Someone asked me an interesting question recently:

How can you be sure that Lady M will ever let you cum again?

Well, honestly, I can’t be sure.

Part of me is pretty sure that she does want to give me orgasms, infrequently as they may be. In the past, she has expressed that she doesn’t want to deprive me of orgasms permanently; she actually does like to give me that pleasure.

That was in the past, though, and things have changed since we first started our orgasm denial play.

I used to need a “maybe day” from My Lady because of this very train of thought – I wasn’t ready to give up total control of my orgasms just yet. The chastity, teasing, and orgasm denial were great fun, but it was still difficult to not have a target date in mind. I gave up the idea of having a maybe day a few years ago, and I don’t regret the decision one bit. However, I do realize exactly what it means to give full control of my orgasms over to ML.

I can hope she hasn’t changed her mind about things, but the bottom line is that if ML decides to never allows me to have another orgasm again then that is what will happen. She will let me cum when it pleases her, and if it pleases her more to keep me in a state of perpetual constant horniness and desperation for an orgasm for the rest of my life, that is what she will do. It’s not what I’m hoping for, but it’s exactly what I asked for.