November has finally come, and “Locktober” is officially over. For me, however, my extended period of 24/7 chastity still continues…
Today marks 3 weeks since my Jailbird chastity device was locked onto my cock, and if all goes according to ML’s plan it will be at least another 3 weeks until it comes off. I say “at least” because you never can really tell with My Lady anymore – she very well could be waiting until Christmas, New Years, or even Valentine’s Day to unlock me. This uncertainty makes it difficult for me to anticipate just how much longer I have left to go this time around, so I’ve pretty much resigned myself to being locked until whenever ML decides to take me out…. I’ve accepted that it could be weeks or even months until I have another full erection.
It’s very difficult to think about the fact that I won’t be having a full erection for at least another month, and perhaps even more, especially after having gone almost a month without one already. I get frustrated enough not getting to cum for a couple months, but this is a whole new level. Forget being denied the pleasure of an orgasm, I’m being denied the experience of basic physical sexual arousal. Out of necessity, my body has begun to express its arousal in other ways – I’ve been having more and more “bodygasms” as the weeks have gone on, which makes sense now that every other avenue of sexual arousal is rigidly controlled by My Lady.
The thing that surprises me the most is that ML doesn’t seem to be wavering as badly as she has before. Three weeks is close to my longest 24/7 lockup period (to be honest, I’m not exactly sure what length of time is my longest, but I’m pretty sure a new personal best will be set very soon). Although her horniness has been increasing over the last few days or so, and she has been getting quite sexually aggressive with me, her need of PIV-sex specifically doesn’t seem very strong at the moment; I’m 100% sure I want it WAY much more than she does right now. I have no doubt imagining her having no problems with keeping me locked in this cage for another month.
In some ways I like to have a defined ‘goal’ but when you get a goal that’s 6 months away it can really feel like a kick to the stomach and take a few days or weeks to get over that feeling of loss.
in other ways it’s easier not knowing. Just take a day at a time. Before long you’re into double figures then triple. I find it gets easier as it goes
I felt the same way when we were trying for the one year of orgasm denial – after a little bit, I’d start to get a little bummed if I thought about how much longer I had to go. That’s why I try to stay away from that thinking as much as possible.
Not easy when I’m just waiting for the chance to get hard, though.
I love the idea of having someone control me sexually. It is such a turn on I can’t imagine actually being situation. My problem is that when I am soft my penis flips out of the cage. I want to be able to suffer through the frustration of only being allowed to cum when the key holder allows. Can you point me to a product that will help me control my soft retreating penis? I am very excited about exploring this lifestyle!