After Cagedmonkey wrote his post the other day about Looking Ahead he asked me a question. He wrote “if we are going to try to do a year denial, what do you want from it? What would you like to see happen, what would you like to do/see/try?”
My answer isn’t so simple, it’s almost like there isn’t words to describe what I want. I did end up telling him, physically, I want to see him so horny he struggling against the bars of the cage, I want to see him aching and his cock leaking precum like it has during past denial periods. I understand there will need to be some amounts of trading line there was in the past but I do think the denial in general helps to move that along. I want to physically see him desperate and wanting. I want him so horny that he will find any way to turn me on, sexual and non-sexual. Not things that turn me on the way he wants me turned on but more thinking about my needs and desires and turning me on in ways that I want to be turned on.
When I started thinking about his question more, I realized it wasn’t so much about that stuff that I wanted. It wasn’t necessarily what I wanted to see or do and that it was more about what I wanted to feel during this denial. I want to feel irresistible and not just sexually. I want to feel his frustration. I want to feel loved and woed and made a fuss over. I want to feel thought of and made to feel important. I want to feel the gratitude of him being locked in a cage and denied and teased. I want to feel his need, his aches, his desires.
Don’t get me wrong, I want to tease him and drive him nuts and make him want things and flaunt in front of him what he is being denied. I want to make him do daily things as a reminder of who he belongs to and who he serves sexually. I want my mornings to begin with kisses to my pussy, so the very first thing he smells & tastes in the morning is me. He has much better days when they start off that way. I want to try to get in some impact play, I love the feel and sound of spanking him so even if it’s once in a month, I want it. I’d like to try to get in more bondage, more forced things… If he’s bound he can’t really not be used for my sexual pleasure.
Anyway… So there’s a lot that goes into the answer of what do I want from chastity and denial… And most of it is feelings.
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My last denial stint was a little unexpected, both in its beginning and its length. ML was letting me cum on a fairly regular basis, which for me meant that I had two or three orgasms in the same week. We were moving into our new house, and I figured we would be doing the “let’s fuck in the different rooms of the house to celebrate” thing. I was only partially right, though – while we did have sex in different areas of the house, I only got to cum once in the new house.
That was at the beginning of September. I honestly wasn’t ready for a 3-month-plus denial, but My Lady doesn’t have an obligation to warn me ahead of time when I won’t be cumming for a while. It’s nice to know (so I can savor my last orgasm as much as possible), but not necessary.
My last orgasm was about a week or so ago, and I have a feeling it was sort of unplanned from ML’s standpoint. We had just woken up after sleeping in a little bit on the weekend. I woke up feeling a little horny and a teeny bit slutty, so while ML was getting dressed I kneeled on the bed in front of her and started playing with my nipple piercings.
I must have looked pretty damn good, because ML came over and began to stroke my cock – ML had allowed me to sleep unlocked the night before. She played with my cock as I teased my nipples. I begged her to let me cum; to my surprise, she said yes! It only took a few more strokes for me to cum all over the bed sheets. Only moments later, ML was walking out of the room, smiling over her shoulder as she told me to get the bed sheets in the laundry.
So what’s next?
Well, that’s honestly a tough question to answer. ML and I have both expressed a desire to try for another full year of denial… I know, why do I put myself through this? As far as chastity goes, we should like to do some more longer lock-ups as well. One thing that is making hard to think about things in the near future is that I may have some health-related situations coming up that might get in the way of any horny play.
Don’t get all worried about me: this isn’t like the last time I got everyone panicked, but it’s still something that will require us to think about how we will handle our chastity and orgasm denial during it. I do know that if we need to take a break, it’ll only be temporary; we have way too much fun with all of this to stop any time soon… or at all!