denial

All posts tagged denial

My Taste of Freedom

Posted by JonMustWait on April 25, 2014
Posted in: Male Chastity, Tease/Orgasm Denial. Tagged: , , , , , , , , , , , , , . 4 comments

Last night I had my first full erection in over two weeks. Oh… my…. GOD did it feel great! I never expected something as simple as my cock getting hard would be such a wonderful feeling, but I gotta admit that it was incredible. After being locked in the Jalbird for 24 hours a day for 17 days straight, just sitting there and seeing my hard cock was very fulfilling. I felt like a man again, sexually strong and powerful… at least, to a degree. My Lady still controlled my cock, allowed my cock to get hard, and also did not give me permission to cum. But I was willing to take what I could get!

And if just being able to get hard wasn’t enough, My Lady allowed me to feel the inside of her warm wet pussy with my cock. Holy fuck in heaven, it was so amazing. She was so fucking tight, she was squeezing me so hard. I warned ML that I couldn’t do much since I was basically on the edge of orgasm the moment my cock sank into her pussy. No problem for her, she was already cumming just from having my cock stretch her out for the first time in a long time. She also rubbed her clit to give herself an even bigger orgasm after that. I managed a few thrusts as she was cumming to help boost her high a little, but I still wasn’t able to do much.

It felt wonderful to finally be free and able to feel My Lady’s pussy with something other than my tongue, my fingers, or my caged cock. Flesh on flesh, there’s nothing like it. I am lucky that ML feels the same way, that she will always have a need to have me inside her and that no toy could ever take my place.

My freedom was short lived – I was back in the Jailbird within a half hour in order to get to work on time. My Lady plans on using the next month to tease me to the brink of insanity. She is very excited that she has now decided that she will be letting me out a lot more often during the month of May; without the protection of the cage, she can really let loose on teasing my cock. Will I be longing for the days that just passed, where I knew the limitations of ML’s teasing, and all I had to deal with was the crushing tightness of the steel around my throbbing shaft?

I Can’t Take it Being Locked in Chastity 24/7

Posted by Michele on April 24, 2014
Posted in: KeyHolder, Male Chastity, Tease/Orgasm Denial. Tagged: , , , , , , . 6 comments

image

I couldn’t do it! I was trying to keep cagedmonkey locked 24/7 for a month. A month with no erections, no touching his penis, not feeling me… and ultimately me not feeling him either.

I made it 17 days! Haha it seriously felt like way longer than that. Especially that first moment I took off his cage and saw his cock instantly become erect. Cagedmonkey had no idea I was going to unlock him. I’d actually made the decision earlier today but we didn’t have a chance at alone time until almost 8 pm when the kids went to bed. After tucking them in I took off my necklace where the key hangs. I put it in the palm of my hand and only revealed it to hubby when we were in the middle of making out and dry humping like teenagers. 🙂

Once I got him unlocked, he turned the ring to put the post behind his balls. That helps with it poking me during playtime. Then slowly, very slowly he slid his raging hard cock into my pussy. Stretching me as he slowly filled me up. It wasn’t even a minute before my body reacted. It felt absolutely incredible to feel my pussy tighten around his big fat cock. Squeezing it so tight, my body shaking as I came so hard. The orgasm was so intense and long and I was unable to let out my screams that it ended with a headache. A headache well worth having!

So I’m sure we’ll try the zero time out again but for now I’ll be playing with my toy often until June. I’m still aiming at maybe day being in June – at least! I love feeling how much he wants me, how horny he is for me constantly. So, who knows, maybe I’ll want to keep him there a while! 🙂

Chastity Soundtrack

Posted by Michele on April 23, 2014
Posted in: Male Chastity, Tease/Orgasm Denial. Tagged: , , , . 11 comments

image

Driving wearing his monkey pants!


Of course cagedmonkey and I are driving back home from my father’s Memorial and what song comes on the radio? “You Can’t Touch This” haha he certainly can’t, can he? 🙂 I did get a cute little tease in while singing it to him and made him smile.

Overall, the services for my father were good. I’ve done a lot of crying the past few days and cagedmonkey has been my rock. Such a man just being there for anything I need. He was on kid duty a lot because being around my very large family I end up being pulled in 20 directions from everyone who wants to talk to me.

The past few days have been so hard and I miss my hubby even though we’ve been right next to each other! We haven’t had much intimate time but last night I made sure to get me some. Cagedmonkey had gone to bed before me and had fallen asleep so when I came in I took off my dress and climbed in bed with him to press my boobies against his naked chest. Oh man did it ever feel awesome skin to skin like that. We made out a bit and then snuggled together and fell asleep. Though we were up a couple times at night because he was dreaming about us and would get some touchy feely stuff in.

We’re about 7 hours from home and have to wait that much longer to finally get some quiet alone time together. We cannot wait!!

Three Days to Tease, Please & Deny pt 1

Posted by Michele on April 16, 2014
Posted in: Male Chastity, Tease/Orgasm Denial. Tagged: , , , , , , , , , , , , . 1 comment

Today was just the beginning of three days with the kids at day camp. Hopefully you’ve read what happened first thing this morning, if not, you’ll just have to click here.

So we laid down together to nap and I really did try to nap, I promise. However, laying there in cagedmonkey’s arms was quite literally maddening. You see, we don’t often get to lay together sleeping in each other’s arms. Before I could even fall asleep I ended up having two spontaneous (is that what they are?) orgasms. I just laid there shaking, cumming in his arms. Omg, the feelings of love flowing through me were making it that much worse. I felt so connected to hubby, so safe, so wanted and desired.

I did last there for a little while trying hard to sleep. Cagedmonkey fell asleep right away since the poor man had been at work all night and still hadn’t been to bed yet this morning. I knew he had to get some sleep but, still I laid there, with thoughts of sex running through my head. I really couldn’t stop thinking of wanting to do things to cagedmonkey. Finally after spending time writing my earlier post, playing some games on my phone and wasting as much time as I could, I just needed to attack him.

I lifted the blanket to expose that gorgeous ass of his, I rubbed his cheeks, kissed it and then took my wand to his asshole. Haha I’m sure that was an interesting way to be woken up! Then I rolled him on to his back and sat right on his face. While he was busy licking my pussy, I played with his caged cock. I licked that sweet spot on the bottom side and felt him moan into my pussy. Btw, that is something that completely makes me gush. I kept teasing, licking and kissing his straining cock while he could do nothing but slurp up my sopping wet juices.

He continued to lick me as I got lost in the pleasure. It made me want to milk him for some reason. So I grabbed Pearl and gently pressed it into him. I took my wand and put it on the base of it and turned it in to a sort of vibrating dildo. The moaning in my crotch got much more intense and my pussy got that much wetter. I held it there, licking him through the bars of his cage while sending vibrations through him to his prostate. I, then, told him to get up on his knees (which we found was THE position) and continued to vibrate him and massage his balls in a 69 position while he was still licking my clit. It didn’t take long in that position to get that precum pouring out of him. I milked him a nice puddle on the bed… which also meant we had to strip the bed and wash the sheets. 🙂

After all that I was well cummed out and he was emptied but extremely desperate for an orgasm, we came downstairs and took a shower together… then I made lunch!

Breakfast in Bed with a Side of Orgasm

Posted by Michele on April 16, 2014
Posted in: Male Chastity, Tease/Orgasm Denial. Tagged: , , , , , , , . 10 comments

It’s Spring/Easter break around here so the public schools are off for the week. What that means is, cagedmonkey and I decided to find the kids a day camp to attend for a few days so we could spend time alone together at home. From today until Friday the kids will be gone during the day from 8am to 4 pm. That’s a whole lot of time for a couple of horny people to get in some serious action… if they wanted to. 🙂

This morning after dropping the kids off, I stopped and picked up breakfast. I got naked and brought it upstairs and cagedmonkey and I enjoyed a pretty yummy breakfast in bed watching “How I Met Your Mother” on Netflix. After breakfast, the laying together naked didn’t take long to turn into full blown screaming orgasms (by me!).

It started out innocently enough with kissing and touching but, I have no idea if it’s the kids not being home or what, I just dove right in and got all crazy kissing hubby. He instantly was kicked into overdrive and he pushed me back and laid me down on the bed. I told him I wanted to fuck him so bad! I really wanted to feel him inside me. I was arguing with myself in my own head because he’s not coming out of this cage until May 4th!

All that kissing, groping and simulated sex had my pussy soaked and aching for an orgasm. I told him I wanted to feel him in me, cage and all. It was awesome, even feeling that, his warmth between my legs, his body against mine… mmmm wonderful. I told him I was going to cum on his caged cock and I started rubbing myself. That’s when I really realized the kids weren’t home and I could use the wand and cum loud as hell over and over again. I told cagedmonkey to wait because I wanted to cum really hard on his cock and I grabbed the wand. He pushed his caged cock into my sopping wet horny pussy and I started the wand. Holy shit it didn’t take long for those vibrations to go through me. His cage was adding to the effects of the wand. The wand was vibrating my clit but at the same time hitting the steel and vibrating it right into me and I could feel it down into my asshole. My entire body was shaking ready to explode with a huge orgasm. I was moaning so loud, screaming “oh God yes!!” and “FUCK!” in between my screams. I was thrusting up at hubby cumming so hard, squeezing the steel cage around his aching attempted erection. I came so hard, so much and so long that I just eventually laid back limp on the bed breathing heavy and moaning. My throat is sore from screaming out my orgasms. I told cagedmonkey he had some cleaning up to do. My pussy and ass we’re soaked with my juices.

Once he began to clean up, sucking and licking my pussy clean, I was already getting way too turned on again. I told him to stop, I rolled over into my stomach, positioned the wand under me at my clit and told him he was going to tongue fuck my ass real good and I was going to cum some more. 🙂 Using both hands he spread my ass cheeks and started licking and tonguing my asshole. Good Lord it feels so good and drives me crazy when he does that. I seriously cannot contain my moans. Thank goodness the kids weren’t here! I was quite literally screaming through another orgasm as the wand hit that sweet spot and hubby’s tongue pushed me over the edge. My entire body was violently shaking, practically vibrating against cagedmonkey’s face as I pushed my ass in the air and came again extremely hard.

Wow, what an amazing couple of hours that was this morning! Fucking unreal! After that, we didn’t even clean up we just spooned and fell asleep together for a couple hours.

This was certainly was not the end of our play today but… what happened next, certainly needs it’s own post! Please check back, it’ll be written sometime soon! 🙂

Conversations in Chastity: It’s Tough For Us Keyholders, Too!

Posted by JonMustWait on April 15, 2014
Posted in: Conversations, Male Chastity, Wife Led Marriage. Tagged: , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , . 4 comments

Lady M: I can’t get enough of feeling your body, touching you all over.

cagedmonkey: I love the way you touch me.

LM: I want to touch you all over. I miss your cock.

cm: Yeah, about that… can I ask you something out-of-role?

LM: Sure, baby. What’s up?

cm: It seems like lately you’ve been really missing my cock… I’d say almost as much as I do, but that’s pretty much impossible. But I’m getting the vibe that it’s starting to take its toll on you too. Do you want my help with finishing the whole month you planned to have me locked 24/7? If you start to break down, do you want me to remind you?

LM: I’ll be okay. When I tell you that I miss you cock, I’m just expressing myself. I’m not going to pretend that I don’t miss it.

cm: Good, I don’t want you to pretend. I also kinda like it that you miss it.

LM: Right. See, I can’t play that “hard ass Domme” role like I don’t want your hard cock. This stuff is hard on me too, you know.

cm: I know, but I need to know how bad you want this. Because I obviously want out of the cage, and if you start getting weak I can’t guarantee what I’ll try to talk you into it. But if you REALLY want this to happen, I’ll try my best not to push it. We may need to work together when we try to stretch to new limits.

LM: I do want to make it. I will let you know if I need your help. It’s only a few weeks, I should be able to make it.

cm: You say “only a few weeks” as if it’s not that much time. To me, it’s “a few weeks!”

LM: Only a few weeks until I get to wrap my hand around that big fat cock of yours.

cm: Mmmmm, I love it when you describe it like that!

LM: Well, it is big and fat… but only when I allow it to be.  😉

The Man Without a Penis

Posted by JonMustWait on April 14, 2014
Posted in: Male Chastity. Tagged: , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , . 3 comments

A few nights ago, My Lady and I were laying on the couch together, and things started to get sexual… as they very often do nowadays. 🙂 We began kissing and touching each other; things started to get really hot, really quick. I rolled over on top of ML and began thrusting my hips towards her as I kissed her deeply. All of a sudden, both of us felt it at the same time: we flipped the “power switch.” All of a sudden, I felt very dominant and powerful over ML.

When I get dominant, I tend to talk dirty a lot. I rubbed up on her, and I started asking her if she wanted to get fucked. If she missed taking my hard cock deep inside her slutty wet pussy. ML was getting turned on, too, pushing back up against me as I pushed my hips down against her. I pounded my hips down on her, doing everything I would be doing if I was fucking her pussy as hard as I could… except for the fact that my cock was still locked in its steel cage, of course.

Afterwards, I started to get a little down. All of the simulating of the dominant, forceful sex kinda made me miss it a bit. I realized that I really do miss my cock. I miss being able to fuck My Lady hard and deep. I miss the way ML’s warm pussy feels when it’s squeezing my cock. I miss being able to fuck ML more than three thrusts at a time. Hell, right now I just miss my cock getting hard!!!

I didn’t expect these feelings to show up so strong and so soon into the 24/7 month. I’ve gone 24/7 longer than this, but not with the pretense that I would be waiting an entire month for my next full erection. It’s really getting to me this time around. I’m not really having second thoughts about all of this – chastity is still the most amazing thing that has happened to our sex life, and I wouldn’t change it a bit. But still, I can’t deny that right now a decent part of me truly feels like a prisoner locked away against his will. This is when chastity truly becomes “enforced chastity.”

Books I Would Recommend to Keyholders & Couples in Chastity

Posted by Michele on April 14, 2014
Posted in: Advice, KeyHolder, Male Chastity, Tease/Orgasm Denial, Wife Led Marriage. Tagged: , , , , , , , , , , , , , , . 6 comments

If you’ve been reading our blog you’re already familiar with the fact that I am a huge researcher. When I’m interested in something I search the hell out of it on the internet and I love physical (& ebooks) books. As a new Keyholder I was happy to find that there were actually a few books out there for Keyholders and about male chastity. I have been into tease & denial since cagedmonkey and I got together but it is always great to find a book to give some ideas for that as well.

Below are just some of the books I’ve read on these subjects; well the ones I care to review and recommend to other Keyholders.

In all my research I was extremely happy when I found those certain key words to search that brought me to the websites with real life male chastity information. People who are married, love each other and live the lifestyle how they want it to be. Btw, those magic key words? Yeah, I finally got around to using “male chastity and/in marriage.” What a huge difference that made in weeding out the fantasy world.

That’s when I found Thumper’s blog as well as Sarah Jameson’s blog.I found that Sarah had written books that were available on her site and that is what got me started on hunting down books.
image
Sarah’s book main book (if she’s still selling it) is a bit pricey however she does have a couple free ebooks. Her tease & denial guide and guide to male chastity & orgasm denial (no I don’t feel it’s a “complete guide” but it’s a good read anyway) are pretty good for a Keyholder who might also be new at tease and denial. You can also sign up for free emails from her that do offer some good advice.
image
image
I can tell you that Sarah’s book is a pretty good book. It’s a very gentle, easy read and focuses on male chastity in a marriage. It really would be great for a very vanilla wife looking for information on this lifestyle. Though with all the other books out there, now, it’s hard to justify the cost of her book (which was an ebook/pdf when I got it). 🙂 I think it could be a great resource if she lowered the price and possibly offered it in print format.

A couple of cheaper books are available on Amazon.com. Georgia Ivey Green has a book “A Keyholder’s Handbook: A Womans guide to male chastity”
image
This book has some good advice for a keyholder on chastity but be aware she also talks about some other fetishes such as feminization, humiliation and others. This book is less than $10.00 and well worth it in my opinion. As with any self help type book, you take what applies to you and leave the rest. Nothing is the end all authority on how to live your FLR or chastity lifestyle.

Mistress Ivey also has another book “How to setup an FLR” which is a great read if you are also looking to expand your chastity lifestyle to include a Female Led aspect.
image
This book gives a couple a lot to think about in regards to what they each want from their relationship. It has questions for both partners to see where they are in terms of flr. We used this book to help write our chastity agreement.

Another book available from Amazon and is more vanilla than Mistress Ivey’s book but is an excellent starters guide is “Male Chastity: A Guide for Keyholders” by Lucy Fairbourne.
image
This book is in both paperback and ebook format which is also around $10.00. It’s well worth it again in my opinion. If you are looking for a book to start with or to introduce your wife/partner to chastity and being your Keyholder, this would be it. As the book states it is a very “non-threatening, female-friendly introduction to the topic of male chastity, ideal for nervous keyholders or as a love-offering from a would-be-chastened male.” This book is a gentle approach to the subject and written in a very matter-of-fact style. It really is the perfect way to introduce this kink.

I try to give my honest opinions on the things I use or read. I hope that they are helpful to those who check out our blog and those looking to get started in this wonderful lifestyle. We love and embrace both the chastity and flr/wlm parts of our relationship.

Please feel free to add your own opinions of these books in the comments. If others are anything like me they would love to hear more than just one point of view.

Sentenced to the Jailbird

Posted by JonMustWait on April 8, 2014
Posted in: KeyHolder, Male Chastity, Wife Led Marriage. Tagged: , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , . 4 comments

So the HUGE piece of news I teased in my last post was already spoiled by ML in her last post, unbeknownst to me: My Lady has decided to keep me in the Jailbird 24/7 until the May 4th. No removing the cage. Not even a cursory release for my poor cock. I will be locked up for the next 26 days straight.

624 hours.

37,440 minutes.

2,246,400 second.

Not like I’m counting or anything.

My Lady and I have talked about trying this for quite some time. When we were discussing it, it really turned me on. How would I respond to not having an erection for an entire month? How will I feel after it’s been so long since I’ve seen my cock get hard? How will it feel when my cock is finally free of the steel and can swell to its full size?

Now that it’s happening, it’s a little bit overwhelming. Although ML has caved in the past and given me mercy during some of these “extended” times or denial or lockup, I have a feeling she’s not going to crack so easily this time. She’s very curious about the reactions she can coax out of me. If I start getting desperate, she may just grow to love it. Who knows? Maybe I won’t even be getting out until my next Maybe Day in June? No clue. No control over it.

Right now, I’m a little stunned. I know for a fact I’m really going to miss my hardon. I like it when my cock gets hard. It feels nice. I’ve come to enjoy the feeling of my cock pressing against the steel cage, but it doesn’t compare to the feeling of my cock getting nice and thick and big when I’m turned on. The longest we’ve ever done a 24/7 lockup stint is ten days I think, and I started to get a little antsy near the end of that time. I went into what ML likes to call “bargaining mode,” which is when I start to try to make a deal with her in order to get just the tiniest need filled. For example, near the end of that ten day period, I was literally begging ML to give me a ruined orgasm, just so she’d let me out and touch me. Again: I begged My Lady to give me an utterly frustrating ruined orgasm just because I needed to get hard and be touched. This was after ten days. I wonder what My Lady will have me doing by the end of this run.

Feeling The Vibes

Posted by JonMustWait on April 8, 2014
Posted in: Tease/Orgasm Denial. Tagged: , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , . Leave a Comment

My Lady had some errands to run this morning, so she decided to let me stay in bed while she took the kids to school and got her stuff done for a couple of hours. “How nice of her to let me sleep,” you say? Notice, I didn’t say she let me sleep.

Technically, she made me stay in bed by cuffing my wrists to the bed. Then, she used her new favorite toy – the bondage rope – to fix the wand so it would rest right on my cage. She wrapped the rope around my legs so I couldn’t move them apart, to make sure I couldn’t move the wand from where it was. It would stay there until she got back from her errands. She hit the switch and turned on the wand to about medium vibration setting and left me there, blowing me a kiss on the way out.

Dear God, it was such an intense feeling! I was almost immediately moaning and squirming around on the bed, or at least as much as I could squirm around. The wand was vibrating my balls as well as rattling the cage around my captive cock, constantly teasing me without mercy. Although my cock was nearly crying for relief after about a half hour, I will admit the vibrations were somewhat relaxing. I must have dozed off once or twice (and had some extremely odd dreams about walking around in public with ML with the wand tied on me… very strange… lol), because I woke up with a start when My Lady texted me to see how things were going. I was about to text her back to say that I was surviving the treatment, but when I reached over to get my phone something… happened.

I don’t know if the wand shifted ever so slightly when I moved, but all of a sudden my cock started twitching and the wand was really starting to have an effect on me. It felt like at any moment, the wand might just make me cum in the cage! So I texted ML about it, telling her that I wasn’t sure but the wand might end up making me cum. Her response?

“Really? Cool! I wonder what it will feel like after, if you do… hehe”

What??? Oh God, I hadn’t even thought of that! Is the wand going to give me post orgasm torture? Will I be able to handle it? What am I supposed to do?

I tried to fight it. I held off as long as I could. But I couldn’t stop it. The wand kept pushing me and pushing me. And finally, I felt it. I was cumming! I could feel my cock twitching and pulsing in the cage, pushing against the wand. I dribbled a little bit of cum over my balls, but because I was still confined to the cage I couldn’t get a nice good cum. It was very much like a ruined orgasm – yes, I got there, but I was by no means satisfied. After my cock finished its spasms, the wand kept up it’s vibrating assault on me. Luckily, I think the “ruinedness” of the orgasm helped me avoid the post orgasm torture I was dreading. I was a little sensitive, but it was by no means as bad as I have heard about. After I was able to calm down a little bit, I was actually able to get back to sleep for a little while until ML got back home.

As for now, I feel as if a little bit of the edge has been taken off due to my ruined o, but DEFINITELY not enough. I’m still horny as fuck, as sexually frustrated as I’ve ever been (perhaps even more so), and still desperate to cum. So not much has changed!

My Lady also dropped a HUGE piece of news on my after I woke up today. But that’s something that’s big enough for an entire post on its own!