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Naughty, Kinky Thoughts Flowing Like a River

Posted by Michele on February 5, 2015
Posted in: Male Chastity, Tease/Orgasm Denial. Tagged: , , , , , , , . 4 comments

If you’ve been following along, you know I’ve had some Dommy confidence issues. I’ve been trying to get myself back into the organized, always have a plan, Domme that I am. After taking almost two weeks off to enjoy some beautiful Caribbean weather, it has been quite the task getting back organized.

Thanks to locking hubby up, talking about an intense D/s session with him, chatting all sexy with friends in email, text and Twitter and getting back to reading sexy blogs, I’m feeling much better about my kinky state. I will admit I was a bit worried that I lost my kinky but I think it just came down to not being in a kinky environment. I’m definitely a chameleon and have always been when it comes to social situations. I can fit in anywhere and be what I need to be to fit in – always continuing to be myself in the process but censoring what needs to be censored out of respect for the rest of the world. So I feel like spending 2 weeks in the “vanilla” world and not thinking or really even talking kinky set me back. It’s coming back all kinds of lovely now. 🙂

The past few days, as I’ve said, I’ve had some chats with people and read some stuff that has gotten my creative fantasy juices flowing, not to mention other juices. I thought I’d come here and write them down. This way you all get to enjoy my kinky fantasy thoughts and I get to get all turned on thinking about you enjoying them. And what you might be doing with yourself while enjoying them – if you are lucky enough not to be locked in a cage that is. 🙂

I’ve had some amazing thoughts going on, from spanking to sensory deprivation, from simple bondage to full on Doggystyle Stockade with an attached fucking machine.

I was looking through pics on my phone and found one of cagedmonkey’s gorgeous ass, nice and red after I spanked him over my knee bare handed. Good God is it a beautiful thing to look at and remember how it feels to spank him as he squirms and whimpers in my lap. I started to think about how much enjoyment I get when using my paddle too. When I have him bound spread eagle, face down on the bed spanking his ass, thighs and even spreading those cheeks and giving his tight little asshole a swat.
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I also recently read, over at Chastity Forums I think, about a guy who’s wife made him wear rubber gloves as a way to diminish his sensation when touching her, or something like that… so that got me thinking a lot about sensory deprivation. I’ve often tried to think of a way that I could deprive cagedmonkey of some of his senses, including touch, but still get what I need from him – like his touch! So this whole rubber glove thing got me going. If I’ve got cagedmonkey restrained, in the hood, ear buds in with something playing on his S5 or iPod, caged but having the RodeoH and my favorite dildo attached and rubber gloves on him there is quite a bit of possibility there. I just think there is an awful lot of frustration to be had while I’m able to please myself and he can feel absolutely nothing.

My thoughts have also gone deeper, rather quickly, as my need to dominate my husband sexually has increased. I’ve started thinking a lot about the Doggystle stockade we’ve mentioned in the past wanting to get. We’ve had all kinds of mindfuck sessions thinking about the things we could do with a piece of furniture like this. Even more recently we’ve gotten even more intense with our fantasies and added in thoughts of the attached fucking machine (which led us to the site linked above).

So many fantastic, naughty things could happen with this set up. Not only could we do some of the things mentioned in previous posts, while hubby is being excruciatingly slowly violated by the fucking machine but we could also use it as a torture device. The site we’ve been looking at also has Fleshlight attachments for the fucking machine which could be used to force fuck cagedmonkey for, potentially, hours at whatever pace a please. Perhaps juuuuuuuuust slow enough that he can’t cum but not too slow that he could lose his erection. Or, perhaps, it could be used to continue stroking him post orgasm for some torture. So many ideas ranging from forced anal violation to forced orgasms but isn’t that why I’m in control? I get to decide when and what sexual pleasure or torture he will have to endure and for how long.

The other thing I’ve been fantasizing about with having this machine, since we aren’t into the actual physical side of cuckolding, is the potential to kind of cuckold cagedmonkey. I could fuck myself with the machine in every way I like over and over, having him tied in the stackade portion, forced to watch me cum. Forced to see the pleasure I get while he is locked there wishing he was the one pleasing me. Watching as a machine takes his place and fucks his wife inches from his face where he can smell my sex and is aching and dripping, wanting to taste me… feel me… touch me.

As you can see my naughty, kinky thoughts are coming back just fine. I am loving being back home because I’m getting that, ever so intense, growly, hungry, animalistic, horny growing inside me and I need to take it out on cagedmonkey.

Lost My Confidence, Will I Still Be Able to Dominate?

Posted by Michele on February 3, 2015
Posted in: KeyHolder, Wife Led Marriage. Tagged: , , , , , , , . 24 comments

The last night of our cruise I had trouble sleeping as we headed back to New York City. I could feel, as I started to pack things up that evening, some anxiety thinking about getting back to normal once we got home. I don’t mean getting hubby back to work or the kids to school, grocery shopping or sorting through two weeks of mail. I mean getting back to the beautiful D/s relationship hubby and I have spent the past year and a half exploring. Not only the D/s relationship between hubby and I, but the one I have with my other submissive boys too.

Before we even went on this trip I had decided it was going to be a vacation. A real vacation from everything, our roles, the kinky stuff, everything. Just a nice time to let whatever happens happen. We did have a little sexy time on the trip as I mentioned the sex on the balcony and the mirrors! Ooh boy, those mirrors were amazing! I really cannot explain in words what I felt when I watched the pure joy on cagedmonkey’s face as he held my hips and pounded against my nice round ass. It was like watching my own personal porn seeing how much he was enjoying every second of slamming his cock deep in my pussy. And when he came, that was an amazing sight. It’s not everyday that you get to watch almost secretly as your man’s primal energy takes over and you see the reaction of his entire body while he is exploding a nice hot load of cum deep inside you. It really is something I cannot describe. I just don’t have the words to explain the emotion behind it.

Oh, sorry, got a little side tracked there! 🙂

Anyway, as I was saying, there were some moments of spontaneous sex and hubby had lots of orgasms – about 7 or 8 I’d say which is more than he had all year last year, I think! The thing that wasn’t there on our trip was the D/s part of it. Our FLR was in high gear, I planned things, scheduled the days for the most part, made most of the final decisions (even got overwhelmed by constantly orchestrating everyone’s every move and had a moment because people (kids) get bitchy lol) but during the sex there was no domination from me. There wasn’t really a whole lot from cagedmonkey either. It’s not like either of us took charge of the sex we had on the ship. Well, maybe when he fucked me on the balcony looking out over the ocean, but you get my point.

As we got closer to home, I started thinking about what it would be like when we got back. Would I still be able to be sexually dominant? What about my other subby boys? Could I still be the Domme they desire, creating tasks for them, enforcing my rules? Would I still have that pull over them, have them as my little puppets? Would I even remember how to manipulate those strings? Do I still have it in me to mindfuck them? I could sit here and write about 47 more questions that ran through my head, but I’m sure you get where I’m going with all of this. I’m worried that I’ve lost the confidence to be those things, to remember how, to make it what it was before we left.
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I will say those first few “yes, ma’am’s” after getting home did spark something inside me. I certainly don’t feel like I’m “back” and I’m not sure where my confidence level is at the moment. I really feel like I need a good hardcore D/s session with hubby but I don’t see there being time for anything like that right now. It certainly doesn’t help when mother nature decides she’s going to get in the way. I was all set to give cagedmonkey a good gueening this morning and I stopped in the bathroom, because I’m not into peeing in his mouth and, of course there she is!

So finding my way back among these stupid girlie hormones is proving to be real work. I’m hoping to plan a D/s day with hubby – the kind we can discreetly have in front of the kids – as well as a good pain session with a couple of my other submissive boys as well which I hope will help push me back into my Top role.
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Nothing Says Vacation Like Crystal Blue Waters

Posted by Michele on January 31, 2015
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The view from our balcony

Cagedmonkey and I are finally sitting in the comfort of our own living room after spending almost two weeks cruising the Caribbean. We ate way too much food, drank a lot more than we usually do, saw some amazing places, had gorgeous weather and enjoyed swimming in the ocean. We went snorkeling in St Thomas, which was such an outstanding experience and so was swimming with dolphins in Tortola.
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The kids had a fantastic time during their theme nights, playing games and making friends in the kids program on the ship. That left mommy and daddy with time to spend together kid-free. We saw a few shows with acrobats and comedians and spent time listening to music in the bars. We also had time to just sit and relax in some big comfy chairs together.
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The islands were beautiful and we enjoyed shopping and getting some amazing prices on things. Everything was tax and duty free so the prices were crazy low compared to the states.
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Cagedmonkey even got me a gorgeous blue opal butterfly pendant and a necklace that kinda matches the tattoo on my leg. Everyone got really great souvenirs from our ports of call.

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Yes I put the pendant on my necklace with my keys at first 🙂


We really did enjoy some fun times and lovely sights. Our ship had an amazing pool and we got to see the most beautiful sunsets and sunrises on the ocean. We even got to see a rainbow from our balcony.
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That’s not all we did on that balcony! We got a little sexy on that balcony. We had sex a couple times and once, while leaning over the railing being pounded doggystyle I happened to look to my left and a few cabins down I see a guy taking pictures right in my direction. I didn’t tell cagedmonkey right away lol I just slowly leaned my head back from the railing. I did tell him after the fact and honestly I’m sure that dude snapped a picture of my “O” face haha. I think cagedmonkey liked that we had a private balcony that he could just walk out onto naked and just enjoy the beautiful sun. Unfortunately, I don’t have any pics to share of his sexy nakedness on the balcony. I think we were too much into enjoying each other to think to grab the phone for some pictures. The times we got to spend any sexy time together was very spontaneous which was actually pretty nice. Usually, when locked in the cage, we have to plan things a bit because of the need to remove it.

Our trip wasn’t all fun and games and horny times lol cagedmonkey did have a few days on the way there and back suffering with sea sickness. We got him some meds but they really made him awfully tired. We tried to have a few moments here and there but to be honest, I wish there would have been a lot more sexy times especially with so many mirrors all around the bed. Life just doesn’t always work that way. We did have an amazing trip and experienced new things in an amazing place. We couldn’t have asked for a better vacation.

We are happy to be back on land and very happy to be back in our own home living life on our terms. Can’t wait to get back into our kinky life, I think we both have really missed it and I almost wish we had the cage so we could have locked up cagedmonkey as soon as we got through customs back in New York City. It’s good to be home though!

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Nice pic of the south side of Manhattan & the "Freedom Tower"


See all that snow NYC didn’t get? Haha

The Proposal

Posted by Michele on January 21, 2015
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The other big question we got over the weekend from family and friends was, “How did cagedmonkey propose?”

Well he took me out to dinner at a really expensive restaurant, while we were there a violinist came up to the table playing the most beautiful song… Haha yeah right, hubby wasn’t even 21 and hadn’t even graduated college yet. Plus he knows me way better and would take me to Burger King before some fancy restaurant. 🙂 I’m certainly not some fancy schmancy girl.

We knew we wanted to get married and I never really expected an actual proposal because we just knew we were meant to be together. Well what I didn’t know was that cagedmonkey had called and talked to my parents about it. My mom, since my parents were divorced for many years, offered him the diamond my father bought my mother for her engagement ring. She even mailed it out to him in NY and I had no idea. Cagedmonkey had taken it and had a ring made to fit the diamond in the style he knew I liked and had talked about.

It took a few weeks for the ring to come in. He got the call that it was ready and he headed over to pick it up. From the time he had picked up that hot little ring, it was burning a hole in his pocket! He picked it up on March 31st and he had big plans to take me out to dinner and ask me on my birthday a week later. Then he was getting impatient and he thought about doing a funny April Fools thing the next day. What actually happened was him calling me up at 11pm that night and asking if he could come over. I asked him why, I mean that was such a weird time to want to come over. He just said he missed me and wanted to talk to me so, of course, I told him yes.

The first thing he did when he got there was walk in my bedroom and kneel beside the bed, he didn’t actually say hello or anything, he just opened the box. I’m not exactly sure what he said, it was either “will you marry me?” Or “will you be my wife?” When I saw the ring, I think my brain broke because I know I just asked him “what the hell is that?!” And something along the lines of “are you fucking serious?!” And again “what IS that?!” And I think again “are you serious right now?! He just kept smiling and saying yes haha it was pretty funny to think back about.

Obviously I said yes and I’m so glad I did. It was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made.

On a Boat Feeling that Warm Ocean Breeze While We Have Sex on the Balcony

Posted by Michele on January 20, 2015
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Cagedmonkey, the kids and I are leaving today to head into to New York City. We get on our ship tomorrow at about Noon and we are off to enjoy the Eastern Caribbean for our second honeymoon. This is an exciting and long awaited trip for us. We’ve never done anything like this and have been planning & paying it for about a year now!

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Yes, that's our ship!

We will miss you all very much and we have scheduled a couple blog posts while we are gone so hopefully you won’t miss us too much! I’m happy that my boys are all set up with “subby sitters” because I’m going to miss playing with them the most. I know they will each be the good boys that they are because my sitters will be sure to tell me if you fuck up! 🙂

Hubby and I are looking forward to beautiful blue oceans, sandy beaches and sex on the balcony. I made the decision to leave all the sex toys, chastity devices and butt plugs at home for this vacation. We plan to have lots of sex with no restrictions on where, when or if he can orgasm. He’s still not allowed to go jerk off in a corner somewhere because that’s never ok but pulling made aside to stick his dick in me is perfectly fine. 🙂

I actually plan to wear panties… uhhh practically never on this trip and I packed lots of dresses! It should be a wonderfully teasing and pleasing time. We plan to take lots of sexy pictures and videos to share when we get back. We hope you have a fantastic couple of weeks and we well see you when we get back! 🙂

As a reminder to my boys and those who we chat with outside the blog: I will have access to TEXT Email only until Jan 31st. No phone calls or text messages after Noon Eastern time tomorrow (Jan 21), or I’m mailing you the bill! LoL That means no Twitter either so we are going to miss our new Twitter friends too!

See you soon! <3

How Did Lady M and Cagedmonkey Meet?

Posted by Michele on January 19, 2015
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Over the past couple days, with our marriage vow renewal on everyone’s minds, we’ve been asked multiple times about how cagedmonkey and I met and how he proposed. Of course, those questions came from the people in our vanilla life so they get the vanilla version. We met playing a puzzle/riddle game online, became great friends, met in person, fell in love and the rest is history. Well, I don’t think any one knows the real kinky story so why not take a few minutes and share with our amazing kinky friends and readers!?

It is true that cagedmonkey and I met innocently enough, playing a puzzle/riddle game online. I needed help with a puzzle one night and he happened to be there to help me. We started chatting about the game and then on to other things. We chatted more and more each day, getting to know more and more about each other. I think he loved that he was smarter and much better at the puzzles than me. 🙂

At the time I was very newly out of a long relationship and was no where near looking for a guy. I was busy being depressed and playing on the internet all day. Add that to the fact that I found out cagedmonkey was 19, I really was not interested. I tried everything I could to tell this kid I was totally bad for him. I told him I was way too sexually experienced for him, tattooed, pierced, that I had all kinds of baggage and mental issues no one would want to deal with. I tried very hard to push him away by telling him all the “bad” things about me. I told him how I was very jealous, possessive, controlling, etc. Hoping those things would freak him out and make him go away. In that first week I even showed him some nude pics of me from a porn photo shoot I did, trying to prove what a bad person I was. All those things did to him was intrigue him and cause him to be even more persistent. (Don’t ask, I have no idea what ever happened to those photos)

Fast forward to January 2000: After talking online and on the phone for months – yes we became very good friends – both vanilla and sexually, I hopped on a bus mid-January and decided to meet him in person. After a few little hiccups of where he was to pick me up and him locking his keys in his car, we finally found each other. Cagedmonkey was so nervous the very first thing he did was turn around and kiss me. Not word, but a kiss on the lips and his arms wrapped around me, he squeezed me like he’d been missing me forever. Looking back, it was an amazing accidental ice breaker. I’m pretty positive I said something like, “well… hello there!”

We walked together to his car just chatting like we’d been friends forever – we’ve always been able to talk and anything and everything for hours. Right when we got to the car he pushed me up against it and we made out in the parking lot like a couple of teenagers. He had paid for a motel room for me for the night at some cheesy motel not to far from his house. He had a basketball game to play in that night and he told his mom he’d be staying at a friend’s house for the night. I’m sure you know that’s not true. In the car, headed to check in at the motel, I might have mentioned the fact that I wasn’t wearing panties and could feel a cool breeze through a hole in my jeans. Haha so yeah, about 10 minutes after meeting me he was fingering my extremely wet pussy through the hole in the crotch of my jeans in his car.

We got checked in and went to the room and I’m sure I set my stuff down, immediately pulled his jeans down, sat him down on the bed and have him the best blow job he’d ever gotten. You’d have to ask him for sure. 🙂 After his basketball game and meeting his friends, we ended up spending one fantastic night together in that motel room. Yes, there was sex, really good sex and we slept together naked. He was the first man I’d ever slept together with naked and the last. When we got up the next morning I was standing there, getting dressed in the mirror, when cagedmonkey came up behind me, put his arms around my waist and his chin on my shoulder. He looked me right in the eye and my heart melted in that moment and I knew I was in love with this man and wanted to be nowhere else in the world but right there in his arms. That moment will forever be etched in my memory.

Renewing Our Commitment

Posted by Michele on January 18, 2015
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Today cagedmonkey and I celebrated our 12th wedding anniversary. This morning we renewed our vows and our commitment to each other. This time around we each wrote our own vows and said them to each other during the ceremony. It’s been a beautiful day, it was a lovely ceremony and a delicious meal with friends and family after.

It’s has been a long road and, at times, a rough road. We’ve made it through it all and have come to a wonderful place. Today we recommit to those vows we made 12 years and the promise to walk with one another for the rest of our lives.

I’m That Horny and It’s Gotten to That Point

Posted by Michele on January 15, 2015
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Yesterday I wrote about how I’m so fucking horny and I really want to take cagedmonkey out of the damn cage and fuck him silly. No, I’m still not going to haha but I have gotten to the point of being so horny that even his mouth isn’t enough. 🙂

This afternoon I went to wake him and decided it was a good time to have him lovingly lick my pussy all sweet and gentle and st…. BAHAHAHA yeah right, I made him put his face between my legs, I grabbed the back of his head and shoved him full on into my pussy. You people know I’m way more aggressive than that! He licked and sucked and pleased every inch of my delicious girlie parts. I came on his face so hard, twice. I absolutely love when he looks up at me and his goatee is soaked with my creamy cum.

After those two orgasms I really was not done and I started to rub my own clit. I wanted him inside me so bad. I think I kinda have him this sad “fuck I want to feel you, I don’t care just put your steel cage in me” look and he did. He slid the Revenge into me (yes that’s a pic for you) as best he could while I rubbed my pussy. I could feel the resistance as my pussy clenched around the the smooth steel of the Revenge. When I came on him my pussy pulsed and he could see it as it throbbed over and over through my orgasm. After he pulled out, his cage was covered and dripping with my creamy goodness. Such a beautiful thing to be so wet and horny for my man.

Yeah, so I’m that horny that I’ll just fuck him in the steel cage even. I’ve just got three more days but tonight, to help get me through, he’s going to fuck me really good with my favorite dildo, Adam. I can’t wait!

99 Days Down and 4 Days To Go

Posted by Michele on January 14, 2015
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I don’t know if it’s just the fact that Sunday is the day I’m going to unlock cagedmonkey or what but I’m dying. I’m hating that I decided to put him in the Revenge for two weeks before our ceremony. I know, why don’t I just unlock him, right? Well, that’s simple, I made a promise to myself to keep him locked and not allow him the feeling of his penis until then. The thing is, I’m denying myself his penis too so I know waiting this two weeks is going to be fantastic! I am doing this on purpose and I really do love it very much.

That doesn’t mean I like it. In exploring this whole chastity thing, I’ve realized that I’m perfectly fine with orgasm denial and control but a permanent chastity type thing would never happen. I just can’t go that long without feeling his big cock stretching my pussy, sliding in and out, making love to me. We’ve tried many times to do a 24/7 lock and we get to 3 weeks and I’m ready to pull my fucking hair out. Even with the strap on, trying to get me past that point hasn’t worked. There is just nothing that can replace feeling the cock I love and adore. I love the way it looks, how it tastes and how it feels. I knew 15 years ago that first night we were together that his was the cock I wanted for the rest of my life.

Anyway, I’m just sitting here at the car dealership getting our car serviced and I’m fucking horny. I’m thinking about how bad I want to feel him, it actually gets me emotional thinking about it because it’s such a strong feeling of want and desire. I remember when we were having issues in our marriage, one of the things hubby needed from me was to know that I wanted and desired him. Once we worked on our marriage, we were able to communicate these things to each other. What that means is, now I don’t go a day without telling my hubby what I love about his looks, or about how horny I am, or how bad I want him.

I could get off topic and get on to a whole making sure you are giving your partner what they need to fulfill them emotionally… but I won’t because fuck I’m horny and I just want to feel his cock in me.

I’m really looking forward to the next two weeks. Being on vacation means a chastity vacation for us. It actually means sexually we will both have the power. There will be no orgasm denial, no chastity, no me in charge of his sex. However he does know I want to fuck him so much that I empty him of cum multiple times a day for two weeks haha. He’s looking forward to taking the opportunity to dominate me a little bit and I think we’re both looking forward to having sex on a balcony on the ocean! 🙂

I’ve got 4 days to go, 4 days until I recommit to the man I love with every part of me. I’ve got 4 days until I feel that loving touch and the strength in his body as we make love for the first time in two weeks.

Needing an Intense Femdom Session

Posted by Michele on January 13, 2015
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Cagedmonkey has been denied almost 100 days (98 if you’re keeping track) now and he won’t be getting a release until Sunday… night most likely. He will have been locked up tight 24/7 for almost 2 weeks by that point. Yes we have done longer 24/7 periods but it’s been pretty intense this time around. I’ve been especially horny and doing such dirty, naughty things to him.

I woke up this morning feeling a bit frustrated and horny myself. I find this happens when I’ve got hubby locked in the Revenge (or the Jail Bird too) for a significant amount of time without using my toy. Since mother nature decided it was time for my period early this month, thank you for that because I’d hate to have it while in a cruise, I figured it was a good time as any to lock him in the Revenge. I certainly wouldn’t be taking it out to play with it. I really think it’s going to be so crazy to feel him after not having him for almost 2 weeks. I’ve been cumming and cumming and I can just imagine how tight my pussy is going to be. I bet it’s going to hurt when he slides it in the first time. Not a bad hurt but a stretchy, omfg this feels so good, hurt.

So, like I said, I woke up very horny and growly frustrated because I fucking want him but I made myself a promise – not until Sunday. It’s messing with my brain and I’ve been having awfully naughty, dirty, much more intense fantasies about femdom sessions with him. I couldn’t tell him out loud because of innocent ears so I texted him today to tell him how I was feeling. To tell him how my pussy was so wet thinking about what I wanted to do to him.

I have a problem because I just had a thought/fantasy run through my head about how I want to see you on your knees in front of me, eyes watering, mouth drooling, whimpering and begging me to stop because I’m forcing you to choke and gag on my strap on while fucking your face. Fuck I’m fucking God Damn horny!

Yeah, that’s about the spot I’m in right now and I’m wishing we could get a babysitter on Sunday night so we could have a real femdom type night with my thigh highs, boots, his collar and everything. I’m feeling like I want or need a very good intense Domme session. The other day, having more control over him, really boosted me. And fuck, spanking him was absolutely fantastic!. It’s been since August that I spanked him and I used the strap-on on him then too. It was incredible, I want that again. I want to use my new harness and probe because it seems like it’s going to be the most amazing thing.

Looking back at older posts just now I ran into this Femdom session from almost a year ago. It’s funny how these feelings seem to cycle around. When I read that I was like “yes, yes, I want to do THAT!” Anyway, I really have no idea when I can have a moment like that but I sure am craving it.