
Think about that and really process it for a second – it’s really hard to imagine that long of a time period without having any access at all to your main source of sexual pleasure. Two weeks doesn’t sound all that long when it’s just an idea; when you’re actually living through it, it feels like an eternity.
I started thinking this morning about which is is more valuable to me at the moment – being able to see my penis or having it touched. Obviously, I’m missing ML’s touch on my cock in a bad way… hell, I’m even missing my own, or even just the softness of my underwear! But, to be honest, I really do enjoy seeing my cock when it’s nice and hard. Yes, I have a big cock and yes I’m proud of it, and yes it’s REALLY nice to see it in action.
So, if I had the choice between the two, would I trade one for the other?
Conceptually, either way could work: ML could simply blindfold me when (if???) she lets me out of my cage, not allowing me to see my fully hard penis; or, she could allow me to see my penis but only while restrained, and use toys on me to tease and edge me without giving me skin-to-skin contact. It can be done, the question is which would I choose if given the opportunity…
It’s not an easy answer.
Being able to see my cock would be nice, but being teased with toys only would drive me crazy – after all, I would be denied feeling ML’s pussy for the duration of the game, which would be really tough to take. Not seeing my cock doesn’t preclude me from having sex with ML, but could also put me in some very strange-feeling situations – I can very easily see ML tweeting or posting pics of my cock being teased or toyed with in various ways, but not allowing me to sneak a peek at the pics. How humiliating would it be for all of our readers and followers to be able to see my cock and the things she does to it, meanwhile I’m the only one who can’t?
If forced to choose, I would probably end up giving up my right to see my cock – I don’t think I could handle not having the skin-to-skin connection with ML, it’s just too fucking good to give up.
And now, my mind immediately begins to wonder just how long I would be able to handle that type of situation…
ML and I have tried to go an entire year denying me orgasms, and fell a couple months short. Do I think I could go a year without seeing my cock at all? I don’t know, that is pretty extreme. But, I guess if it came down to it, I would have to. It’s not like it would cause any major physical or mental harm to me, which is usually my standard for safewording these days. I guess if ML were to decide to try this out, I would have no choice but to hang on for the ride as best as I could.
An interesting question! Not sure how I would answer. I did go 485 days without an orgasm but I’m not hoping to do that again! lol I think touch would be my desire. I love that ML is demanding this of you. Sry cool!!
She’s not demanding it yet, but who knows what will happen after she reads the post!
Please don’t complain about something you allow to happen… 🙂
Seems like your complaining about your current situation but I’m not understanding why since you allow yourself to be in this situation. 🙂
Caged… I love the predicament you are in. Thing is, and I have to remind myself of this at times. Since I gave her the first key, I really have no choice, she may suggest options and offer choices, but that doesn’t mean she has to go along with them. After all she has the key! We have determined that I may be more of a brat than a true sub, but even at my brattiest I don’t touch the key!
After months in chastity and not seeing mine I found it incredibly lewed to see it wobble free. Might be partly because I’m a trans girl, but it took a long time to get used to it again. Never went back to standing to pee, but then I also have a 0 gage PA hole.
Wow, great predicament and I hope it’s something Lady M chooses to play with if she hasn’t already. I think you would probably be making the right choice when choosing physical touch over sight of your cock. And I love that Lady M would likely continue to post pictures and allow us the privilege of getting to see your penis and what she is doing to it even while you wouldn’t be able to, haha. It helps us feel involved in your adventure and claim a little ownership as well. 🙂