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IT’S THIS LADY’S BIRTHDAY TODAY!!!

Yeah, you know you read that title thinking it was cagedmonkey’s birthday, right? Well it’s not! It’s mine, but, that doesn’t mean I don’t have some special plans for my locked up hubby man. Don’t be mistaken thinking my denied guy is going to get an orgasm because that is just not in the cards today. He WILL still be waiting until his birthday in June for that… or at least that long (perhaps I’ll deny him until Christmas!).

Today, it’s been almost a month since cagedmonkey has touched his own penis. If he has been unlocked he’s been restrained and not allowed to touch. If I have unlocked him, I’ve been the one to remove and replace his cage. He’s dying to stroke himself, let alone just touch himself in general. So my plan for later is to unlock him and use our bondage rope to tie his own hand to his penis so I can pull up on the rope and force him to stroke himself. He really wants to touch himself but I’m going to force him to do it how I want him to. He won’t really have a choice in HOW he gets to touch himself. 🙂

I’m really getting into the bondage rope and I’m going to buy myself more. We even bought a book to learn knots and techniques, but that’s for an entirely different post!

It should be a pretty interesting thing and I’ll be sure to take pictures and share how our little adventures go tonight. I’m really looking forward to his reactions – you should know by now how much of a reaction junkie I am – and sharing it with all of you! 🙂

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As my current denial period has been going on and on (and on and on and on…), I’ve noticed that both my cock and my balls have gotten SUPER sensitive. When My Lady has unlocked me I’m usually moaning at the very first touch of her hands. My sensitivity doesn’t apply to my unlocked periods alone; my cock is almost more sensitive when it is locked in its cage, it seems. ML has taken advantage of this frequently over the past week or so, rubbing the head of my cock through the bars of the Jailbird, or even snaking her tongue inside to tease my flesh with her warm wet tongue. Being teased by ML is one thing, but the thing that has been driving me a little bit crazy lately is how everyday mundane tasks end up teasing me in some weird way.

My balls have felt extremely full over the past few days. I don’t know if it’s because My Lady has been teasing me more and I’m getting a little backed up with pre-cum, or perhaps it’s simply that I NEED TO FUCKING CUM FOR GOD SAKES. I’m so sensitive that certain pairs of pants have made it difficult to sit down without giving me the sensation of having my balls gently squeezed. It’s a little hard to concentrate on work when I’m sitting at my desk and I can feel my balls throbbing to my heartbeat.

So far, the worst of all has been the shower. It’s bad enough when My Lady and I share a shower; having her soaked & sexy naked body so close to mine, performing the task of soaping and rinsing her soft skin, kneeling before her in the shower to wash her legs and feet… it’s all VERY arousing. But even when I’m alone in the shower, I can’t escape the torture of a cock teasing. The spray from the water seems to tickle every sensitive spot on my cock, and it’s usually no more than two minutes into my shower before I’m softly moaning. And when it’s time to wash the cage, and I need to massage my balls and soap up my shaft through the cage, my knees immediately get wobbly. It’s almost too much to handle!

I still have at least 2 more months before I get to cum, and I can imagine my sensitivity issues are only going to get worse from here on out. Two months… that’s a helluva lot of showers from now until then.

Oh my goodness gracious, great balls of fire! I just went upstairs and I was getting my little freak on with hubby. I was kissing, licking, sucking and biting him in various spots. I was getting all “growly turned on,” you might call it primal. It was freakin crazy with him moaning and me getting more and more into it.

I was all set to head back downstairs after my little visit but something struck me. I realized I haven’t made cagedmonkey wear the njoy butt plug in awhile. We’ve just been so busy it hasn’t come up. So before I headed back down I inserted it and explained to him (in a sexy whisper in his ear) that I’m taking control of his sexual sensations for the entire night. I told him he will wear the butt plug the entire day and he will also wear it out to date night tonight AND to work. That’s something I’ve never made him do yet but, hey, there’s a first time for everything! I am a nice Keyholder and I did tell him the ONLY reason he would be allowed to remove it would be to go to the bathroom (if you know what I mean). He is to replace it when he is finished though. I also explained if he got uncomfortable, too bad and if he got really uncomfortable he would be allowed to add some lube.

I got so very very turned on during all of that! I ended up forcefully pushing him onto his belly and positioning myself on his ever so sexy ass. I started grinding on him and could feel my pussy get wetter and wetter. Oh I can’t even explain how freakin turned on I was! While I was doing it cagedmonkey turned his head back toward me and whispered how he was starting to feel like my little slut. That did something in me and I said, “oh yeah?” I put my hand on the back of his head and shoved his face in the pillow and told him how I know he liked me treating him like a little whore. I told him soon he would be being me to fuck him like my dirty little whore, begging me to cum while I fucked his ass so hard, deep and fast. This type of aggressive talk went on for a bit and I could feel myself getting lost in it all. I could feel myself slipping into top space.

I abruptly stopped, got up and said, “I have to get out of here.” As I was walking out I told him to get some sleep and that I loved him but that I had to go.

I knew I had to get out of there once I felt myself doing that because our daughter was just down the stairs doing some school work on the computer. I was worried I would lose it completely, get carried away and get too loud or something. I could feel that I could have easily fucked him so hard at that moment. I felt that I easily could have gotten caught up in the moment and treated him like a little whore, like a piece of meat and just used and abused his body. I’m not sure what I would have been capable of doing if our daughter wasn’t downstairs at that moment.

Sometimes I surprise myself with the feelings I get in the midst of a tease session. I surprise myself with the things I say. I get nervous, in a way, of what I might be capable of during that.

Last night cagedmonkey took me out to a nice bar & grill not too far from the house. When we were younger we use to go out every so often (usually when visiting my friends and family out of state) and do karaoke. I’ve recently said how we need to get back out doing those things we used to love doing. So cagedmonkey looked up a bar that had karaoke and decided we were going. We had such a fun night eating appetizers and having a few drinks and just talking. We spent a good time talking about goals and our thoughts and feelings about how our relationship is going. We also talked about the chastity and how we each feel it’s going and If anything needed adjusting. It really was a good night. We didn’t stay out too late since our babysitter had school in the morning! 🙂

During our date we talked a bit about how I’d like to learn some rope skills to get into tying him up more. So once we got home we did a little research and I actually learned how to make rope cuffs. I practiced on him. What I really want (we need lots more rope) is to be able to tie him to a chair. 🙂

After a little practicing with the rope we were going to watch a little tv but I got my paddle instead. I haven’t given cagedmonkey a good spanking in awhile so I had him bend over the couch. I spanked his ass while I played with his caged cock. I ran my fingernails on his shaft through the cage bars. I massaged and fondled his balls and loved hearing him moan. I even grasped around the base of his cock just behind his ring and stroked the base of his cock. We didn’t get too much more into anything than that but we had a fantastic night as a whole. 🙂

The longest we’ve made it in tease and denial is one month in our 14 years together and I just have to ask myself why? Cagedmonkey has been denied orgasm for 3 weeks now. This is the third or fourth time, since we got into this whole chastity thing, where we’ve gotten to the 3-4 week mark. I realized something last night as we were having a little sexy sex time.

Yesterday morning was a particularly mind fucking morning. I just love tucking hubby in and whispering all kinds of crazy, dirty, naughty things in his ear while I grind on him and have an orgasm. It really just drives him completely bonkers. What was worse yesterday morning was that I unlocked him, rubbed my wet pussy on his ass while I held his rock hard erection in my hand against the bed. I did those little teases often throughout the day yesterday, even used his cock a few times and then by last night he’s was highly hair trigger aroused. So much so that he could barely look me in the eye without almost cumming. Let alone moving while his cock was in my pussy.

I could see in his face how truly and completely frustrated he was, it looked almost painful. That’s when I started to notice my Dominant Keyholder feelings going from “haha this is funny” to “oh no my poor baby” and feeling bad and sorry for cagedmonkey. I kept thinking to myself maybe I should just let him cum. That was exactly when I realized THAT is the whole reason we don’t make it past a month. I start to see the real, not funny anymore frustration and my brain automatically wants to switch to “making him feel better” mode.

The best part about this whole chastity thing is that our communication is super fantastic. So last night I needed to have a conversation with hubby about this. When we first started out we had to work together just to get past the first couple days and then weeks but after talking last night we realized we are at a spot where we need to work together again to get over this hurdle.

We talked about what I felt I needed to be ok with pushing him further. Obviously I’m having emotional/psychological issues with it. We came to the conclusion that, not during teasing or denial, but after I really need to hear that he actually likes that I denied him. I need praise and encouragement to know that I’m not really hurting him or doing something that will cause him to resent me or have anger toward me. I know I have some abandonment issues so that helps when we are trying to figure out what I need. I need to know that deep down he IS enjoying our play and what I put him through (or at least loves to hate it and wants to not want it haha) and that I’m not going to push him away and make him leave me. Yes, to the “normals” that might sound crazy but buried somewhere in my brain that is the root of my loss of confidence.

I’m just glad we can talk and work these things out to make our game the most fun it can be. Communication is key in any relationship but even more so in chastity, tease and denial our any kinky relationship.

My Lady and I have been fighting off a very severe cold/flu for almost a week now, but things are finally starting to turn the corner towards healthy. Finally! Perfect timing, too, since ML’s cycle is just about finishing up as well. What does this mean? It means that we are back to being the crazy horny fucking perverts that we have come to be!

Tonight after I put the kids to bed upstairs, My Lady and I shared a wonderful shower together. She soaped up my back (yum!) and I dutifully soaped up her entire body (double yum!). It was nice to hold her close to me and kiss her under the warm water, especially with winter hanging out just a little too long around here. I even washed ML’s hair, giving her a nice shampoo and conditioner treatment. I couldn’t resist giving her hair a slight playful pull as I massaged the conditioner in; this led to her bending over just the tiniest bit, and shortly after I slid a finger inside her nicely cleaned asshole. She moaned as I softly thrusted in and out; ML sounds so sexy when she moans in the shower.  🙂

When we were out of the shower, her naked body was too much for me to resist. I began kissing her soft skin, moving my way down until I was on my knees in front of her. I began licking her clit and My Lady wasted no time in pushing me down on the floor and straddling my face, shoving her pussy down onto my mouth. I greedily licked her pussy, glad to finally be able to taste My Lady’s juices once again. She pulled my hands up to her tits, making me squeeze them as she came all over my face. Both of us were smiling as I picked myself up off of the floor; we’ve BOTH been missing this so badly!!!

Before I left for work, we once again took a moment to get a little frisky (kissing, rubbing My Lady’s clit, making her cum standing next to me as I held her close). Taking that moment started pushing me into “gonna be late” territory, so I asked ML if she would help get my dinner together. We both went to the kitchen; I went to the cupboard for snacks and she went to the fridge for the leftovers set aside for me. I turned around and saw her amazing, jaw-droppingly perfect, round, naked ass as she was bent over looking in the fridge. On instinct, I dropped to my knees behind her and shoved my tongue into her asshole.

Oh God, the sounds she made were just fucking OOOOOOH! She was breathing very heavy, and she pushed her ass back into my face, wanting more of my tongue. I stood up and saw her, grasping the door handle of the fridge, shuddering because she was so turned on. I couldn’t possibly just let it end there, could I? Of course not!

I pushed her down to bend her over just a little more, rubbed her beautiful ass with my hand, and gave her a nice hard spank on her right ass cheek. My Lady gasped and moaned, wriggling her ass back and forth. I spanked her again, and she moaned even louder. Then, My Lady started ordering me, “Spank me again, harder.” And I did, each time giving her a harder slap and she would moan even louder after each one. Then I slid a finger inside her pussy, spanking her ass as I thrusted deep inside her. Her legs began to tremble and her moans crept closer to becoming screams of pleasure/pain.

I could tell she was on the verge of another orgasm. I leaned over and whispered into her ear, “You know I’m going to spank you HARD right when you cum, right?” All My Lady could do was nod as her orgasm rushed towards her. I felt her body stiffen and her moans of impending orgasm began. At the moment I could feel her passion reach it’s highest point, I shoved my finger as deep as I could and gave her the hardest slap possible. My Lady arched her back and let out a loud, passionate moan; I could feel her pussy clenching hard on my finger. She came hard! It must have been triggered by the spank on her ass, but I could tell it was very intense. And DAMN was her ass so red when I was finished with her.  🙂

It was so nice to have this time with My Lady, finally after so much time away from her. The horny definitely has come back for both of us, and I’m sure ML is going to use me to satisfy herself as much as possible to make up for the week we missed. I, on the other hand, will be waiting a much longer time for my satisfaction….

Ok to continue on from what happened in part 1 of our 5 hours at home alone…

I decided it was time to give cagedmonkey’s cock a good long teasing. What a great time for it too since he was all tied up and hooded. I edged him for quite awhile, stroking him over and over, stopping just before he could get any pleasure. Then it was time to see what my wand could do. I vibrated various places on his cock and balls and at different speeds just seeing what reactions I would get. I think I spent a good half hour just testing out what spots did what. I just loved watching him squirm and moan.
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Something I’ve wanted to try for some time was tying the vibrator to cagedmonkey’s balls and to leave him there to endure. So I went to our little box of tricks and got the bondage rope. I tied the wand to his balls and wrapped it around him and then the door knob. It was an interesting setup and made it nice and easy to play with him from the door way. After I got him tied up, I put in the porn dvd and got it to a nice spot where all he could hear was fucking. I whispered to him through the hood to enjoy and I would be back… I was going to take a shower. 🙂
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He was left that way for about a half hour while I went downstairs. I was totally loving hearing him whimper and moan upstairs, there was no way I could take a shower. I got myself some milk and cookies and enjoyed listening to him. When I thought he’d had enough I went up and untied him, let him loose and gave him some loving aftercare. That’s actually one of my favorite parts, holding his head on my chest, making him feel good. Letting him know everything is ok, how proud I am of him for taking what I put him through. I love taking care of my subby hubby.

I absolutely love when I get so hungry, growly horny and dominant with cagedmonkey. His reactions to my aggression are fucking outstanding!

We’ve been sick so not too much play feels like it’s been happening around here. Yes, I know you’ve read about a few things and maybe they are pretty good things but it’s certainly not enough to satisfy this building, mega horny I have going on these days.

**Side note: for those keeping track I should be starting my cycle soon. I get unbelievably horny – dripping wet pussy – during the week before.

This morning I went up to “tuck in” hubby and restrained him, took him out of that Revenge (man I’ve been dying to do that!), and got me some cock! Mmmm Damn was it good feeling his big hard cock sliding into my wet pussy as I rode him. I had myself a couple orgasms, sat down on his face to give him something to sleep to and left him, tied up there, to sleep while I headed out for errands. He still had not seen or touched his cock now in over a week.

While I was out, I couldn’t get him or his uncaged cock out of my mind. My horny was building all morning into the afternoon. When my daughter and I got home, we ate lunch and I went up to “snuggle with daddy” while she played some on the computer. Boy, did I ever snuggle with cagedmonkey haha!

I rolled him over on his back and started out by straddling him at his knees. I leaned down and cagedmonkey mentioned how he knows I like to watch him get hard and that I’d get to see it. I looked up at him put his chubby at my lips and told him I could FEEL it get hard and I sucked all of him into my mouth. I love to hear him moan, I swear I have an addiction to it! I gave him a pretty good blow job, slipping, sucking and licking his big thick cock, taking him deep in my throat. I couldn’t take it too long, with his moaning and cussing, before I had to slide up his body and sit down on his cock. As I slid myself up and down on his cock over and over my aggression was growing stronger and stronger. I came so hard just looking at him tied up there, vulnerable and helpless.

Something about me that becomes clearer and clearer, through all of this, is my complete love of seeing, feeling and hearing his reactions. It pushes my arousal to a whole other level. I get this growling almost angry type sex thing going on. I fuck him harder and I get so much wetter. I was soaking his entire crotch and mine just cumming over and over, squeezing his thick cock in my pussy grips. I had gotten so incredibly turned on and his cock was so slippery, covered in my cum, that I reached back under myself and positioned the head of his cock at my unlubricated asshole. I was just so fucking hot for him, so aggressive toward him. The look in his eye when I stared right into them and I literally shoved his cock deep and hard into my tight asshole. It was uncomfortable but he knew that cock was mine to fuck however I wanted. That, at that moment, it had nothing to do with him. His reaction was amazing, he gasped and moaned and his chest lifted up off the bed. So freaking awesome!!

I fucked myself deep and hard in the ass, I spread my ass cheeks to get him as deep as I could. I felt his balls between my cheeks as I lifted up and down, fucking myself. I just had to cum with his cock in my ass. I leaned back, felt how super dripping wet my pussy was and I slathered up my hand and wiped it all over his face. Oh God, his moans!!! It took seconds to get to climax after that… seconds! I came so hard, my asshole clamping down on his cock so fucking tight.

You would think I’d be done from there, right? ha! I got off, cleaned him and me up a bit and then sat on his face. I forced him to lick my pussy while I edged him, stroked him over and over, letting go at the last minute. I finally ended our time together with a lovely ruined orgasm. He managed to get one shot off that hit me in my big titties but I cut off the rest and he dribbled cum on to his belly.

Within minutes, he was locked up again. This time I put away the Revenge and locked him back in my favorite, the Jail Bird. He so damn sexy in it! 🙂

Now if only I was feeling better we may have had a much more exciting time! Damn sore throat, cold, whatever this crap is needs to take a hike!

The “no look/no touch” rules have been in effect for a week now, and I’m really starting to miss the fuck out of my cock. This morning before I went to sleep, My Lady wanted to feel my cock inside her. She cuffed me to the bed, had me close my eyes (for convienence), and climbed on top of my cock. God, her pussy felt so fucking good.

My Lady left me cuffed during her cock ride, driving me crazy holding and squeezing her tits and teasing me with them. She bounced and rocked on my cock, being careful not to get too carried away and accidentally drive me to orgasm. When it came time for ML to get hers, she sat down on my cock taking me fully inside her. She then rubbed her clit fast, reaching orgasm in a matter of seconds. She looked directly into my eyes as she came, her pussy clenching my cock tightly. I couldn’t help but moan loudly from the intensity of the physical sensations and the dominant eye contact she was making; my body lurched upward in an uncontrollable bodygasm.

When ML was finished using me for her pleasure, she covered me with the blanket so I could not see my cock, and left me cuffed to the bed so I couldn’t touch (or move the blanket). Giving me instructions not to “hump the mattress” (I may have had she told me not to!), she left me to find a way to get to sleep. I could feel my rock hard cock underneath the blankets, finally free of the cage yet I was unable to enjoy even the sight of it. It took quite a while for me to get to sleep. When ML came upstairs later to release me, I was soft enough for her to put the Revenge back on.

So it has officially been a full week since I have last seen my cock, or even had the opportunity to touch it. My Lady has hinted that she may bring an end to it this weekend and allow me to see and perhaps even touch my cock. I’m hoping that she chooses to have mercy on me with this. She has been able to enjoy the sight of my hard cock while I have had to go without. Just one more thing that she gets and I don’t.

Because of this morning’s events, I was not able to post about what happened last night after my bath until now. I can’t really complain, though. 😉

My Lady is truly enjoying using the hood to torment me and isolate me from my own penis. After my bath, My Lady decided that she wanted to have some time with her toy. She sat me on the couch, cuffed my hands behind my back, and pulled the hood over my head. Then I felt her unlocking my cage once again, and my cock sprang free in an instant. God, that first moment of freedom feels SO FUCKING GOOD. Then I felt ML climbing up on the couch to straddle me.

She rubbed the head of my cock up and down her pussy, slightly teasing herself with my cock. After a few moments, she took me inside her pussy, sliding down all the way until her ass was on my thighs. She started to bounce slowly up and down, careful not to stimulate me too much too fast… it has been about a week since I last had an orgasm, so I’m pretty much on a hair trigger right now. I could hear her moaning as she rode my cock. It felt so wonderful to be inside her again.

Then I felt something being rubbed against my face in the hood. My Lady was rubbing her huge, soft titties against my face. I immediately started to groan in frustration. See, I absolutely LOVE to watch ML play with her tits while I fuck her, especially when she is on top. They are absolutely a perfect sight to see, but now I was being deprived of this treat. I wanted to see them. I needed to see them. But I was not allowed. She continued rubbing her tits against me as she fucked against me.

My Lady slowed her pace down and let my cock slip out of her pussy. The I felt her reach down and grab my cock, holding it upright as she pushed her hips down towards me. Then I felt my cockhead pressing against My Lady’s tight asshole. She was going to take my cock in her ass using only her pussy juice as lube. It was a good thing she was so wet and horny, because I slid inside without much difficulty.  🙂

It was even more difficult holding off my orgasm with ML’s tight ass squeezing my cock. I wanted nothing more than to fill her ass up with my huge load of cum, but I obeyed like a good boy should. After a few minutes of ass fucking, I felt My Lady hold still and begin rubbing her clit. She was going to cum with my cock in her ass. Oh….. my….. God…..

She came hard. Her ass clenched around the base of my cock, and I had to fight hard not to cum along with her. Every molecule of my body wanted it, but I was not allowed. She rocked back and forth, thrusting my cock in and out of her ass as she continued to cum. It lasted about twenty seconds before her ass released its grip on my cock.

I was still not allowed to see my cock, even after my remarkable performance in holding off my orgasm for My Lady. She cleaned me off and left me cuffed and hooded on the couch. She sat back to watch some TV until my cock got soft enough to go back in the Revenge. In it went, and off came the cuffs and the hood.

So… My Lady seems to be getting her fill of whatever she wants, while I am left desiring what I cannot have. Is there anything better than this?  🙂