It’s getting close to 3 months since my last orgasm, and usually around this time I start to feel the beginnings of a growing obsession. The obsession centers around the basic premise that you always want what you can’t have. I miss my orgasm so much that it begins to become a focal point of my desires. When my obsession gets this strong, it can really hurt when I’m reminded about what I’m missing.

When I was scrolling through Twitter the other day, I came across a short video clip that punched me right in the gut: it was a woman sucking on a cock, she pulled it out of her mouth and began stroking it and aiming it at her tits. A second later, the cock was spurting cum all over her chest.

God, how I miss doing that.

I was stuck for a moment, watching the clip over and over as her tits were just absolutely covered in cum. And of course it got me horny, but I also got a little sad while watching it – I realized that it’s going to be a long time before I get to actually do that again. In fact, it might be a VERY long time, if ML is thinking the way I suspect she is (more on that in another post). I started thinking back to the times where ML gave me a reprieve of sorts from denial and let me cum as much as I wanted, and I started to feel desperate for another one of those times.

I’m definitely not wanting out of our orgasm denial fun, that would be absolutely silly. After all, this is why we do what we do: so I can experience these intense feelings and emotions just from seeing cum on a pair of boobs. I can’t help but think that I’m missing out on so much pleasure by not cumming for months on end. I know it ends up worth it once I’m finally allowed to… it’s just hard to be THAT patient.

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My Lady can be so evil…

After reading the draft of this post, she decided to assign me a couple more clips to watch, and describe my feelings here. I’ll be seeing them for the first time, click the links to follow along.

First clip:

Ok, that was hot. There’s just so much cum, it soaks her shirt and just keeps on going. It’s a huge mess, but such a great one. ML’s tits are so nice, I would love to see them with my cum dripping off them. No tease or dragging it out in the clip, his cum just spills out so easily… makes me highly jealous.

Second clip:

This one hurt. Again, so much cum, it just doesn’t seem to end. I don’t get to masturbate very much anymore, and the last time I made myself cum was who knows when, so this is doubly frustrating. Add to all this the fact that the cock is somewhat similar to mine, and it’s just one big visual “what it would look like to cum” being shoved in my face.

Well… those clips definitely made things worse, which was most likely EXACTLY why ML had me watch them…