Tease & Denial

Some of you may know and some of you may not but for a while now, I’ve been looking for a submissive girl to have as a plaything. A good little girl to be mine, to play with how I want, to corrupt. Not just any girl, because I actually want to build a friendship and a relationship with this girl. Sort of like having myself a girlfriend on the side. I have been looking locally, only to find that most were fake or just playing games and not really into actually meeting. I am looking to experience real life play but decided I would expand my reach a bit.

I started with a simple f4f post on Reddit in the BDSMPersonals and, good Lord, some of the responses from Reddit are simply comical – in a not so good way! I have met a couple good people and gotten to be friends from there but the crazies made me pull my ad down and take a break. I was still looking through, though, in hopes of finding a f4f post by a sub looking for a Domme. I should say I put hubby on the task of finding them and passing them along to me. Basically I was making him look for a girl for me to play with. Which, in itself is kinda hot and very frustrating to him to think about the fact that I want him to find the girl in going to make him watch as a cuckold him with a woman. Tied up and locked in his cage as he watches me get pleased by a woman, as she makes my pussy cum and it’s dripping down her chin.

The fun part is, I want to do the same to her, tease her, deny her and force her to watch me get pleased when she is dying to be the one making me cum. I want to dominate her, bind her, spank her, control her. I really had given up hope, if I’m being quite honest. I didn’t think this girl even existed.

Then I got a link texted to me from cagedmonkey. At first I left it sit in my messages without clicking on it. I just really was tired of people. After a bit I gave it a chance, when I read it I was like, “yeah right, he must be crazy, she’s half my age!” Ya know what, I said fuck and sent her a message. I quite simply said “I want to chat more, message me,” pretty much because I figured she wouldn’t so why prove myself haha. I mean, what could happen, she’d be fake, we’d talk for a bit and then conversation would trail off like it always does. Well, not so much! Haha the weirdest thing happened. This girl, we’ll call her Lizzy here, and I clicked like crazy and couldn’t stop talking. We both actually wanted to hear from the other and we talked, for days! It was so much fun – it IS so much fun – getting to know each other. Now an even hotter thing is that she and hubby have started chatting and getting to know each other too. They are almost exactly alike! It’s like I found the girl version of him, I love it! I find it interesting to think that my hubby is chatting away and becoming friends with someone who is basically my girlfriend and who I am hoping I get to see in person to cuckold the hell out of him with.

I have had so much fun, recently, taking bits of control away from Lizzy. I love to hear her call me ma’am. I love to make her follow my instructions and do things to her body for me. She’s my little pain slut too and I love to hear her whimper. I can’t wait to dig deeper with her, to touch her deepest darkest fantasies.

For now I leave you with these images – I mean how could I not be turned on and want to control that body?
image

And damn! She’s just so delicious looking, I can’t wait to get her on her knees, bind her arms behind her, wrap my hand in her long dirty blonde hair and just rub her face in my sloppy wet pussy.
image

It’s amazing to think how far we’ve come. I remember starting out with male chastity and being so turned on by it I could barely keep him locked for days at a time. Let alone weeks or months like we do now. I wasn’t able, back then, to even deny him that long because I just NEEDED it. I needed to feel him inside me filling me up, exploding his warmth deep into me. I really love it. I love that feeling of his cock throbbing and pulsing with each spurt of his cum.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying it’s any easier or I’m not turned on by keeping my husband in a chastity device and controlling his orgasms. It’s just as bad and I need him just as much. The difference is I think we both enjoy the thrill much more now that comes from the longer term denial. The intense horny feelings inside that grow and grow and never seem to stop growing. I think we both enjoy the sexual pull between us, that constant want and desire to be with each other, to do for one another, to please the other.

Yesterday I was chatting with someone who told me they were basically climbing out of their skin by the time they were locked 3 or 4 days. It got me thinking… How long had it been now for cagedmonkey? I counted the days, 80. It’s been 80 horny, frustrating, intensely sexual days and I’d barely noticed the actual time involved. I’d only known that it’d been awhile and fuck I’ve been frustrated but, yeah, it’s been 80… Well over 80 now… days since I’ve allowed my husband to have an orgasm.

I will say that some part of me is not happy with this arrangement lol I had a bit of a breakdown yesterday about how I didn’t want to do this anymore. But it was short lived after having a good chat with cagedmonkey. He did express that he wanted to cum so bad that if I was looking for support in not letting him that he wasn’t able to give it. He would only be able to encourage me to let him cum. LoL He’s so cute when he’s this horny.

I guess when he starts to get comfortable with his horny level and I’m not seeing the frustration, it feels like I’m not good enough at my job. My job is to tease and frustrate the living hell out of him, to make him so horny he’s asking and begging to cum. During these longer term lock ups every so often we get to these plateaus and that’s when we need some intense tease our domination session to kick that horny in the ass and ramp it up a bit more.

I need know what I’m doing is working. I need to know what I’m doing is worth it. I need to know I’m worth it.

So, just a quick post because I’m really not in the mood to do anything more (you’ll understand why in a moment).

Today was my elbow surgery… or i should say i was scheduled to have elbow surgery. That’s an important distinction, because I ended up not having the surgery after my blood pressure went nuts. For a more detailed description of what happened, check out this TIFU post I wrote on Reddit.

So yeah… I’m pissed off, annoyed, disappointed… Just about any negative emotion you can mention, I’m feeling it right now. Today was supposed to be the first step in being pain free for the first time in over ten years. Instead, now I’m looking forward to more time gutting though elbow pain at work, inability to play certain bondage games with ML because of my arm strength limitations (forget hearing about how it feels to be locked in the stockade for quite some time)… oh, and bye bye to that month off of work that I was looking forward to spending time with my wife and family.

Perhaps I should just leave it at the title? Haha

Today, I have my “I’m going to drive you so fucking crazy teasing you” hat on. Cagedmonkey got home a bit late from work so he didn’t end up going to sleep until about 10am. He’s just in there for a nap for a few hours since his surgery is at the butt crack of dawn. It might even be before the butt crack but it’s early anyway! This morning he had an interview for a promotion at work and was wearing a pair of dress pants. They crowd the cage and rather then have hubby grabbing at and adjusting his crotch in front of his bosses the entire time I ok’d him taking off his cage.

I went to tuck him in for this lovely little nap and figured he’d sleep really well after a good tease. Since I’d already had him out of the cage I decided to fill myself fill of his nice big cock. He actually hasn’t been inside me in days and I’ve cum quite a few times since he was allowed. That meant I was extremely tight when I went to slide down onto him. So tight it almost hurt to stretch my pussy, feeling all of him fill me up as I pushed down onto his lap.

I slowly lifted and lowered myself over and over again on him. Teasing his cock, going faster and faster edging him and then stopping. Again slowly teasing and squeezing him as I went up and down. Edging and stopping over and over as I rode him. I really wasn’t in the mood to cum but as I was there riding his cock there, staring me in the face on the shelf in our headboard was the Aeronos.

I told him to turn over because I was going to stuff his ass just I case I wanted to use it later it would be ready for me. I straddled his ass with my juicy wet pussy covering his cheeks. I rubbed myself all over his perfect little bum. I used my own horny sloppy pussy to lube the aeronos and I pushed it between his butt cheeks. Setting it just against his tight opening I began simulating pegging him. I pushed my hips against his but as I slid it in and out with my hand. One last hard trust towards his ass and I pushed it the whole way in.

Then I rubbed my clit on his ass, as if I was pegging him, and gave myself a nice big orgasm. My pussy was a dripping sloppy mess so I slid myself all over his butt, up his back, rubbing my juices all over him. When I had gotten to his head I told him to turn over and clean up his mess. He did and I covered him chin to forehead in my delicious goo. I climbed off of him and walked out of the room and left him to sleep, covered in me, my wetness, my scent, all over him.

How could I let you all go so long without you seeing the big boobies I have that I use to tease cagedmonkey with. This morning before he went to sleep I made sure to show him these beautiful big boobies and make him take this picture so he could share them with you.

image

I surely couldn’t leave it with just a picture, now could I? What kind of a cocktease would I be if I left you to your own imagination? Haha I also made him video this and create the gif for you all as well. I hope you enjoy my tasty titties and this tantalizing Tuesday!

image

Have a great day! 🙂

Haha I just love alliteration! Yes this post gets two titles because I couldn’t decide and I liked them both – I’m a dork! 🙂

The other night was so wonderful. I made a pretty yummy dinner that we haven’t had in a while. After dinner we got the kids moving on some bedtime stuff and at 8pm they were off to bed and cagedmonkey and I had the night to spend together. While I was getting the kids tucked in, hubby was following the rules and removing the clothing from his body. Now that it is getting warmer again he is to go back to following the “no clothes when the kids aren’t around” rule. We keep our house so cold in the winter that I changed the rule a bit. It was so lovely to walk back into the living room to see his sexy naked body and that cage hanging there. It really is such a beautiful thing.

After a bit of a fight with the Xbox we managed to get a movie on to watch. We’d been waiting to see Interstellar since it came out but we didn’t have a babysitter. Last night was the first chance we had together to rent it and spend 3 hours watching it. It was an ok movie but I’m not quite sure what the hype was about. Anyway, I’m not here to give a movie review. I’m here to talk about what happened after the movie!

During the movie I kept rubbing my feet on cagedmonkey and pushing on his cage to remind him just how much I control him. At one point I mentioned to him to take off his cage and he didn’t hesitate. Wee actually did want to see the movie so I didn’t really start any major penis tormenting until after. When I did I dragged it out for a straight 45 mins. Which actually isn’t that long since I typically go about 2 hours sometimes when I tease him.

After the movie I told him we should continue our night in bed. Once we got in the bedroom I started stroking his cock, massaging his balls and getting him amazingly hard. He’s so fucking horny now that he’s been denied 2 and a half months. You know I just love the moans and whimpers out of him when I tease and deny his cock. Seriously I can’t even tell you how amazing it sounds and how arousing it is. Just writing about it and thinking about it right now is making my pussy quiver.

So for the next 45 minutes I did not stroke him fast and edge him over and over like I normally do. I spent those 45 minutes sloooooooowly stroking his cock, uuuuuuup and dooooowwwwwwn, soooooooooo slowly. I could hear the torture in his moans. Just up and down so slowly over and over without stopping. Yes, I have quite the stamina in my arms after teasing him at length like this for almost two years. I’ve also been at teasing his cock in one way or another for close to 15 years.

I really do enjoy feeling him in my hands, knowing that it’s pretty much my movements that control him. My stroking that controls his pleasure or his torment. My stroking that could end the torture and make him shot that hot load right up his stomach. I bet there would be so much right now too. I just continued to stroke, though, teasing him and holding him just under the edge, never really getting him there. Stroking, so slow. Using just my fingers at times to stroke his head and tease him, barely hitting that wonderful sweet spot on the underside that makes him jump and squirm.
image
One of the ways I tease and stroke cagedmonkey’s cock is to lay my hand flat on his belly, the base of his shaft nuzzled between my thumb and index finger. I gently put pressure on his pubic bone while I stroke him. His reaction makes me believe this gives him a more intense feeling but I suppose I should ask him. I know that it does something to him because there are times I will just place my hand there, on top of “mound” as I affectionately call it, and he will buck his hips and whimper out and “oh God.” As if he’s expecting something intense.

I very much enjoy teasing my boys cock. It really turns me on. It makes my pussy quivery and wet. Just writing about teasing his cock makes me quiver, I love it!

I’ll admit, I’ve been a little bit obsessed over our new fucking machine toy. There are just so many possibilities with this thing, my mind is flooded with possibilities! The idea of being slowly tortured by a machine that will never get tired, never feel bad for me, and I’m just forced to take what it gives me.

My Lady already touched on some of these fantasies in her previous post, such as being restrained and forced to watch her get fucked good and hard by the machine. I’m also very interested in how it will feel being slowly and deliberately pegged while locked in the stockade. Even the thought of being pegged by ML while the machine takes my mouth is really hot.

But, without a doubt, my strongest fantasy involves being slowly stroked by the machine for a long, LONG time. I’ve watched the video from ML’s last post quite a few times, and it really gets me going.

I imagine ML locking me in the stockade nice and tight, the waist pad set high enough so I can’t move my hips even the slightest inch. She then sets up the machine to stroke my cock at a maddeningly slow pace, enough to keep me hovering right near my orgasm but never enough to push me over; constant, unyielding teasing that i cannot escape from. My body tries to get the friction and speed it so badly needs to cum by thrusting forward, but the stockade prevents any movement at all. I have no way of getting what I need. I can only wait as the machine slowly breaks me.

As I slowly and inevitably lose my mind from sexual torture, ML goes about her day, often stopping by to rub my face in her pussy or to simply masturbate to orgasm right in front of me, tempting me with the pleasure that is dangling right out of reach.

Keeping me well lubed, My Lady uses the machine to torture me for hours and hours, perhaps even giving herself a nice good cum before drifting off to sleep. The machine doesn’t let me rest for a moment, continuously stroking me as ML sleeps soundly in the bed above me. How long would it take me to completely break down, sobbing and crying in desperate need for the torment to end one way or another? And how much longer would I be forced to endure it?

This fantasy sounds like it could end up feeling like pure hell by the end of it, yet it is something I know that I must experience. I need to feel what it’s like to be in that situation – completely powerless to stop the sexual torture that is being done to me. I wonder if ML has any plans to make this a reality for me.

My whole body was sore after Sunday night. Cagedmonkey was only off one night this week due to some overtime at work so we made sure to make the best of it. Not to mention the illness and craziness of the past two weeks. We finally got a chance to try out the new Sneaky Pete sex machine. When I bought it, I made sure to purchase the Fleshlight and attachment so I could tease and torment the hell out of him whether he was locked in the stockade or just pinned against the couch.

So the other night (as I was live tweeting his teasing) I made him head to the store to get the White Lithium grease we needed to lubricate the machine. We got it set up – literally took 5 mins – and positioned correctly for optimal torture of the man parts. You absolutely need to make sure there is lube both in the Fleshlight and on the penis when using the machine and be prepared to add lube as you go along. It soaks in rather quickly since it must be water based and the machine is non-stop.

I swear cagedmonkey was just hard with anticipation of the torture that was to come. The fucking machine has a dial in which to adjust the speed. It can go from 0-200 thrusts per minute. I sure did test those out on hubby. It was so much fun to go really really fast and suddenly stop, which was something that impressed me about the machine. It responds well to the turn dial and that helped when I certainly didn’t want to accidentally push him over the edge. Since I wasn’t the one feeling his body reactions with my hand I had to rely on his sounds and facial expressions. It worked really well!
image
I noticed how wet my pussy was getting while having that dial in my hand, controlling whatever pleasure or torment I wanted cagedmonkey to feel. My pussy literally quivered every time he would moan and whimper as he got closer to the edge. Hehe damn I love the way that sounds! Anyway, as much as I would like to explain it with my words, I was not the one feeling it so you will have to ask cagedmonkey to write a hot sexy “tortured cock” post about how it felt to have that machine thrusting at him. I can just imagine the mindfuckery that was happening there.
image
The best I can do is post the video I took so you can watch a small portion of the torment cagedmonkey went through the other night. I truly look forward to many more nights of using this machine for more than just torturing his cock. I plan to use it while I force him to watch me get fucked. I plan to use a probe and restrain him in the doggystyle bondage stockade and violate him… endlessly because the machine will not tire. I cannot wait to hear him beg me to make it stop while I giggle at him enduring whatever torment I want to entertain myself with.

Enjoy!

A few weeks ago I order a surprise piece of equipment for cagedmonkey and I. Something we have been looking at for a long time and fantasizing about as well. He had no idea I ordered it until he saw the delivery address on the box the day it came. I order the “Bitch Tamer Package” from the Ken’s Twisted Mind website. The package comes with the Sneaky Pete fucking machine and the custom doggy style bondage stockade. We opted for the waist bar with the pad just in case I felt so inclined as to leave cagedmonkey looked in it for extended periods. We also got the leather wrist and ankle cuffs as well because none of the cuffs we currently have are of that type of quality. If we are going to do it, we might as well do it right!

The stockade itself comes apart and can be pretty easily stored in a duffle bag or under a bed. It can be assembled quite quickly in my opinion as well. The quality of the product is outstanding and very well made. The steel frame is done in black and is very sleek. It is not overly heavy but very sturdy during use, no wobbly parts, even though it is in many pieces before putting it together. Hubby was able to wiggle it over on the carpet but it wasn’t easy and there is no way for him to get out of it.
image
It’s got many parts that are adjustable. The height of the steel locking collar, height of the waist pad, width of the restraint bars and the overall length of the stockade itself.
image
We had no issues setting up the stockade. The pieces all fit together perfectly and there was nothing missing. We did have one issue with one of the vertical bars being welded just off enough to cause a “lean” but I simply emailed Ken, sent a pic to show him and he’s mailing me out a new piece.
image
The other change we decided to make was to the ability to adjust the length of the overall stockade. The stockade comes with two cross bars for the ankles and wrists to attach to. The one bar is a through bar, so you can adjust where it sits on the middle one but the other had a closed end which you can see in the pic above near the steel collar bar. We contacted Ken and asked him to make us a second cross bar that goes through so that we can adjust where both the ankle and wrist bars are on the middle frame. We think it’s going to be better to have that one more adjustment if I ever got locked in the stockade… I’m a bit shorter than cagedmonkey! 🙂

I really cannot say enough good stuff about this equipment. It’s really well made and shipping was within a week, so total it was about a week to make and deliver from the time I ordered. Customer service, so far, has been pretty outstanding. I get a response fairly quickly when I email. I haven’t had to call but that option is there too. I love that this is a small business in the US and that means we are supporting people out there trying to make it and we get really fast, cheaper shipping with it being in the US.

Cagedmonkey fits rather well in the stockade but with his elbow issues we are unable to use it for extended periods just yet.
image
If you can see, he’s reaching just forward with his arms, which is why we wanted the adjustable cross bar. We want to be able to bring his arms back just slightly so it’s a bit more comfortable. That way I can leave him locked up like that for longer periods and have time cause the discomfort rather than the stretching forward.
image
It really is a sexy piece of equipment and we can’t wait to put it to full use fulfilling the many fantasies we’ve both had about using it. Due to hubby’s pending elbow surgery we can’t get him locked in there and try out the attachable fucking machine yet.
image
However, that doesn’t mean I can’t just use the fucking machine to tease and torment him without using the stockade. I did get the Fleshlight and the attachment to go with the machine. It also comes with a Vac-u-lock attachment for use with any Vac-u-lock dildo. You can get a lot of different accessories with this machine for various things and they are all pretty reasonably priced at the Ken’s site.

Looking forward to the many uses this machine and stockade have and the many hours of fun in our future.

Wait a minute… since when am I the one who’s feeling denied of all things naughty, hot and sexy?!?!? Haha that’s exactly how I’m feeling today! Since cagedmonkey has been sick there hasn’t been any playtime and I’ve been so tired from taking care of the house, kids and running to and from everywhere that I haven’t even masturbated. If you know me at all, you know this is unheard of! I’m the Lady who cums sometimes 15 times in a day, not none in a week. Ugh, needles to say this accidental denial is totally catching up with me and there is nothing I can do about it. Not for a couple days anyway.

I started my period yesterday. Yes, I know full well some of you out there (me included) say “so what!?” get off anyway, but the first couple days of my period are always so heavy, messy and painful. I don’t care what you’re into but in not into blood play, even from mother nature. In a couple days when things get lighter, I’m more than happy to flaunt my cumming abilities to all the locked up horny subby boys. For now, I’m denied, argh!

For some crazy reason, today, I’m awfully horny. Maybe it’s the conversations I’ve had the past couple days with some cute girls or potential subby boys, maybe it’s the built up arousal from taking such amazing care of my sexy subby hubby, maybe it’s just me! Who knows but I cannot get it out of my head. I’ve had the desire to dominate the hell out of my hubby, to force him to please my pussy for a solid hour, maybe longer. To just enjoy myself all over his face with no regard to his pleasure whatsoever. Sigh, it’s just too bad I can’t right now (or won’t for those out there that need that wording).

However, what I can do is slap the hood on my love, pop him in the bondage sack and tease his cock and balls until he is a whimpering, begging, whining mess who can do absolutely nothing but take whatever I give. I’m pretty sure he’s feeling well enough that I can safely tease him without him having a coughing fit. If he does, well, I’ll have to adjust. All I know is that in feeling rather aggressive and I want to tease him so bad, for so long that he seriously is begging me to stop and he means even single breath of it.

Oh, and, and and and! Today I went in the bedroom and mmmm I saw his ass and just had this overwhelming horny thought of bending him over the side of the bed and giving him a good pegging. I might have to have a little fun with his ass tonight too. He is off work again tonight so I might as well take advantage of the time we have together and do all the things I want to do to him. We’ll see though, just how tired I am later. 🙂

Oh and wine… damn it, I want some wine. Who’s going to go pick me up some Red Cat?