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After coming back from our vacation, (shameless promo link for our Mature Metal podcast!) I’ve been trying to focus more on wearing my cage as much as possible. Over the past few months, it’s been difficult to wear the cage 24/7 due to my back pain. Yes, my back surgery was successful, but (thanks to COVID concerns) I was not able to go through a full rehab-type regimen after surgery. This has made my recovery a little rough at times.

Specifically, it was very difficult for me to wear the cage overnight because I would often wake up to very painful cage-erections. They would really hurt, and not in the good “sexual confinement” way. After an extremely bad night, ML and I decided to have me take the cage off at night until things got better.

To be honest, My Lady was able to enjoy the situation by having easy access to morning sex… and, damn, do we have good morning sex! But I still felt that ML was being deprived of her total control of my cock. So over the past couple of days, we’ve decided to try the 24/7 lock up again and see how i handle it.

Good news report: I’ve been wearing the cage since Friday, and it feels great.

Yes, I’m still getting those “4am wake up” erections in the cage… but I’ve decided that I just need to figure out how to deal with them. So now, I’ll change position to take pressure off of my back or something, which usually works enough so I can get back to sleep. Most of all, I’m realizing how badly I miss being locked up for My Lady. Yes, I’m still crazy horny because I haven’t cum all year, but there’s a different intensity to having my erections denied as well. I already feel it building up over the past couple of days, and I’m glad it’s back.

It might take a little while before I can get start wearing it for weeks at a time, but I’m honestly looking forward to it. I know how much ML enjoys having me wear it according to her desires, and I’m excited about getting back to that.

The clock continues to tick, and it is now about two and half weeks since my cock was locked away in the Revenge.

Two and a half weeks since I’ve been allowed to have a full erection.

Two and a half weeks since my cock has felt anything other than steel.*

*Not counting the rough, clinical scrubbing during showers… and now even THAT gets me sexually aroused…

Two and a half weeks since I have even seen my penis.

Think about that and really process it for a second – it’s really hard to imagine that long of a time period without having any access at all to your main source of sexual pleasure. Two weeks doesn’t sound all that long when it’s just an idea; when you’re actually living through it, it feels like an eternity.

I started thinking this morning about which is is more valuable to me at the moment – being able to see my penis or having it touched. Obviously, I’m missing ML’s touch on my cock in a bad way… hell, I’m even missing my own, or even just the softness of my underwear! But, to be honest, I really do enjoy seeing my cock when it’s nice and hard. Yes, I have a big cock and yes I’m proud of it, and yes it’s REALLY nice to see it in action.

So, if I had the choice between the two, would I trade one for the other?

Conceptually, either way could work: ML could simply blindfold me when (if???) she lets me out of my cage, not allowing me to see my fully hard penis; or, she could allow me to see my penis but only while restrained, and use toys on me to tease and edge me without giving me skin-to-skin contact. It can be done, the question is which would I choose if given the opportunity…

It’s not an easy answer.

Being able to see my cock would be nice, but being teased with toys only would drive me crazy – after all, I would be denied feeling ML’s pussy for the duration of the game, which would be really tough to take. Not seeing my cock doesn’t preclude me from having sex with ML, but could also put me in some very strange-feeling situations – I can very easily see ML tweeting or posting pics of my cock being teased or toyed with in various ways, but not allowing me to sneak a peek at the pics. How humiliating would it be for all of our readers and followers to be able to see my cock and the things she does to it, meanwhile I’m the only one who can’t?

If forced to choose, I would probably end up giving up my right to see my cock – I don’t think I could handle not having the skin-to-skin connection with ML, it’s just too fucking good to give up.

And now, my mind immediately begins to wonder just how long I would be able to handle that type of situation…

ML and I have tried to go an entire year denying me orgasms, and fell a couple months short. Do I think I could go a year without seeing my cock at all? I don’t know, that is pretty extreme. But, I guess if it came down to it, I would have to. It’s not like it would cause any major physical or mental harm to me, which is usually my standard for safewording these days. I guess if ML were to decide to try this out, I would have no choice but to hang on for the ride as best as I could.

This latest lockup stint in the Revenge is certainly bringing up some new things. First, I’m finding out that my penis really does enjoy the feel of at least anything besides steel on it (i.e. clothes, skin, even if I’m still locked in a chastity cage); and when I don’t have that softer touch, I start to lose my mind really quickly.

Second, I discovered, unfortunately, that I can make it through an exercise class while wearing the Revenge (I was really hoping for some sort of problem in order to have an excuse to be unlocked).

Now, it’s another new territory I’ll be stepping into: I have a doctor’s appointment on Thursday, and My Lady still had no intention of unlocking me.

In the past, ML has allowed me to take my cage off for doctor appointments and such in order to avoid any awkward moments (more for the doctor than for me, if anything). This time around, I’m meeting with a new doctor – she sees her already, but I haven’t switched over yet. Although she hasn’t mentioned anything about our kinky lifestyle, ML thinks she’s “cool” if it were to have to come up in discussion.

The good thing is that I doubt that I’ll be examined that closely at this appointment; I don’t think my cage will be discovered. But what if it does?

“Well,” ML answered when I asked her that very question, “you’ll have a little explaining to do, won’t you?”

Well, yeah, I guess I will!

Honestly, one of the reasons we’ve been looking for a new doctor is that we felt we needed to find a physician that was somewhat understanding to the things we do – not necessarily “kink friendly” but at least somebody we would feel comfortable sharing our lifestyle details due to health reasons. Both ML and I are getting up in years, and we want to stay healthy and horny for as long as possible.

But is this how I envisioned talking to my doctor about male chastity?

Coming up on almost two weeks straight locked in the Revenge, and I’m really getting agitated. I need to be unlocked soon, my cock is in bad need of ANY kind of attention.

But, on the other hand…

It’s weird. Part of me is SOOOO turned on by how ML has kept me locked for so long this time. Part of me actually is starting to like how it feels when my cock struggles against the steel of the Revenge. Part of me (dare I say it) wants ML to keep me locked even longer…..

What am I saying?!?

It feels like Stockholm Syndrome, in a way, where I’ve come to love the cage while still wanting out of it. It’s kind of stressing me out, because I really don’t know how to feel about what may happen:

– If ML keeps me in the Revenge, will I feel ignored and isolated?

– If ML lets me out, will I wish she would have pushed me further?

It’s at times like this that I need to remind myself that I’m the sub – I need to focus on what ML Lady wants and be satisfied by that. If she unlocks me, it’s good because she wants my penis out; if she keeps me in, it’s good because she wants to keep controlling my cock.

One thing I do realize is that if ML continues to keep me locked (which, I’ve come to realize writing this post, wouldn’t be that terrible of a thing), I am hoping that she realizes that I may come to need more sexual attention by other means. There aren’t many options for that with my cock locked away, but I will most likely need something to keep me from feeling ignored. Both of us have been very busy lately, which makes it difficult to make time for sex; but even if it’s just a few moments of me serving her sexual needs (or her teasing my non-locked body parts), it goes a long way towards knowing she still wants me in a sexual way even though my cock is not available.

So I attended my exercise class tonight with the Revenge locked on….

So there goes my last excuse for being unlocked….

This is good, in a way. This way, ML won’t feel like she NEEDS to unlock me for any reason other than just wanting my cock out of the cage. Only her desire will get me out.

But this also sucks, because she seems perfectly content with keeping me in here at the moment for who knows how long. She is being sexually pleased by my tongue/hands/fingers… does she really need my cock right now? How long until she does?

After 17 days of being locked in my chastity cage 100% of the time, My Lady finally unlocked me last night and within moments I was deep inside her wet, wanting pussy.

And within a few more moments, I was already being careful not to accidentally cum inside her.

It felt SOOOOOOOOOOOO good to finally be released from my cock cage after being locked inside for 2+ weeks – waaaaaay to long for a man to go without having an erection, in my opinion (especially with such a sexy wife with huge, beautiful tits and a deliciously wet horny pussy). ML stroked me for a few seconds before we started fucking, and even her hand wrapped around my cock felt incredible after being denied the sensation for so long.

But her pussy just feels so damn good!

She’s pretty tight under normal circumstances – which is pretty impressive, considering how big my cock is and how much I stretch her out, lol – but when I’m locked up for a while, she feels even tighter on me. But even with that, her pussy just knows how to take me. She gets so wet and slippery, her pussy squeezes me perfectly, and the sex is just fucking awesome.

We indulged in some morning sex today, with ML riding me a little bit before some bent-over-the-bed doggie – My Lady even had a nice good cum on my cock by the end of it. Then, with her excuse being that I was unable to fit my still-hard cock back into the Jailbird, she sent me to work uncaged. Her true plan was to keep me crazy all day long, though, since she has already had me sneak off twice to edge in the bathroom. I’m actually finding it hard to concentrate on anything with my cock free and unlocked like this, knowing at any moment ML could instruct me to tease myself even more for her.

Under normal circumstances, a week goes by pretty quickly – it’s crazy that it’s already November this year! But one thing that always slows time down is having my cock locked up 24/7.

ML has had me wearing the Jailbird since Monday, and she’s making up for lost time by making sure I’m locked up tight for a while. And “tight” is an understatement at times: I was reminded earlier in the week that I usually start having trouble sleeping about 3 days into a 24/7 lock up.

There hasn’t really been any talk of when I might be unlocked; the fact that it will be at least a month is kind of assumed, but after that… who knows? My Lady is keeping me denied of orgasms until Christmas at the earliest, could she also keep me locked unto then?

Today marks 242 years since the adoption of the Declaration of Independence. Coincidentally, today is also one month since the start of my latest (and what will be longest?) bout of orgasm denial. There’s really no connection there, other than the fact that I seem to be obsessed with all things sexual lately due to being so horny.

ML has yet to re-attempt a long lockup time, but I have a feeling it’s coming soon. The question is whether or not I am looking forward to it, also. With the caveat of saying that I love absolutely everything we do, I’m not sure if I’d rather have my dick out or locked away at certain times.

Sometimes it feels like I’m just torturing myself by hoping for time out of the cage. After all, I know I’m not going to get an orgasm no matter what attention my cock gets, so it’s just going to end up as one big frustrating tease. Sometimes I wonder if I’m better off staying in the cage until My Lady wants to use me.

But then I remember how damn good My Lady’s pussy feels on my cock.

It really is amazing, and totally worth the frustration of being repeatedly denied. I am very lucky that ML feels the same way about me, instead of only wanting me out of the cage to torment me… although, sometimes, that is her goal for releasing me.

Hi everybody!

We’ve been slacking a bit on the posts lately because we’ve been so busy here and there; we also took a little road trip last weekend and also took the time to visit some friends, which ended up being a very fun time! I’m sure you’ll be “hearing” about it pretty soon!

With that said, many people have been asking us how things are going since starting the longer lockup and even lengthier denial. Well, I think it’s not a big surprise that I’m horny as fuck at the moment. 🙂

The longer lockup didn’t go as long as My Lady had planned for it to go – she was initially looking for at least a month, but it was only a little more than two weeks before she let me out for sex. I know, it’s such a pain that she wants my cock inside her so badly, ammirite? My Lady was feeling a little down about the whole thing, thinking that she let me down in some way, but I was MORE than happy to get my cock in her pussy. 🙂 Seriously, I don’t get “disappointed” by things like that anymore, mainly because I don’t set expectations that I feel NEED to be filled, or else it won’t live up to my fantasy… I mean, I’m basically living a fantasy as is, why would I need anything more than what I already have? As long as ML is happy with what transpires, then that is all that I want.

As far as orgasms go: I still haven’t cum since my birthday, after a weekend where I had more orgasms than I’ve had over the past 3 years combined at least. ML was trying to make me cum so much to the point where I wanted to stop, but I think she underestimated what these last 5 years have done to me! I’m not sure how many times I came (maybe somewhere in the teens, perhaps?), but after so many years of extreme denial I felt like I could definitely do more. It might take 20 or 30 before I feel sufficiently caught up. 🙂

Orgasm denial has never been a major problem for ML to deal with, at least during the first handful of months; we got through six months pretty easily during our last long run…or, maybe I should say she got through easily, I was out of my mind desperate to cum after two. This time around, we are taking a “let’s see what happens” approach to it all: ML wants to go at least six months, then who knows? Going for a full year or orgasm denial would be an amazing milestone, but if it doesn’t happen, then no biggie. And, on the flip side, if she feels like she wants to go more than a year…. um, well, that would be a big biggie for me, but I guess I would have to go along with it.

Tonight I’m spending the night on the road for a work thing, without ML. This happens every once in a while, but it still sucks every time. Unfortunately, ML and I like being with each other, so we end up missing each other real bad.

But, at least I get to have some damn good fine dining on the company dime!

Yes, it was delicious.

I am wearing my cage for My Lady – not because I need it, but because it makes me feel her control even when I’m far away. She also likes me wearing it, because she knows that I’m keeping what’s hers safe and locked away. 🙂