Tease/Orgasm Denial

I’m pretty smiley and excited this morning. Cagedmonkey and I finally put the under the bed restraints back under the mattress and it’s got the juices flowing! I think I’m going to make a “honey do” list of sex toys I want him to find and make accessible so that I can get back to my “all day, so sorry you can’t sleep, tease and torment sessions.” I really am missing all the wonderful, regular things we used to do. I miss hearing the anguish in his moans. Those gasps from his lips as I do something to him that he doesn’t expect or that really gets him.

I know and can feel that I am missing my dominant side when things like this morning happen. I got him all tucked in bed, ran the girl to a doctor appointment, came back home and got her started on school. While she was working I went “to snuggle with daddy,” which really means I went to tease him and get off as much as I want him to make me. 🙂 I am loving, ever so much, the fact that we have a door that closes with a lock. My kids have quickly learned to knock and I don’t have to freak out and fall off the bed if I’m in the middle of a little something. I just stop, catch my breath and talk to them. Haha

So, as I was saying (before I got side tracked lol) this morning reminded me how much I’m missing that powerful, I’m in charge, dominant feeling. That, I’ll do whatever I want to you to amuse and please myself, feeling. That, you have to take what I want to give you, feeling. I knew deep in my chest when I straddled cagedmonkey’s stomach on the bed this morning and tucked his arms under his sides and used my legs to hold them there, restraining him. I loved the look in his eyes. I felt my pussy get warmer as I got that surge of horny. I pulled my shirt up to expose my big breasts as I moved myself on his stomach and dry humped him with my clothes on. It was not long at all until I was cumming right in my pants. Cagedmonkey’s face was rubbing between my boobs though they were just there to tease him as I would not allow him to lick and he obviously couldn’t touch. He could just feel the soft skin of my breasts on his cheeks and lips and smell my wonderful scent.

I felt how wet my pussy was getting. I know it would have been dripping, sopping wet if I wasn’t wearing panties and shorts. I could feel the attempted erection under the sheet on cagedmonkey’s lower half. I knew I needed to cum again so I slid down the slightest bit and positioned my clit at the base of his cock, which I affectionately call “rooty.” I grabbed him by the wrists and held him down, pressing into the mattress. I knew I needed to feel that powerful feeling of restraining him myself. I came so fast rubbing on “rooty” and holding him down. So hard that I felt my thighs squeeze his waist, my hands grip his wrists tighter and my pussy pulsing and gushing as I orgasmed again in my pants.

God it felt so good to be in that moment with him. Taking him and using whatever part of him I wanted for my pleasure. I’m looking forward to date night on Friday and I hope to break back in the restraints and other toys I’ve been missing. I want to build my horny and my aggression the next couple days so I can take it out on him in as many ways as possible in the hour or so we will have at home alone together! I might just have to find my harness and give him a good hard pegging and REALLY get my dominant feelings back.

I’ll start by saying this: I really do love my Jailbird. I like the way it looks when I’m wearing it, I like the way it feels when the steel hugs my cock, and I really love the idea of being locked up and having my orgasms and erections controlled by My Lady.

With that said, I’ve been thinking about the Jailbird lately, specifically about how it good the fit is. I’ve always been satisfied with the fit, but recently I’ve been wondering if it needs adjusting. My body has definitely gone through some physical changes due to wearing the cage, most notably, the slight stretching of my ballsack… which is great, because that’s something I had been dreaming of for the longest time. 🙂

One thing I’m wondering about is the gap measurement. Lately, the cage has felt a little snug around my sack. Do I need more space there? I’m not sure. I’m thinking the recent “stickiness” may have been due to the fact that I needed a shave badly more than being pinched (if you don’t believe me, check out the pic in my last post). I also must admit that I haven’t been lubing up as much or as often as I should.

I’ve also been thinking about the cage length. I’ve been noticing my cock doing some weird things in the cage lately, especially after ML has teased me to the point of bulging through the cage – the head of my cock will sometimes bend upwards and become smushed against the side of the cage. It sounds painful, but it’s not. But I can feel the weirdness of it from time to time. However, this could be due to the unique qualities of my penis… and no, I don’t mean just because it’s so big (brag). My cock is strange; it doesn’t bend or curve, but it twists just the slightest bit. Yeah, I know, I said it was strange. Anyway I think it’s this twist that causes my cock to end up in weird places in the cage. That’s not really solvable with a measurement adjustment.

I’ve also been finding that head of my cock pushes out kinda far out of the front of the cage after ML has teased me. Often when trying to sleep afterwards, the head of my cock with rub in the bedsheets and give me that sensitive/painful shock feeling. Would a shorter cage push the head of my cock down a bit and prevent it from poking out, or would a longer cage keep it better protected? I dunno. What I do know is that ML loves to see my cock bulging out of the cage bars…so maybe enduring just a little bit of discomfort to please My Lady isn’t such a bad thing.

My Lady and I have been a little lax in updating the blog during our move. Our frequency of playtime has dropped just a bit, although we are still both horny motherfuckers day in day out – that’s not going to change anytime soon. 🙂

Things are starting to settle in; we are nowhere near done unpacking, but we are making good progress. With all of that vanilla updating out of the way, now on to the updates you are really waiting for – the happenings of my cock and ML’s wet pussy:

– we have moved all of our sex toys to the new apartment, and ML plans to have me set up the under-the-mattress restraints over the weekend.
– my last orgasm was yesterday morning, during a very hot session of ML grinding on top of me until I filled her pussy as she came all over my hard cock.
– since that orgasm, ML has been intensely teasing me with the cage on, leading to frequent and somewhat painful strangled erections.

This morning in particular, ML put me in a very rough position. She came into the bedroom, locked the door (YES!!!), and climbed on top of me and planted her wet pussy right on top off my face. After a couple of strong orgasms on my tongue, she laid next to me and rubbed her pussy to another nice cum as she rubbed and squeezed my balls with her other hand. I was whimpering and moaning as my cock pulsed and throbbed against the bars of my cage. It was a full twenty minutes before I was able to calm down enough that I didn’t have to lay in a fetal position to avoid the pain of the steel crushing my cock.

image

As uncomfortable as it was, it was great to experience that feeling of confinement, of being controlled. It’s been too long since My Lady has used her dominance over me to satisfy her sexual needs. It’s nice to be getting back in the groove. 🙂

Wow as if all the craziness of people dying and moving hasn’t put a damper on the playtime, now cagedmonkey is sick! Ugh! He’s been sleeping or working the last few days and is just feeling blah. Still locked in his caged and still horny but still sick. It’s really not all that sexy to be kissing and sniffing and stuff lol 🙂

Ah well, things will settle back down soon and we will be back to it. In the mean time, how can I entertain you? Haha

Will my big boobies be good?

image

After cagedmonkey’s naughtiness the other night, he’s was put back in the Jail Bird. I did leave him unlocked that night for a good 24 hours or so. I had thought about locking him directly back up but I noticed some redness on the underside of his shaft and decided he needed a break from the cage. That also gave me time to use the hell out of him hehe.

As for the punishment for cumming without permission… “punishment” means different things to different people. So there is no one size fits all punishment for this type of thing. I’ve never had to actually punish cagedmonkey but rather I’ve only disciplined him with spanking, etc. When we made up our agreement we added a section for punishment/discipline and what things would be effective in what situations.

So let me clarify that this is definitely a punishable offense and not something that simply requires a “correction.” It may seem complicated but one is more of a cute “oh you naughty boy” thing, closer to funishment rather than punishment. Punishment is meant to to be something undesirable and unpleasant to the person who is being punished. For cagedmonkey, this needs to be the removal or denial of something pleasant or desirable. So cagedmonkey loves his video games and he also loves pleasing me, making me cum, etc. Any of these things being taken away would be punishment for him.

I will say I’m not completely devastated by his cumming without permission… because, to be honest, it felt so good and I loved that I had him so extremely worked up that his primal need took over. However, I would be utterly devastated if he were to cheat and cum hiding in a corner somewhere. The punishment for that is not playing… I hand him back the keys and when he can prove to me that he can be a good boy, then it might be time to play. This meant I really had to think about what punishment fit the crime, so to speak.

I decided since cagedmonkey came without permission that I would deny him MY orgasm. I figured if he had so much enjoyment out of his own then his punishment should be not getting to enjoy giving me any. So he got three days of not pleasing me, knowing that I had gone upstairs to make myself cum and he didn’t get to hear me moan, didn’t get to feel my pussy moisten, didn’t get to feel it tighten, didn’t get to taste my wonderful, yummy cum that he loves so much. Denied pleasuring the woman he loves and committed to serving and pleasing. You all know that with me being in control of when he cums, he has taken to getting his pleasure from pleasing me and giving me orgasms and servicing me sexually. Let me tell you by the second day he was already complaining about how he missed my pussy and tasting it. Awww, poor baby! 🙂

I have enjoyed myself since Thursday night, I allowed his face to be buried back in my pussy, making me cum all over his face. We also got very intimate and romantic and did make love. Sometimes the slow, deliberate strokes with eye contact can really push the emotions. I really do love him being denied and extremely horny for me. I love that he wears my little steel cage on his cock because I want him to.

Finally after a very long week of punishment, extra hours at work and not getting much time to do the sexy sexes, cagedmonkey is home for the weekend. We had a chat in text last night about how I’m in the mood to use him as my sex toy. How I want to use whatever part of him, whenever I want for my pleasure. Wanna know the best part? He’s totally in the mood to be used for my pleasure! Hehe I have loved, over the past year, how our sexual moods have been in sync. When ever I’m feeling a certain way or he’s feeling a certain way we have always been in the same mood for that particular sexual thing. It’s so awesome!! 🙂

I’m so sure there will be plenty of things to write about this weekend. Since he got home from work this morning, I’ve already woken him up a few times to get my pleasure in. Even though we will be packing and going through the house stuff, doesn’t mean I won’t call him to the bedroom or bathroom for a private moment of pussy licking and making me cum. 🙂 I may even send him there before me to get his unlocked cock good and hard and ready to dip in my tight pussy whenever I want. So much possibility for so much yummy play, all. day. long. 🙂 however I have no plans to make him cum until at least January 18th.

Today marks the 17th day of uninterrupted cage time for my lonely cock, equaling my previous milestone for longest 24/7 lockup period. I thought it would be a good day to take stock of my current situation. Let’s take a good look at what’s going on with the sexual prisoner:

1) Medical status – so far, everything is looking fine down there. My skin is not having any issues as far as irritations, blisters, or infections related to the constant contact with the cage. I have experienced some skin discomfort after shaving, which My Lady and I both feel is due to the fact that I was shaving too often to try to keep my skin smooth down there. I’ve backed off again to once a week, which seems to be working well. I have to remember to lotion and/or lube more often, but other than that, everything is peachy.

2) Physical horniness – my cock has been EXTREMELY reactive to My Lady’s in-cage teasings. I believe that my cock itself misses getting hard, because it tries its hardest at the slightest provocation. ML has started to enjoy licking my cock through the bars of the JB, and she has gotten very good at finding that sensitive spot on the underside of my cock with her tongue ring. It makes me gasp and moan every single time, which is exactly why she does it! She will squeeze my balls and rub the exposed base of my cock as she does this, and it makes me want to cum so badly. It even feels like I very well could sometimes, if she would continue just a little more… but then she does continue, and the feeling just builds and builds, it never releases. That is when I begin to moan and squirm in frustration. It’s most likely only a matter of time until ML has to restrain me during these teasing moments.

3) Mental horniness – I’m really getting hit hard in this area. I’ve become more and more obsessed with getting this damn cage off of my cock. What’s been making it worse has been the glimpses of weakness in ML’s resolve, which have got me thinking of my possible release. I am fighting as hard as I can not to count the days until the cage comes off. But even without counting, it’s apparently clear that August has not even ended yet. Thinking about my orgasm is even worse, it is still incredible for me to think about having to wait another four months or so until my next orgasm. I’ve begun to truly miss it – the feeling of my orgasm washing through my body, my cock throbbing and spasming, the cum shooting from the head of my cock and landing on My Lady’s ass/tits/other various body parts. She sent me a text message earlier in the week of her sticking her tongue out at me, the angle of the pic was from slightly above her face. The first thing I thought was: Damn, I’d love to cum in her mouth and all over her chin while she was on her knees in front of me. And right then, I wanted it so bad, it hurt. But I couldn’t have it, and I won’t have it for a long time.

4) Other details – I feel as though I’m constantly leaking precum. Every night, after serving My Lady in some sexual way by either licking her pussy or sucking on her titties, I feel my cock gushing precum into my underwear as I drive to work. It makes me shudder and, of course, gets me even hornier as I remember exactly what caused it. ML has also begun to externally rub my prostate, which makes the pressure so much worse. My balls also feel extremely sensitive and swollen, the skin around them feeling as though it cannot get any tighter. I’m sure that’s not true, as there is plenty of time for ML to make them fuller and build up the cum that is trapped inside my body.

Every day from here on out (until ML unlocks me) is new territory to explore. I’m sure I’ll find more interesting tidbits to report on. Until then, this is your incredibly fucking needy and horny, desperate for just a hardon, dying for an orgasm correspondent cagedmonkey, saying “God I fucking need to cum.”   🙂

I don’t want to do the whole “sorry we haven’t posted in a few days” thing so I’m not going to. I’m not going to make excuses, rather I’m going to tell you what’s been going on!

Over the past couple days a lot has changed for us and our journey together in life. Really this has nothing to do with male chastity but I’ll get to that. A lot of things happened, fell into place, whatever you want to call it, for us and we had some decisions to make regarding our future. So in short: WE’RE MOVING!!!

And with that announcement (like you all care about that haha) comes so so so much work for the wife portion of a Wife Led Marriage. Now that we are moving – in a month, by the way – I have to fill out paperwork for the new house, take checks here there and everywhere, get copies of this and that and, since we’re moving school districts, I am running to get registration forms, filling them out, collecting all the stuff they want to prove we are moving, taking it back to the new school, informing the old school, returning books to the library… Ok really, you get the gist. I’m a busy freakin woman at the moment.

In a way, it’s a good thing that hubby is in lockdown 24/7 because I don’t have much time to tease and torture him all day like I normally do. That doesn’t mean I’m not mindfucking him and still teasing and having him please me whenever I can, it just means lots less.

So yesterday my one visit to him upstairs before errands was a very intense tease. He was quite literally crying into my chest because of the combined physical and mental torment I was subjecting him to. His Jail Bird was strangling his balls while I rubbed his prostate. I found that during these big long lock ups it can be very effective to externally manipulate the prostate.

I spoke so softly with my lips against his lips, telling him bad I wanted his big fat cock in my mouth, to lick it and suck it and feel it deep in my throat. I’m sure it didn’t help that I also licked him through the cage and gave him a simulated blow job through the cage. Hehe really he would have been writing this all himself but it’s hard for him to write at work lately and even harder to write on his phone.

This morning before he went to sleep after work I texted him to remind him of his situation. You know, locked in a cage, no orgasm for 6+ weeks and no erection for 2+ weeks. 🙂 I guess I started to get to him because I got a couple of texts back from him.

I’m really fucking horny and desperate for a hardon

So I asked him how bad it would be if I decided to tie him up, unlock his cage and leave him to watch as his cock slowly hardened but still received no stimulation.

He said:

Really fucking bad, but I’d still like not having the steel constantly hugging my cock

Hehe I think I’m really getting to him when he’s not even begging, whimpering and crying for an orgasm anymore… instead it’s over just flat out being out of the cage for a simple erection.

So boys… Don’t take those erections for granted, you could be locked in a cage unable to even get one too! 🙂

I am in a bad bad way super mega crazy horny. Like dripping wet quivering pussy horny. Like attacking cagedmonkey very aggressively any chance I get horny. Like I want to rip off his clothes and cage and throw him down on the bed and fuck him silly horny. (Yes, I know there should be commas in there somewhere but who cares! lol)

Seriously, I’m really horny again and I’m having a really hard time resisting using my key. I know what you’re thinking, I’m the keyholder and I’m in charge, why don’t I just unlock him and use my toy to pleasure myself? Well, honestly, I really do want to try to keep him locked, without erection through the end of September like I planned. I really don’t want to ruin the time he’s been in his Jail Bird already or lose the incredible amount of frustration I have already built up in him.

So to keep this keyholder from doing something she really doesn’t want to do, I had to put my key away in a little box. I am very blessed that I have such a good subby hubby who knows my goal and is willing to help me get past this crazy horny bit. I will say that I am at a point that it is not him or his begging or his whimpering that is making it hard for me… it’s my own self, my need to have him, my desire to feel HIM between my legs. Not a strap on harness, not a fake cock filling up my pussy, that’s not what I want. It isn’t about needing to be fucked because that’s easy enough with the strap on. It’s about feeling the man I love between my legs, looking into his beautiful blue eyes and feeling that connection with him. I want to feel that closeness, that tender, romantic love… without the cold hard steel against my leg.

Ok I need to stop because I’m getting myself kinda crazy again writing this. Anyway, for now, my key is put away and not hanging on a necklace around my neck. It’ll have to stay there until I’ve gotten past these feelings.

This journey we are on is a lot about experimenting and trying new things. Some things we find we love, some things are like eh it’s ok and still others we find are hell no’s. In all of the things we explore and try we ALWAYS have this “if anything isn’t working or feels uncomfortable,” thing where we are to say, right away, so that no one gets hurt, our play doesn’t get spoiled and we don’t have any chance for resentment.

I have very much enjoyed our play time with friends, other couples, subby boys, chaste boys etc. These play times include things like email, texting, pics and video. I’ve loved every minute of arousing other people and getting aroused and then taking it out on cagedmonkey hehe. 🙂

I suppose there comes a time when you unexpectedly run into something you had no idea was a “hell no.” Recently, over the course of about a week, we were enjoying some play time with friends and this happened to me. I started to feel off and had absolutely no idea what it was. I started to withdraw, get depressed and certainly wasn’t feeling all that horny. To make matters worse, when I get stressed, depressed or have emotional issues the first thing to happen is an extreme physical reaction. I was in some intense body pain and cried because I hurt so bad. I was having trouble walking and getting up and down the stairs and just trouble trying to function. But, here I was, dumbfounded as to why the hell this was happening to me.

Cagedmonkey knows me so well that he could tell something was wrong. He’d asked me over and over multiple times a day for a few days how I was feeling. I just answered “I’m fine.” I wasn’t lying, I thought I was fine. I mean, we were having so much fun playing with friends and enjoying some sexy sex time and all that… hell I’m the one who initiated most of the play and asked for it. It was stuff to help me tease the hell out of my locked up, denied boy. Apparently, something underneath it all was eating away at me. It’s times like those that I’m so blessed with an amazing attentive boy who is so in tune with me. He makes me so happy and I just dearly love him.

Now that I can think back to when I started to physically feel like crap, I realized it was about the time cagedmonkey had gotten into a role play situation with one of our friends. It wasn’t until last night when I had a break down and talked it out with hubby that we were able to get to the root of it. Basically we found that role play that involves cagedmonkey and a woman other than myself is something that I am not ok with. We found a “hard no” for me.

Over all this was a good thing, a learning experience. Basically with experimenting comes trial and error and I thought I was ok with anything. But, Oh boy, did I find out that, even imagining, my man with another woman was NOT something I could handle. It is something that I have now learned I need a boundary for.

See, with play stuff between cagedmonkey and I, we have boundaries and now I need to make sure that play stuff with others has boundaries as well. This whole situation is the perfect example of why communication is so important in a relationship. Not only a chastity relationship or BDSM or D/s but any relationship.

Have you asked your partner how they’re feeling today?

Cagedmonkey and I had quite a night of playtime last night. We decided, since we hadn’t played cards in awhile, to play some poker. Yes, I said POKER not Poke HER! 🙂 Though… You know that happened haha

Anyway, during our little poker game I made some rules. I’m not really in to strip poker – since I was only wearing a tank top anyway – so I told my sexy subby hubby that if I won a pot of 300 or more that I would make him eat my pussy. I also told him if he won a pot over 600 that I would tease and lick his cock through the bars of his cage. Hehe Aren’t I the sweetest wife and keyholder? 🙂

image

Let’s just say I climbed up on the couch to shove my pussy in his face a lot more since the two of us rarely had a big pot between us. He did get some very good teasing in his cage though, I must say.

image

Of course, after all the pussy eating and teasing and everything he was certainly bulging out of his cage. Mmm I just love to see that cock attempting to get hard bulging through the steel bars of his Jail Bird. I also love giving his balls a good squeeze.

image

Of course he wasn’t the only one turned on like crazy after our little game of poker and it was my turn to get some poking. Though it wasn’t cagedmonkey’s cock doing the poking since he’s not getting out of that little cage for another 6 weeks. I took my horny ass hubby upstairs and had him put on the RodeoH and give me a good fucking with it. I came very nice and hard feeling filled up by the strap-ons big thickness.

image

That’s right baby, hold that big cock in your hand since you won’t be holding yours for quite a while. We ended our night with a few big wonderful cums for me with the RodeoH and the wand and some very frustrating denial for hubby. It really was a fun night and I’m happy we have another night together tonight. I’m not sure what our night has in store but just being with my love is a gift in itself.