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As I said the other day I got cagedmonkey locked back up in the Steelworxx Revenge.
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While in the Revenge I decided he would have to be maintained. He was going to need to be let out for shaving and cleaning because, I don’t know about others, but those fully enclosed devices get so stinky. I also figured while he would be locked in the nearly enclosed device we would do a “No look, No touch” thing. So tonight I decided to schedule in some maintenance for my darling boy.

After the kids went to bed I had him get everything I needed to give him a shave, including the hood and cuffs. I got him situated on the floor in the living room and cuffed him to the table leg. I removed his cage and base ring and took care of getting him shaved.
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While shaving him he had gotten a huge boner so I decided to take advantage of it and give him a fantastic teasing. My hand was already pretty lubed up with water and shave lotion so I just began to slide it up and down his entire pelvic area. I rubbed his hard cock and his balls in one sweep. I then started stroking him, fast, edging him and he quickly was bucking his hips and moaning. I used one of my favorite techniques, where I tease the head of his cock and oversensitize him and he just started whimpering and moaning and writhing around. It turns me on so much seeing him that way. Putty in my hands while I stroke, tease and torture his cock.

Now, cagedmonkey has no clue at all that I took this short video during the teasing and this is the first he is seeing it, right along with all of you. Since he is doing no look, no touch, he will only see the same pictures and videos I show on here and all of you will see before he even gets to! Hehe so much fun, so much torment!


After he was sufficiently teased I waiting until he was soft enough and put his cage back on him. Then I sent him off to take shower and clean the rest of his sexy body.

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Sometimes it amazes me that his big cock even fits in there. Granted he wasn’t fully soft in these pics but it’s not much different. I did manage to squeeze him back in there myself without stabbing him with my fingernail or pinching him with the posts! 🙂

Hope you enjoy the video!

Over the past few days I have been teasing and teasing cagedmonkey and not really giving him much of a break at all. Once he’s this horny I do love to continuously drive him completely bonkers. He’s so hair trigger horny that he gets instantly hard if he’s not in his cage and he easily gets “rooty” if he is in it.

Since he’s been off work the past couple days, and I’m due to start my period, I decided to have him unlocked so I can tease and use him at any moment without having to remove his Jail Bird. His teasing has been everything from being forced to please me with his hands and mouth, to being forced to watch me please myself, my stroking him to the edge over and over and/or ruining an attempted orgasm and even me riding him or having him please me with his cock.
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It’s been quite a couple of frustrating days for him, I’m sure. Pushing him more and more each day has gotten me thinking. I want to drive him deeper and deeper into his submission and push his level of horniness. I mean, I am making him go 6 months without an orgasm but he’s still getting the satisfaction of feeling my pussy, my mouth or my hand. I started to wonder today how deep he’d go if he couldn’t see or touch his own cock for a few weeks of this denial period.

So my plan is to give him a good dose of “No look, No touch” in the Revenge for a couple weeks. Now when it comes to the Revenge I don’t like the whole hygiene part of leaving him locked 24/7 so I will be working maintenance into his wear. The maintenance will consist of me removing the tube portion of the cage to clean him, however, cagedmonkey will be cuffed and blindfolded during it.
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It should be an interesting couple of weeks, seeing just how ridiculously achy and horny I can get him. I figure while he is locked up for the next couple weeks in the Revenge and I won’t have use of his cock, I’ll be using “Adam” quite a bit on myself and using my new strapon, that I love, on him often. Sure hope his ass is ready to be used more than it ever has.

I’m looking forward to the moaning, whimpering and begging to come in the next week or so.

Yesterday I spent yet another day teasing and frustrating cagedmonkey. This time I did not allow him out of his cage and I didn’t interrupt his sleep too terribly much. I went in, teased him a bit, mindfucked him a bit with some suggestive whispering in his ear and then went about my errands for the day.

Later in the afternoon I was exhausted because the day was going so rough so once I woke hubby he offered to let me go lay down and cook dinner for us. How sweet he is to give me some time to refill when my parenting tanks are tapped.

Once I got all snuggled in bed for a nap I figured an orgasm would be just what I needed to get some rest. I just so happened to mention that as he was walking out the door from tucking me in. I took the opportunity of being alone in the bedroom and cagedmonkey stuck out in the living room with the kids to tease him like mad and create and even more frustrated situation for him.

I started using my wand, vibrating my clit and thought how amazing it would be if he got a picture play-by-pay I’d what I was doing to myself in there while getting off. I sent him picture after picture of what I was doing and I could feel the frustration in the responses.

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As my pussy was being vibrating, I could feel the warm wet juices begin to flow. I felt my entire crotch quivering right inside of me. I felt this feeling of wanting to be filled up and feel that big think cock sliding in and out of me.

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I started to fuck myself with “Adam” my very realistic feeling favorite dildo. He responded with, “omfg, no way!” Mainly because I’ve only used “Adam”on my self once or twice before and he never has seen it. He was texting me back frantically begging to come watch me while I came but I just kept sending things. I even made him a video to drive it in deep.

Click here to watch the video
(sorry not the best quality – still working out adding video to the site – bear with us!!)

I think it made it worse as I kept escalating what I was doing to please myself. It was so hard to see step by step how I was getting myself off and he was stuck dealing with the kids. Once I fucked my pussy good with “Adam” I just needed a really big cum while I was stuffed full of that thick dildo. So I added the wand and pushed myself over into a full body-tightening orgasm. I only wish I could have screamed out!

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Just after this picture I received a text from him to which I simply text him back:
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He came in the bedroom, I let him pull Adam from my pussy and lick the entire thing clean of my girlie goo. He then washed it and put it away in our bin. I did also demand he clean up the mess between my legs and I allowed him to make me cum one last time.

“Thank you, now go so I can sleep please,” was all I said as I rolled over and closed my eyes. I heard him sigh in complete frustration as he was walking out of the bedroom door.

Yesterday, when cagedmonkey got home from work, I had him take off his cage before bed. He’s so sensitive after about 7 weeks of denial and even the blankets were teasing him. I had him sleep without his Jail Bird so I could have access to him at any time. I certainly took advantage of that while he was trying to sleep. I did make it quite difficult for him.

Every so often I would go visit him in the bedroom and he’d get woken up by me stroking his cock. He sleeps with a sleep mask on because it’s too bright in our room so it’s a bonus he’s basically blindfolded. I would stroke him nice and hard and then walk out. One time I stroked him to just before the edge, I gave him a hard squeeze around his shaft and licked him right across his lips. I didn’t say a word and just walked out. I could hear him moaning and cursing as I was leaving.

I did that a few more times through the day and when it was time to wake up, I got completely naked and woke him up by climbing on the bed and straddling him. I pressed my naked body against his, our warm skin touching on every possible part. I felt his cock hardening beneath me. I smiled at him an awfully devious smirk and said “ooo little man is ready to wake up.” Cagedmonkey was no where near awake so he could only sputter out moans and groans as I slowly slid my nipples up and down his chest.

I lifted my hips and slid him inside me, filling me up so full. I just love the feeling of his big cock filling my pussy, stretching it so perfectly. It’s a feeling I can not get enough of sometimes. I used him like a ride-on sex toy, sliding myself up and down his shaft getting his cock all sloppy and creamy. When I was finished with him, I climbed off of him, grabbed my clothes and as I started to get dressed I simply said, “time to wake up!”

Yesterday I started to feel a bit depressed and I couldn’t exactly put a finger on the specific thing that was making me feel down. I do know that it hit me quick and hit me kinda hard. One of the crappy things about being so in tune with my mental state (I’ve got way too many years of therapy to thank for that) is that I FEEL my depression kick in almost immediately. I feel my body change and my thoughts change. Yes, it’s an AWESOME thing that I can now do that because I can get right on top of it and work out the problem before I spiral out of control down into a deep hole. So, I knew something was wrong after cagedmonkey came home and asked “do you think I could get out and maybe sleep more comfortably?” For some reason that really got to me.

When I got up yesterday morning and was texting with CM on his way home from work, I was excited about maybe putting him in the bondage sack and depriving him good sleep and just tormenting him all day. It was exciting to think about all the things I wanted to do to tease him and drive him crazy. After all, I had spent the night before sending him pics and video of me getting off with my wand. It really seemed to drive him nuts.
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After he got home and asked me to get out in such a non-urgent way it just gave me this feeling that he wasn’t even horny. I felt like he wasn’t aching to get out and that all the teasing and stuff I’d been doing wasn’t frustrating him at all. I LOVE to see his frustration, to hear him beg, to know that what I’m doing is making him bonkers. I mentioned to him that I thought he should unlock and masturbate because he didnt seem all that submissive to me. I felt like maybe he was just bored and done playing my game. This apparently confused him because in his mind he was feeling very submissive – I just wasnt seeing it outwardly. This is where the wonderful communication in a relationship comes in.

Our conversation was through text messages because of the kids, it went like this:

CM: I’m sorry you feel as though my desire to be dominated is gone…. I don’t know what is causing these thoughts, but it’s not true…. I love being controlled by you, being kept by you, being yours and only yours all day every day…. Is it possible that you are questioning your own level of passion for this? Could it be that you are projecting – instead of me not being as submissive as you like, in fact you are not being as dominant as you want to be? Not trying to blame you, I promise, just trying to figure out what the deal is.

LM: I don’t feel like I have any loss of passion… At the moment I don’t feel submission and maybe it is my fault maybe I’m not being dominant enough, maybe I’m not intense enough… I’m just feeling inadequate.

CM: I don’t feel that’s true. I’m enjoying everything about us.
Would you like me to stop “asking out”? Is that me taking too much power from you?

LM: I don’t know what I want… I want to feel like you NEED desperately to be out and that’s why your asking and not feel like it’s a “hey yeah, I was thinking I could sleep comfortably” thing… Maybe what I need is to keep you locked up a little extended and tease you to tears. Maybe it was just that whole situation made it feel weird… Maybe I need to hear some me and you fantasies too. Not stockade, fucking machine, girlie play partner, abandonment fantasies but you and me fantasies from you. To feel like there is still this dynamic in your mind between us and that all that other stuff isn’t necessary. I dunno, I guess sometimes I feel like I’m competing with the bigger fantasies and maybe I won’t live up to those.

CM: I don’t “fantasize” about us too much because it’s already real and I love it! Maybe I’ve gotten too much into the “don’t expect anything” mentality, but I haven’t shared too much only because I don’t want to push you or affect you, etc… I was really hoping you’d follow through with your “sleep sack” idea today. It’s been a while since you’ve done any full bondage/teasing type stuff…. I didn’t want to push too hard and mention it/ask for it because that’s not what I do anymore. We’ve had a lot of “starter” moments lately – like the other day when you were stimulating pegging me on the bed, etc – but not a lot of times where we’ve actually played together. I figured you were getting back into it on your own pace, so I didn’t want to pressure you.

LM: I guess I at least want to know that you think about and desire things between us… it’s not about asking because I like that you don’t ask or push me or annoy me to do things… but telling me “oh I was thinking, last night, about that time when you tied me to the bed….” or “I dreamed about us laying together and I realized you had tied me down and you were masturbating next to me and I couldn’t move to help or touch you or even look at you” etc. Knowing that you think about me sexually, that you remember those times makes me want to recreate them or do something similar… it let’s me know that I did something good and you liked it and you want it again. It’s not you asking when you are reminiscing – even if you wrote about it on the blog – how “that one time” felt, how you loved it, what you loved, that you’d love it again… stuff like that. Being “caught up” in something we did – not obsessing but the “wow, ugh, awesomeness, frustration” and reminiscing – that’s a good word to describe it… not getting stuck in a moment or on something we did but being caught up in it just enough to show me “fuck that was awesome can we do it again?”

CM: I will try harder to find that “middle ground.”

LM: Btw we’ve had those moments but then the playtime is lost and, today… I just felt blah after this morning and my oomph for the sleep sack drifted quickly and I had this why bother feeling… like it wouldn’t matter if I did because I’m not good enough anyway.

CM: I’m sorry I haven’t been giving you what you need.

LM: I don’t think it’s that YOU haven’t been giving me what I need… I just think I’m figuring it out, right now, talking to you… that sometimes (obviously not all the time!) I need to know what I’m doing is good and appreciated and wanted and desired. Maybe I’m completely wrong and I just suck.

CM: You don’t suck, I wish you sucked more, tbh 😉
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My achy needy penis

Ok, ok you can see where that conversation led after that. Having that conversation actually catapulted us into an extremely frustratingly horny day. I was sopping wet all day while we were sexting and sneaking playful moments here and there when the kids were busy. It was wonderful to talk about all the naughty, playful, kinky things we do again. I’ve missed hearing how tight his cage feels or how what I’m doing is effecting him. I think we got to a point where it just felt so normal to horny all the time and he must have figured I knew he was horny, so why tell me. Well… telling me fuels me, keeps me going and makes me eager to push the intensity level. I really am just figuring this out and I’m so happy that my marriage is in a different place now. Two years ago, we’d never mention sex, let alone have a conversation about anything that was bothering one of us. We would hold on to it and let it build resentment – it was how we coped with the fear. This is SO much better and I love being in this place with my husband. I love him and where we are emotionally, spiritually and sexually.

It’s crazy that I just thought about the fact that cagedmonkey has been denied over a month! It hardly feels like it! I remember not too long ago I was dying to have him orgasm myself by now but this time, a month feels like nothing. It’s interesting how things change in a year and a half. It seems like this whole 6 months of denial might not be as hard as I thought. Who knows… maybe at 6 months I’ll be like, eh that wasn’t so hard, lets go another month and another! Who knows how long we can go without him orgasming! 🙂

Today has been so much fun. I’ve been teasing cagedmonkey throughout the day. At one point I texted him, told him to go in the bedroom and stroke his cock nice and hard. I didn’t tell him for how long or anything and off he went. I soon followed and stood there, hands in my pockets, watching him stroke himself. Then I pushed him back on the bed, bent his knees and put his legs up. Our bed just happens to be the perfect height for a pegging so I simulated that while I stroke his cock. I loved hearing him moan while I was fake fucking him.

I continued my hip thrusts against him while I was stroking his cock, I rubbed my hand up his stomach to his nipple and as I pinched it I said, “I bet you’d love it if I was fucking you right now and made you cum all over your stomach.” He just moaned out an, “oh yes!” It was really very pleasing to tease him and intensify his horny that much more.

I can’t wait till later. The kids will be going to bed soon and we plan to have a couple drinks and then it’s playtime! There will be no falling asleep early tonight!

Last night was the first of our two nights together and it was such a lovely night too. No, we didn’t get all naughty kinky crazy sexual, we just enjoyed watching tv and being close. Cagedmonkey was locked right up until we went to bed. I actually wasn’t going to unlock him because I wanted to build his frustration. Then just as he was getting in bed I told him to take off his cage, just in case. 🙂

Since we only get two precious nights together naked in bed, I cherish those times. Last night, as we lay there completely naked, our warm skin pressing together, I thought about how horny I was for him. I thought about making love to him, about feeling him in that amazing way. Then I thought about how incredibly frustrating it must be to finally be unlocked and laying naked together. How bad he must have wanted to be in my warm pussy. I love to increase his horniness, to tease him and make him want me desperately.

I can just imagine how bad he was aching to be with me as we lay there, his cock hard against the soft skin of my ass. Not to mention those times I woke in the middle of the night to run my hands on his body. Those times I trailed my fingers over his skin, around his sexy hips to tickle, tease and fondle his cock.

Not sure how many times I can say it but I really, really, really do love being a cocktease.

I really do love that we can go from intense fantasy-like sexual times to very sensual loving more vanilla-like times. I love that I can be with and enjoy my husband this way. It wasn’t always like this. There was a time when I was anxious about any amount of affection because the motive behind it was always sex, sex, sex. It’s just not that way with us when I’m in control. We have much more sex than we ever have and much more intense sex. It really is an amazing thing.

Tonight… I can’t say, is going to be as sensual or as vanilla because I’ve only been up for 2 hours and my pussy is aching in my panties right now. I’m aching to feel him, to be with him, to cum good and hard on him.

Wow, did I ever end up horny the other night. Cagedmonkey and I were making out on the couch and I even had an orgasm rubbing myself on his lap. It all just got me going so much that I just needed to feel him. I pulled him on top of me and made him simulate making love with me. God, just being with him in that position, in that way, makes me bonkers. At that moment, period or not I told him I needed him. I needed him to get that cage off and to make love to me. I needed to feel his thickness inside of me. I needed to feel my pussy clamp down on him as I cum on his cock.

He was so hard in his cage, pressing hard against the bars, squeezing out. He told me he had no idea how he was getting out and I told him I didn’t care, I wanted him out and I wanted him out right then. He was just going to have to yank it off. He managed to pop the cage off and the dents in his shaft were outstanding. They looked similar to this:

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He even managed to bend himself out of the ring too. And I just grabbed ahold of him and guided his cock into my pussy, I barely waited for him to kneel down between my legs. I really did just need to feel him and cum on him. It wasn’t even so much about feeling him thrust as it was him filling me up so my muscles could grip and squeeze his shaft as I came. It’s just such a wonderful feeling to feel myself clench around him.

I had several super hard amazing orgasms. My whole body tightening, shaking and quivering with each one. Sometimes I really wish I was able to be as loud as I need to be, to scream out “oh myfucking God” while cumming. I just can’t with kids down the hall sleeping in their bedrooms. Even though I couldn’t be as loud as I want I still cum so fucking hard. So hard, in fact, that when I stood up the other night I almost fell over and passed out. My brain was ridiculously fried. I think I had cum so hard and held my breath so long from holding in the screams that I lost some oxygen to my brain. I felt very dizzy, woozy and lost my balance and almost fell. Luckily cagedmonkey was there to give a hand but, wow, was it crazy to feel so out of control of myself after cumming like that. Especially when hubby is denied and all my hard cumming does is frustrate him more and more everyday. Making me cum is one of the biggest teases for him. He is giving me the one thing he is so desperate to have. To me, there really is nothing better than my hair trigger horny man.

***Please note this post was copied over from our old location at monkeyinacage.wordpress.com

I’ve been running myself ragged the past few days, working hard on a special project (which i know we will post about today/soon) and we really haven’t had much time for play. Cagedmonkey hasn’t slept much because he’s been helping me during the day. What that means is that he’s been sleeping/napping at night before work. I love that he’s been helping and his creative juices are flowing but I decided last night, MY juices needed to be flowing!

Last night was actually a pretty wonderful night since we finally connected in a sexual way. Just after dinner CM and I got to some kissing and groping in the kitchen while the kids played on their tablets. I whispered in his ear, “go take that cage off so I can get me some of that before you go to work tonight.” His eyes got wide when he saw the very naughty look in my eye and he just whispered back, “well, uhhh, I can’t right now,” and pointed at the attempted erection in his pants. I just giggled as I walked away and said, “well, when you can anyway.”

Once we got the kids to bed, I came back to the living room in my robe… only my robe, which he quickly found out. It’s usually nightly that I tuck in the kids and then walk back into the living room lifting my shirt to show off my big titties. Sometimes I just tease him with them and other times I walk right to him and smother him with them. It’s so much fun! Well last night I decided to be naked on my way in and I just let my robe fall open as I came in the room. I walked straight to where he was sitting on the couch and I fully think he had it in his mind he was about to get titties in his face. It was quite the surprise when I stepped right up on the couch and straddled his face with my very wet horny pussy. I got myself off on his face, rubbing my pussy across his nose, lips and chin, covering him with my cum as he tried hard to lick and slurp it all up.

His cock was pretty much instantly hard so I told him to get on the couch properly because I was going to “ride that cock and cum all over it.” That’s exactly what I did. He did have quite a bit of trouble keeping himself quiet so I reached down to cover my fingers with my delicious wetness and shoved my fingers in his mouth gagging him to shut him up. He almost lost it but then just started sucking my fingers. It kept him quiet but also pushed him very quickly to the edge so I had to stop often so I didn’t ruin almost a month of denial.

I did cum nice and hard on his cock though and damn it felt good to squeeze down hard on his thick shaft. After I came nice he was panting hard and moaning, trying to keep himself from exploding I’m sure. I left him there on the couch and rolled off onto my hands and knees on the floor, I spun to look at the tv so my nice round ass was facing him and he could see my wet freshly cummed pussy from behind. He certainly did last long at all staring at me there, doggy style, before he started whimpering and begging, “Ma’am, please may I come fuck you from behind?” I just had to giggle and told him, “mmmm, come here big boy and put that aching cock in me.” He could barely move once he buried his cock in my tightness but the sounds he made while doing it were simply fantastic. I could have listened to him make that beautiful moaning sound all night long.

It wasn’t long before he had to start getting ready for work. He surly wasn’t leaving, though, without his nightly kneeling pussy licking at the door before he walks out. I cannot stress enough how much I enjoy sending him off to work covered in my juices and smelling like my pussy.

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Right now, I have cagedmonkey’s wrists and ankles cuffed and he’s restrained to the bed. I know he’s been craving a total loss of control and we didn’t get much if it on our weekend. I know he wants to feel controlled and used however I want. He is craving a bit of that subspace which I haven’t been able to take him to in awhile. So today I decided to show him just how not in control he is by restraining him to the bed, blindfolding him, plugging his ass, torturing his nipples and doing anything else I find entertaining at the time. Once he’s restrained like that he’s at my mercy. I decide if he will sleep, or be forced to stay awake with whatever I’m tormenting him with. There is nothing he can do about it.

He’s at a spot in his horny level where his parts are sensitive, which means his nipples are perfect for teasing and torturing. At the moment I’m not overloading him with things, I put the Arenos in his ass, pressing in his prostate, likely causing some major drippage from his overfilled aching balls. I plan to head back in shortly to attach the nipple clamps to his sensitive nipples. I’m not planning it out by time, just whatever feels right. I will likely unlock him as well so that while I have him in such a vulnerable position I can tease and torture his cock. I can ride his cock and face and enjoy myself during all of this too. So much fun using him to cum all over and forcing him to lay there covered in my juices and my scent, it must be heaven for him.

I love increasing my intensity levels as his horniness increases. It only makes his denial that much more fun. Having him this way in the bedroom, ready to use as my toy is such an arousing thing. I’m sitting here with wet panties knowing that he’s on his way to a deeper, more submissive place than he has been in awhile.

He has no idea when I’ll be back or what I’ll be doing. I left room simply saying, “enjoy darling, try to rest, I’ll be back soon.” I feel like the luckiest woman in the world that I have a man to love me and be mine in every way. A man that needs the intensity that I have to offer. A man that can handle what I give him.

***Update: I just had to come update and share this pic, damn he’s sexy and I love hearing him moan when I give that chain a pull or reclamp them!
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