In Real Life

My brain is smiling at you!

I thought I would write a quick post about my ct scan results. We’ve had a lot of people ask and rather than having to keep answering individually, I’ll do it here! So, the answer is, NOTHING! No, really, there are no masses or anything significant, physically, wrong with my brain. Which is good news in itself but annoying that now the doctor is sending me to a neurologist to do some more investigation. I, unfortunately, can’t get in to see the neurologist until late January but if they felt something was really wrong then I assume they’d be rushing an appointment. I’m just glad it wasn’t something big and it seems like it’s more than likely one of the many things wrong with me that no one can explain haha. 

Now, as for the whole doctor ordered denial thing… Well, screw that! haha I do not handle denial well, however, I am being extra careful not to have those mega intense orgasms with the wand. I’m also taking a more aware approach and really paying attention if I’m holding my breath during orgasm and making sure that I breathe! Thanks to Mrs. Fever for her comment and letting me know I’m not alone in many of the things I’m experiencing in my life. It was actually nice to hear someone else deals with pain on a regular basis, yet still does what they can to function in their kink! 

Also, a big thank you so much to everyone who has written and checked in on me! I appreciate you all so much! 

No, seriously, the doctor said I’m not allowed to orgasm until we figure out what’s going on.

And yes, I really do have a medical diagnosis code G44.82 for my sex headaches. The doctor is looking into them by doing a CT scan of my head, to start. This will at least give us something to look at and see if there is anything that obvious going on. A CT scan of the head is able to show if there is swelling, fluid in the cranial area, or any masses or abnormalities of the soft tissues. I would be getting a ct scan with contrast off the bat but I am extremely allergic to the iodine contrast dye  used so they are starting off with a plain scan. I have my appointment for that this coming Wednesday, December 7th. This really is something she is taking seriously because I do not have a history of migraines, none of my medications have changed in over 10 years, I don’t have trouble with my sinuses and this is a very new thing.  She showed a little concern as well well I mentioned a few other tid bits and said we would wait to see what the ct scan showed. 

The doctor has prescribed me some prescription strength ibuprofen and no orgasms until we get the CT scan done, radiologist reads it and we find out if there is anything going on. I’m not exactly excited about the fact that I don’t get to have orgasms but it’s not terrible timing as I just started monthly cycle anyway so at least part of the time without orgasms is tolerable. I guess I’ll just have to find fun ways to torture and tease cagedmonkey while I am unable to have my own orgasms. And don’t think I’m going to be generously handing out orgasms to any of the boys I have in chastity right now… If I can’t orgasm, no one gets to orgasm!

Anyway, just keeping you all in the loop about what’s going on and how things are progressing along. I welcome any and all prayers during this. It’s actually been quite an awful week for me emotionally. Even though I can rationally tell myself it’s gotta be nothing, I can’t help but have my crazy anxiety brain flying off the deep end wondering “what if…” 

As if things haven’t been more fun with my health, I recently had an onset of pretty damn severe “sex headaches.” This is extremely hard for me to handle since I enjoy my intense orgasms so very much. I know you’re thinking the whole “Not tonight, honey, I have a headache” type headache but that’s actually not it at all. These headaches are actually so fucking painful… more so than the 5 kidney stones I’ve passed, the 2 children I’ve birthed and even the back pain that leaves me nonfunctional for days. I seriously will be right on the edge of orgasm like, “Ohh, Ohh, Yeah, God, Oh yeah, Ohhhhhhhh….. MOTHER FUCKER WHAT THE HELL IS THAT FUCKING PAIN STABBING THROUGH MY FUCKING SKULL!?!?!?!?!” It is totally a mood killer and a horrible fucking way to have a severely painful ruined orgasm. I HATE to have ruined orgasms so this is not only painful physically but it is painful emotionally. It’s one thing to happily and playfully ruin someones orgasm but having that orgasm get ruined by an extremely painful knife-like stabbing through the entire left side of your skull from forehead to the back of your neck is the opposite of how that should feel… it’s also extremely scary. It has freaked me out more than once and last night I was paranoid that something in my head might burst.

Just for a little more information – I thought I would post a few things so you realize just how serious these can be. If headaches are something regular for you, ie: migraines, then these can be very benign and medication may help. Sometimes they go away right away but can also last for 2-3 days. The thing to worry about is if you experience sudden onset – it might be something you want to check out because it can be an indicator of an underlying condition. Which is why I am currently scheduling myself a doctor’s appointment.

What Is a Sexual Headache? It’s a headache that happens before or during sex, at the time of orgasm, or just after sex. Most of the time it is a pain in the back of the head, or it can be on one side like a migraine, or all over. It can be a dull ache or a severe stabbing pain.

There is actually an International Headache Society that classifies these headaches with sexual activity (HSAs): Type I HSAs are pre-orgasmic, feel like a pressure that builds in the head with sexual excitement and are usually felt across the head. Type II HSAs occur with or close to an orgasm and are sudden and explosive. Which are the kind I am currently experiencing. Usually these headaches are not caused by another medical condition. There are also other names to describe them such as coital cephalgia, orgasmic cephalgia, orgasmic thunderclap, orgasmic migraine, coital headaches, or just “sex headaches”.

Who Gets Sex Headaches? Both men and women get sexual headaches. Some experience headaches on a regular basis, while others only encounter sexual headaches on rare occasions. It’s funny that, in my reading, this us actually something many more men experience than women!

Am I at Risk for a Sex Headache? A person is more likely to get sex headaches if they have had migraine headaches, tension headaches, or exertional headaches. Some medications can also increase the risk such as marijuana, birth-control pills, meds used to treat irregular heartbeat, meds for erectile dysfunction and pseudoephedrine (for nasal congestion).

What Are the Dangers of Headaches With Sex? The headache may be an indication of a more serious underlying condition. This is what scares me because this is something that just suddenly started happening. Some possibilities include:

– A widening or bubble in the wall of an artery inside your head (intracranial aneurysm)
– An abnormal connection between arteries and veins in the brain (arteriovenous
malformation) that bleeds into the spinal fluid-filled space in and around the brain
– Bleeding into the wall of an artery leading to the brain (dissection)
– Stroke
– Coronary artery disease
– Inflammation from certain infections

Can Sex headaches be prevented? Yes, they can! Some medications like Beta-blockers, migraine medications and NSAIDS can be helpful in treating and preventing these headaches.

Some may never experience these, some may experience them once and never again and some may experience them a LOT. If you feel like you need more information about this please look it up or check with your doctor. Especially if it is your first Sex Headache and you say “this is the worst fucking headache pain I have ever felt” or if they occur with other symptoms such as loss of consciousness, vomiting, stiff neck, other neurological symptoms and severe pain lasting more than 24 hours. I have this issue, my pain lasts about 2-3 days. These headaches have happened multiple times now and at first I was like, “Oh wow that’s a bad fucking headache!” I didn’t really put two and two together until last night when I swear I thought something really bad was going to happen. I hardly slept thinking I might die in my sleep. Yeah, my brain goes there sometimes, it’s no fun. That is when I did some reading and had to share what I found.

My Lady is so incredibly sexy – every single inch of her body turns me on, and I’m not shy at all in letting her know it.

Of course, her titties and ass get me horny, but it’s more than that. Her eyes are so beautiful, her hands feel so good on my body, and her skin feels so amazing against mine.

Most people would classify ML as a BBW, and I would agree. But whether or not ML’s body type has a label, I can’t deny that I find it so fucking sexy! Last night, I showed ML just how much I love her body by giving her a little bit of body worship.

I kissed ML’s body all over as she relaxed on the bed, slowly tracing my tongue up and down her skin. She moaned as I paid attention to all of the wonderful parts of her body, even the ones that I know she worries might not be so attractive.

Obviously, she has no idea what she’s talking about.

I kissed her stomach, massaged her skin, licking every inch of her body from her hips to her neck. I could feel her relaxing more and more as each second passed, her confidence in her sexiness growing with each touch of my lips.

I love making ML feel sexy like this; she deserves to feel that way because she is sexy as fuck!

After some time kissing ML’s tummy, I had her turn over so I could give her back some tongue worship, as well. When I said I love every inch of her body, I meant it! I kissed and licked her body up and down very slowly, each time moving farther down until I was licking from her neck down to the top of her ass crack and back again. It wasn’t long before she was wiggling her hips, trying to get me to move even lower…

Of course, I gave her what she wanted. I gave her sexy asshole some tongue worship as she squealed with pleasure. Yes, even her asshole is so amazingly sexy, and I wanted her to know that. 🙂

I’m not exaggerating when I say My Lady is my ultimate sexual fantasy woman – she is absolutely perfect for me, and I love that I can show her how much she turns me on. I’m also glad she likes it, because I can’t help but get horny over her fucking sexy body!

I know a wrote a few weeks back about how I was having some medical issues. I have been going through a lot of medical testing and was to be starting treatment soon to get some of those things worked out. Well last week I started my infusion therapy on Wednesday and well… since Wednesday, our life has turned into something short of a complete shit storm – perhaps tornado is more like it!!!

On Wednesday I headed over to the Chemo lab to get myself hooked up to a new medicine I’ve never had before. I was already nervous because, I’d done some reading and found out side effects of this medication include anaphylaxis! Yeah… right… I know, fun!! NOT! Well, I got all hooked up to the IV and the infusion for this medicine only takes about 20 mins (as opposed to the hour my other meds used to take) but you then have to sit for a long time after to be monitored for any kind of reaction. And reaction I did have. Just before the medicine finished flowing through the tubing, I started to feel my throat getting tight. I mentioned it to the nurse and told her it wasn’t too bad at the moment but it felt weird. About 5 mins later, all hell broke loose, my throat closed up, my chest tightened and I couldnt breathe and I started having a full on panic attack. I was crying and apologizing to the nurse and the doctor who were pumping Benadryl and steroids into my IV while checking my blood pressure, pulse and Oxygen. It really was quite a scary few minutes of my life. I ended up there for another hour feeling all dizzy and loopy and stressed and finally things calmed and I could breathe again and after all that I was able to get up and take myself home.

For about 3 or 4 days after the rection my body was still having side effects. I could barely stay awake from the extreme fatigue, was having horrible headaches and my body and muscles hurt so bad I could barely walk. I am so thankful for my subby hubby who did everything he could to help me, let me sleep and do extra to take care of the kids. He was ready to take me to the ER but I’m glad we just waited it through because after a few days of Benadryl and Ibuprofen I was feeling a little more like myself and able to function. I honestly do have one of the most amazing husbands in the world and I love that he will step up to take care of me when I am unable to keep doing what I do. I love him to the ends of the earth and back again a million and twelve times and I could never get through this life without him.

You would think that would be enough for one family to deal with in a week, but no… on Saturday our 11yo daughter was outside Roller Blading and hit a dip in the sidewalk and her feet came out from under her and she fell. We ended up in the ER for 6 hours because she broke both bones in her left wrist and they had to do their best to realign the one bone in the ER. Then did what they could by casting her arm in place until we could get to the Orthopedic surgeon yesterday. We spent 4 hours at the Ortho’s office yesterday where he manipulated the bones in her arm (without pain meds! Poor kid) and seems to have gotten them both aligned now and casted in a weird position to keep them aligned. Hopefully this will mean she can avoid having surgery on her wrist. We go back next week to see how things are progressing. She sure does like that she got a pretty purple cast from her armpit to her finger, though! She really is a trooper and a very resilliant kid.

So… with all of that fun , HA! happening around here things in the play department have slowed just a bit between CM and I. I know he is worried that this will put a HUGE damper on everything but, as I told him, life happens and our kids are our priority so we have to deal with that but our sex life, our play, our chastity, tease and denial is not going away. I love it too much and I know HE loves it. I would never let anything completely get in the way of doing anything I can to drive him absolutely bonkers. Just today before I headed out for another medical procedure, I decided to send him a few sexy pics after my shower. And now that I have the afternoon home to myself, I may just have to send him a few more. Thinking about teasing him and making him all frustrated at work has me kinda turned on and I might have to go use my wand to give myself a nice good hard orgasm or three. I’m sure he will be struggling against the cage as I send him pics and maybe a little video of me at home enjoying myself, thinking of teasing him. 🙂

Ok maybe not an actual bondage bed but we recently went furniture shopping for our new apartment and I found a bed I just had to have.

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I couldn’t help but think how amazing it would be to have him bound spread eagle to this bed. I just had to talk him into getting it (it didn’t really take much talking into lol). There are just so many possibilities with this bed. Also the nightstands have usb ports and outlet plugs right in them so I certainly won’t need an extension cord for the wand anymore haha.

My Lady and I really enjoy looking at our naughty pics and sex videos. ML gets turned on by my naked body, and I get horny as fuck when ML gets undressed. We even get turned on watching ourselves have sex in the mirror from time to time. It’s a damn sexy sight to see.

Wouldn’t you agree? 🙂

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Just sitting here in a hotel after a long day of kids football games. More to go tomorrow but I couldn’t help but notice how damn sexy I look leaned back in this chair, leggings on and my boots propped up on the hotel bed. I thought I’d share! 🙂
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These boots are awfully dirty after walking around the field all day… Which one of you good boys wants to get on their knees and clean my boots?
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Enjoy the boot porn! 🙂

This is just a quick post to let you all know that due to some unforeseen circumstances we have had to remove some recent content. The posts promised to describe the rest of our weekend fun will have to be aborted. Although most of the good stuff was already written. The only other thing we were probably going to mention was how I got an entire tray of drinks dumped on me at Applebee’s by a waiter… in a much more funny post, I’m sure. If you have any questions or want to hear more please feel free to chat with us privately through our Contact page.

Due to these unforeseen circumstances a couple of our blogger friends had to leave the blogosphere. They are doing well and if you need to be in touch I would be happy to pass along a message.

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