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The longest we’ve made it in tease and denial is one month in our 14 years together and I just have to ask myself why? Cagedmonkey has been denied orgasm for 3 weeks now. This is the third or fourth time, since we got into this whole chastity thing, where we’ve gotten to the 3-4 week mark. I realized something last night as we were having a little sexy sex time.

Yesterday morning was a particularly mind fucking morning. I just love tucking hubby in and whispering all kinds of crazy, dirty, naughty things in his ear while I grind on him and have an orgasm. It really just drives him completely bonkers. What was worse yesterday morning was that I unlocked him, rubbed my wet pussy on his ass while I held his rock hard erection in my hand against the bed. I did those little teases often throughout the day yesterday, even used his cock a few times and then by last night he’s was highly hair trigger aroused. So much so that he could barely look me in the eye without almost cumming. Let alone moving while his cock was in my pussy.

I could see in his face how truly and completely frustrated he was, it looked almost painful. That’s when I started to notice my Dominant Keyholder feelings going from “haha this is funny” to “oh no my poor baby” and feeling bad and sorry for cagedmonkey. I kept thinking to myself maybe I should just let him cum. That was exactly when I realized THAT is the whole reason we don’t make it past a month. I start to see the real, not funny anymore frustration and my brain automatically wants to switch to “making him feel better” mode.

The best part about this whole chastity thing is that our communication is super fantastic. So last night I needed to have a conversation with hubby about this. When we first started out we had to work together just to get past the first couple days and then weeks but after talking last night we realized we are at a spot where we need to work together again to get over this hurdle.

We talked about what I felt I needed to be ok with pushing him further. Obviously I’m having emotional/psychological issues with it. We came to the conclusion that, not during teasing or denial, but after I really need to hear that he actually likes that I denied him. I need praise and encouragement to know that I’m not really hurting him or doing something that will cause him to resent me or have anger toward me. I know I have some abandonment issues so that helps when we are trying to figure out what I need. I need to know that deep down he IS enjoying our play and what I put him through (or at least loves to hate it and wants to not want it haha) and that I’m not going to push him away and make him leave me. Yes, to the “normals” that might sound crazy but buried somewhere in my brain that is the root of my loss of confidence.

I’m just glad we can talk and work these things out to make our game the most fun it can be. Communication is key in any relationship but even more so in chastity, tease and denial our any kinky relationship.

Being sick for this long has really taken a toll on this Keyholder. I haven’t had that physical connection with cagedmonkey since Saturday. I mean we’ve tried but how long can you actually kiss with a stuffy nose before gasping for air? We’ve tried to be touchy feely and while that feels good I’m dealing with a tummy getting nauseous at the same time. My nose is all sore from blowing it constantly and my lips are all chapped. It’s really sexy, I tell ya.

I feel like my confidence has taken a hit in all of this as well. Usually, daily, I’m seeing or feeling a reaction to my aggression/dominance but since we’ve been sick there really hasn’t been any. We’ve haven’t felt like teasing really or anything like that in the past few days either.

Last night I was feeling some pretty yucky anxiety. Cagedmonkey, being sick, has been home from work more nights this week than normal. I usually have a little trouble on his first night back to work after being off, anyway, but last night got me particularly hard. I guess I should have prepared myself better for him going but I didn’t. So yeah, I had him get on his knees in front of me and hold me while I told him I was having a hard time. Cagedmonkey knows me very well after all these years and knows what I need to help me through.

Maybe this all sounds lame to some and not very becoming of a big bad ass Keyholder but it’s reality. I’m a little nutty and insecure sometimes and I’m just glad my subby hubby loves me and cares enough to give me what I need to push through and regain my composure and confidence.

Ya see, all that wonderful love he showed last night really helped when he got home from work this morning. I went up to tuck him in and unlocked his cage to release the sexiness within. He’s still not allowed to touch himself until my birthday, in a week and a half, so I put him in the bondage mittens. I had him get on his side and I spooned him and gave him quite the mind fucking while stroking his cock. Telling him all the things I could force him to do. Making him watch as I was fondling his cock and stroking him, something he hasn’t done in 16 days. I just love feeling that big thick hard cock in my hand. I had him so extremely turned on that he gushed precum onto my hand. I really enjoy getting him to that point.

One of the things that really got a good reaction out of him was when I told him how I could spoon him while wearing the strap-on. I explained in a sexy whisper how I could hold his cock in my hand and the only way he would be stroked was if he would push back against me. He would basically have to penetrate and violate himself to get any pleasure for his cock. What a dilemma! Such a humiliating thing to do just to feel that stroke on his shaft!

Hehe that really got him breathing heavy and moaning slightly. He even started to buck against me a bit too. I really think he liked the idea of being forced to do something he hated if he wanted any pleasure.

Such fun in teasing the mind. I’m also happy to feel myself getting back into the groove, so to speak.

Ok to continue on from what happened in part 1 of our 5 hours at home alone…

I decided it was time to give cagedmonkey’s cock a good long teasing. What a great time for it too since he was all tied up and hooded. I edged him for quite awhile, stroking him over and over, stopping just before he could get any pleasure. Then it was time to see what my wand could do. I vibrated various places on his cock and balls and at different speeds just seeing what reactions I would get. I think I spent a good half hour just testing out what spots did what. I just loved watching him squirm and moan.
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Something I’ve wanted to try for some time was tying the vibrator to cagedmonkey’s balls and to leave him there to endure. So I went to our little box of tricks and got the bondage rope. I tied the wand to his balls and wrapped it around him and then the door knob. It was an interesting setup and made it nice and easy to play with him from the door way. After I got him tied up, I put in the porn dvd and got it to a nice spot where all he could hear was fucking. I whispered to him through the hood to enjoy and I would be back… I was going to take a shower. 🙂
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He was left that way for about a half hour while I went downstairs. I was totally loving hearing him whimper and moan upstairs, there was no way I could take a shower. I got myself some milk and cookies and enjoyed listening to him. When I thought he’d had enough I went up and untied him, let him loose and gave him some loving aftercare. That’s actually one of my favorite parts, holding his head on my chest, making him feel good. Letting him know everything is ok, how proud I am of him for taking what I put him through. I love taking care of my subby hubby.

I really wanted to post this the other day before we got trashed with the flu but, I was unable to move, let alone post to the blog. So my apologies for going backward here. I’m sure you can tell I prefer to stay pretty current with our play! You’ll have to pardon me if the writing and descriptions aren’t as good as usual. I’m trying to remember as best I can!

This past Saturday both of our kids had recital rehearsal. That meant they would both be gone for 5 hours leaving us in the house alone. That is such an extremely rare thing, I’m sure you can imagine we wanted to take full advantage of our situation.

After I dropped the kids off to rehearsal I stopped and picked up lunch for cagedmonkey and I. He was still naked in bed so when I got back I stripped down to only my panties and brought lunch up to the bedroom. We sat on the bed eating some, bad for us, McDonald’s (mostly) naked together – I don’t think we’ve ever done that – it was fun! We watched an episode of Dexter while we ate and when it was over things started to get a bit frisky. We found a movie on Netflix just for some background noise and started making out. While kissing I rolled cagedmonkey on to his back and straddled him and unlocked and removed his cage. I reached up to the head of our bed where the wrist cuffs to the under-the-bed restraints are and hooked his wrists. I loved seeing his reaction because he didn’t really know that I had planned to do that. I kissed him nice and deep, slid the hood over his head and climbed off the side of the bed. I walked around to the end of the bed where I unhooked the ankle cuffs from the restraint system. That’s when hubby asked what I was doing… I just told him he would see (or would feel as it was).

I climbed up the end of the bed between cagedmonkey legs and pushed up behind his knees. I wrapped the cuffs around his legs just under his knees and clipped them to the wrist cuffs. This forced him to spread himself wide open and present his sexy ass to me. That must have been the time he heard the Velcro from me putting on the strap-on thigh harness. I grabbed the lube from the nightstand, lubed up pearl and slowly pushed into his asshole. I wasn’t rough with him rather a steady paced ass fucking. He was all spread there like a little slut to be used but I certainly didn’t abuse him like I could have.

After a good long time violating his asshole and my thighs starting to burn I unhooked his legs and let them flop down on the bed. I decided to spend some time teasing the living shit out of his cock.

To Be Continued…

Like I said, this was 5 hours without the kids so to find out what happened over the next couple of hours read on in Part 2…

I’m really tired of being sick, how is it possible that I feel worse this morning?!

That doesn’t really stop me for the most part. When I woke up this morning I wasn’t feeling particularly horny or anything because I felt like shit. However, cagedmonkey and I have a communication notebook and I was writing in it and got myself worked up anyway. I decided to pay him a visit upstairs while he was sleeping. I did just snuggle with him for a bit, until he put his knee between my legs and I started grinding on his thigh. I rubbed myself to a soft orgasm, it was nice, but it only made matters worse. I ended up sitting on his face and getting myself a good pussy licking. I love him being in the Jail Bird because I get to lick him and play with him while his face is shoved in my pussy. I came a few times and then another by my own hand before I headed back downstairs.

I don’t know if it’s me being sick, going to start my cycle or what but I’m emotionally sensitive today too. I feel like everything is a criticism. Maybe its just me because I’m sick, haven’t cleaned my house, folded the laundry or anything all week and I feel bad about it. Maybe I’m the one being over critical about myself so I’m putting it on others as them thinking that. I feel like I’ll never live up to expectations today. Like I’m not good enough for anything.

What a fantastic way for a Dominant woman & Keyholder to be, huh? Ugh!

I JUST WANT TO FEEL BETTER!

I absolutely love when I get so hungry, growly horny and dominant with cagedmonkey. His reactions to my aggression are fucking outstanding!

We’ve been sick so not too much play feels like it’s been happening around here. Yes, I know you’ve read about a few things and maybe they are pretty good things but it’s certainly not enough to satisfy this building, mega horny I have going on these days.

**Side note: for those keeping track I should be starting my cycle soon. I get unbelievably horny – dripping wet pussy – during the week before.

This morning I went up to “tuck in” hubby and restrained him, took him out of that Revenge (man I’ve been dying to do that!), and got me some cock! Mmmm Damn was it good feeling his big hard cock sliding into my wet pussy as I rode him. I had myself a couple orgasms, sat down on his face to give him something to sleep to and left him, tied up there, to sleep while I headed out for errands. He still had not seen or touched his cock now in over a week.

While I was out, I couldn’t get him or his uncaged cock out of my mind. My horny was building all morning into the afternoon. When my daughter and I got home, we ate lunch and I went up to “snuggle with daddy” while she played some on the computer. Boy, did I ever snuggle with cagedmonkey haha!

I rolled him over on his back and started out by straddling him at his knees. I leaned down and cagedmonkey mentioned how he knows I like to watch him get hard and that I’d get to see it. I looked up at him put his chubby at my lips and told him I could FEEL it get hard and I sucked all of him into my mouth. I love to hear him moan, I swear I have an addiction to it! I gave him a pretty good blow job, slipping, sucking and licking his big thick cock, taking him deep in my throat. I couldn’t take it too long, with his moaning and cussing, before I had to slide up his body and sit down on his cock. As I slid myself up and down on his cock over and over my aggression was growing stronger and stronger. I came so hard just looking at him tied up there, vulnerable and helpless.

Something about me that becomes clearer and clearer, through all of this, is my complete love of seeing, feeling and hearing his reactions. It pushes my arousal to a whole other level. I get this growling almost angry type sex thing going on. I fuck him harder and I get so much wetter. I was soaking his entire crotch and mine just cumming over and over, squeezing his thick cock in my pussy grips. I had gotten so incredibly turned on and his cock was so slippery, covered in my cum, that I reached back under myself and positioned the head of his cock at my unlubricated asshole. I was just so fucking hot for him, so aggressive toward him. The look in his eye when I stared right into them and I literally shoved his cock deep and hard into my tight asshole. It was uncomfortable but he knew that cock was mine to fuck however I wanted. That, at that moment, it had nothing to do with him. His reaction was amazing, he gasped and moaned and his chest lifted up off the bed. So freaking awesome!!

I fucked myself deep and hard in the ass, I spread my ass cheeks to get him as deep as I could. I felt his balls between my cheeks as I lifted up and down, fucking myself. I just had to cum with his cock in my ass. I leaned back, felt how super dripping wet my pussy was and I slathered up my hand and wiped it all over his face. Oh God, his moans!!! It took seconds to get to climax after that… seconds! I came so hard, my asshole clamping down on his cock so fucking tight.

You would think I’d be done from there, right? ha! I got off, cleaned him and me up a bit and then sat on his face. I forced him to lick my pussy while I edged him, stroked him over and over, letting go at the last minute. I finally ended our time together with a lovely ruined orgasm. He managed to get one shot off that hit me in my big titties but I cut off the rest and he dribbled cum on to his belly.

Within minutes, he was locked up again. This time I put away the Revenge and locked him back in my favorite, the Jail Bird. He so damn sexy in it! 🙂

Now if only I was feeling better we may have had a much more exciting time! Damn sore throat, cold, whatever this crap is needs to take a hike!

You would think this post would be coming from the guy in the chastity cage who hasn’t seen or felt his own dick in days. Who hardly gets a chance to even get hard, let alone cum!

BUT, it’s not! It’s ME who has a crazy out of control horny problem haha! It is to cagedmonkey’s benefit because he loves when I dominate him and make him be submissive to me by demanding he get on his knees and lick my pussy any time I get a chance. God, I just love holding the back of his head and pushing his face into my extremely wet dripping pussy. Seriously, my crotch is dripping wet today it’s on my thighs! If he’s not there cleaning it up as much as possible how else will I keep from leaking through my panties and pants?

This all started yesterday, cagedmonkey and I had a visit from a friend and the whole situation made me kinda hot. It was almost purely a vanilla visit but, you know me, I love to be a cock tease so I just had to make sure he left with a view to remember. He got an eyeful of my big tits on his way out hehe. 🙂 He told me later how hard he got and how it wanted to bust out of his pants. *giggle* that’s just drives me crazy because I love to know I turn someone on and tease them enough to go masturbate!

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Now before you all get crazy saying we’ve said before that cuckolding is not our thing… it isn’t! Not in the true sense of the word. I’m not looking to have sex with anyone else but my hubby. However, if you read our post on “Pseudo-cuckolding” you would understand our boy toys are all about being used to make my hubby jealous that they can do what he can’t and desperately wants to… meaning getting turned on by me and then getting an erection, touching, holding and stroking their own cocks and cumming when, where and how they want. Now, me getting to tease, encourage and/or provide the visual stimulation to help our boy toys get to that point is just a bonus because I truly get off on being the thing that arouses men! 🙂

So, today, from the minute cagedmonkey got home this morning he’s been touching, fingering or licking my pussy. 🙂 I pretty much attacked him when he walked in the door. With his coat still on I pushed him up against the door and kissed him hard and deep. He had his hand in my pants almost immediately flicking his finger over my very wet horny clit. I finally let him get inside the house and settled and I went to make the kids breakfast. While I was in the kitchen I couldn’t stand the dripping between my legs making me hornier so I called cagedmonkey into the kitchen to “help me for just a minute.” I pointed down, motioning to him to get on his knees, he whispered, “yes ma’am” and did as he was told. I lifted my nightshirt, put my hand on the back of his head and pulled his face into the hot wetness between my legs. Ahhhhhh that felt good!

When it was finally time for him to go to bed this morning I went up to “tuck him in” and made him, again, lick my sopping wetness to a couple orgasms. I am just so damn turned on today that even that wasn’t enough. I had him get my favorite dildo (man I can’t thank the friend who gave me that gift enough!!) and fuck me nice and good with it til I came another couple times. 🙂

I think I’m satisfied… for now, but I totally feel my horny building again ready to drip down my legs. I certainly hope I don’t see an email from our young friend to cagedmonkey telling him all about how exactly he masturbated thinking of me yesterday. How it felt to hold his hard cock in his hand and stroke it slowly, then building faster and faster. Oy ok, enough of that Lady! Shhhhhhhhh!

I’m sure in a bit here hubby will be waking up to my wet pussy over his mouth as I sit on his face and make him drink up my warm wet juices!

Hope you have yourself a happy horny day! :)~

A while back cagedmonkey got tattooed with a lock that I designed for him when we started this whole chastity journey. I finally went today and got my matching key. I’m super excited about it, I love it and it looks awesome!
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I am forever and permanently cagedmonkey’s Keyholder!

I’m not really one who plans out how things are going to be or even what things are going to happen. I’m more of the go-with-the-flow type person because I’ve found that things are much more enjoyable when we don’t expect or count on certain things. One thing about life that used kill me was getting my hopes up or expecting something and then only getting disappointed because it wasn’t how I imagined, what I pictured or exactly how I wanted it.

One thing chastity had taught, me as a wife and Keyholder, is that nothing is ever set in stone and everyday is a maybe day! I certainly have ideas of how I want things to go, especially a T & D or D/s session but in no way do I plan our expect anything to go in any particular way.

Since our Valentine’s Day romp my goal was to keep cagedmonkey caged completely (not out, no erections, no feeling me) until my birthday in April and denied his orgasm until his birthday in June. Well as you all probably read a couple weeks ago, the caged completely thing was blown out of the water soon after. Hey, what can I say? I love my man’s cock! 🙂 Still denying him orgasm until June was going to be easy, right?

Nothing is ever as easy as we think! Last night was something quite amazing. Hubby and I were spending some wonderful time together snuggling on the couch. We watched a couple shows on Netflix and just laid together holding each other. Cagedmonkey ended up rubbing my shoulders, relaxing me and making me feel so good and loved. One thing led to another and we were kissing and groping each other. It felt incredible to have his body between my legs, above me like that. It was so sexy, such a turn on, to feel his strong arms, his hips and thighs. We kissed and made out like a couple of horny teenagers.

We’re stopped for a break to get a drink and we talked. As were were sitting there talking we got on the subject of how bad we both missed his cock. With it being in the Revenge I don’t even get a chance to play with it like I do in the Jail Bird. Somewhere in our conversation I leaned over, used the key on my necklace and unlocked the lock on the Revenge. I popped the caged off and he started to instantly get hard so I made him quickly remove the ring.

This was something that had been going through my head for a good part of the day. I am a wife and I have a sexual relationship with my husband… but I’m also a Keyholder. Sometimes the heart, the wife part of me, really wants to have that connection, that intimacy with her husband. To feel his body against mine, to feel him slowly slide his thick cock into my tight pussy, to feel him fill me up with his cum.

One of the best things about being a Keyholder, his dominant, is that I’m in charge and what I say goes! Sometimes when the wife part of me wants to take over, I have the choice to let it happen. To feel my man make love to me. Thrusting slowly into me until I feel those very familiar spasms of his cock. Continuing to thrust as I feel his warm cum overflow my pussy. Filling me up and spilling out on to the couch because there was so much!

It may seem like I messed up my plans but really the ideas I have to get to my goals are never plans. Ideas don’t always happen like we think and that’s the best. One thing I did different this time around was I immediately locked hubby back in the Revenge. I did this in hopes of preserving some of that horny he had pent up for three weeks. I certainly want to try to avoid the “low” that happens after orgasm. We will see how this goes, it’s new to us because usually if he’s going to cum, I drain him with multiple orgasms.

So when a Keyholder Wants something, a Keyholder will have it. She is in charge!

Cagedmonkey and I thought it might be interesting to see what it was like for me to be teased and denied. The whole idea was to keep me denied of orgasm until Date Night on Friday the 14th, which would have been about 9 days or so when we started. Well the first 24 hours were completely bonkers and I was going nuts! I was so crazy horny I couldn’t even stand myself haha. I soaked through three pair of panties and pants! By the end of the 24hrs cagedmonkey was so turned on by teasing me he chased me down in the kitchen. He had his coat on and everything ready to walk out the door for work. He grabbed me, pushed me back against the counter and used his fingers, rubbing that familiar spot. You know the one that’s like a button to make me squirt. Well squirt I did all over his hand, dripping down my legs soaking the floor below.

Ok, so there went that day, we’ll just start over. Another day goes by and it wasn’t quite as frantic horny as the first but still a sopping wet pussy kind of day. I was excited, I made it 24 hours being edged and denied over and over all day without coming, woohoo! I thought I was well on my way to making it to Friday. Boy, was I wrong! I really think cagedmonkey enjoys making me cum way too much! However another 24 hours had gone by and I’d made it to last night without an orgasm. The woman who will sometimes have 10 orgasms in a day just went 48 hours without!

Last night, hubby and I watched an episode of Dexter before he had to leave for work. After the show we got in a little snuggle time, started kissing… harder, faster, deeper. Kissing turned to groping and that led to hands and fingers finding their way to my crotch. At first cagedmonkey was edging me over and over. He was really starting to learn the tension in my body, my breathing and was catching on to when I was hanging on the edge for dear life.

Then, he looked me right in the eye and asked if I wanted to cum. I told him of course I WANTED to! He said “do you want to cum enough to unlock me and let me fuck you until I cum deep in your pussy?” He knows I love that, it’s one of my favorite things, being filled up by him. However, I didn’t give in, I told him simply, “No.” Apparently he liked that I didn’t give in because he smiled and had this look in his eye as he started to rub my clit faster. It felt so good, I could feel it surge through me. I was so close to an orgasm, he stopped . One more flick of the finger, I swear, I would have had a full on hard orgasm. I told him to be careful and just as I did, the smile on his lips turned almost evil. He looked at me with his beautiful blue eyes and and began to flick his fingers fast, slipping over my clit, back and forth. My eyes got wide and I said, “No, I’m going to go over!” He said, “and?” I just kept telling him, “No, no, no!” I begged him, “please don’t make me cum!” He didn’t stop and over I went, hard, cumming and dripping, gushing more out of my pussy. He’d just forced me to cum!

Once I started cumming that was the end of that. He just kept going, rubbing my clit relentlessly, not stopping even after I’d cum. He kept rubbing and stimulating me. Forcing me orgasm over and over one right after the other. It seriously reminded of the Wand, the Wand doesn’t give up or stop once I’ve cum so my orgasms continue until I stop it. Well I had no control, he just kept going! After who knows how many orgasms I started to almost hurt from the touch, from the sensations on my clit. I started begging him to stop. Over and over asking him to please stop, telling him I couldn’t take it. Finally I got to the point of telling him if he didn’t stop I was going to have to use my safe word!

He slowed, allowed me to finish my last orgasm and come down. Well, like the title of this post says, that didn’t work haha! I really feel like he was enjoying himself way too much and actually liked forcing me to cum over and over to the point of almost using my safe word.

Maybe we’ll try this again for a few days before date night. I suppose if I ever do make it a substantial amount of time I’ll share it here on the blog. We’ve even talked about the possibility of mutual chastity and having me in a belt while he’s locked in his cage. Who knows what the future may hold! 🙂 So many fun possibilities.