Tease & Denial

Seriously, I can not take it anymore! I’m so fucking horny!! I totally don’t care that I’m on my period, I just went upstairs and woke cagedmonkey up by removing his cage. Once I got it off I stroked him to a nice big fat erection, climbed up on top of him and pounded my pussy down on his lap. I really really need a good hard fucking, but I need to be the one who uses his body like a sex toy to pound my pussy good.

So bad I wanted to fuck him harder just now but I couldn’t because our daughter was downstairs. I wanted to hear him whimper and moan as I selfishly used his body for my pleasure. I wanted to scream out a good hard cum all over his cock.

Really I’ve been fantasizing about our hood lately. I want to tie him to the bed, hood him and use him as nothing more than a hard cock to ride, topound my pussy with. And nothing more than a face to cum all over as his tongue penetrates my pussy and asshole. I want to have no regard for his sexual pleasure. I need to just fuck him hard… so hard I want to have trouble walking after.

I swear I need to get my kid a babysitter or a class to take, I’m going to die if I don’t get to use him like nothing more than a toy for my pleasure. I need to hear him agonizing without his own orgasm.

Argh!

This morning is the first morning since vacation that we’ve had to get back to playing. We spent a week in Disney World, got sick once we got back which always slows play a bit and then, of course, mother nature steps in and throws a wrench into things. Though being on my period doesn’t mean I can’t treat cagedmonkey like a sex toy and use him for my entertainment and pleasure.

I realized, this morning, after tying him to the bed that I’m missing that intense Domme feeling. Honestly, since I usually get such bad Drop after an intense D/s session, I’ve probably been avoiding a play scene like that. I did get that feeling this morning though once I tied him up and started talking to him about what he would do and what I would or could do to him. Telling him he would deal with it because it was what I wanted and desired. Telling him that because he was my good boy of course he would gladly take whatever I had to give.

This morning has been fun and it’s not over yet. So far I’ve restrained him to the bed, teased his cock and edged him over and over again, used the Aneros to get him to the point of almost being milked and then plugged him with the nJoy butt plug. I even made him turn over on his belly, pushed the Aneros in all the way, positioned myself as if I was going to give him a good pegging and basically humped his ass while I stroked his cock underneath him. He was getting so loud I had to shush him so our daughter didn’t hear. I also put my hand on top of his head so his head didn’t bump into the wall at the top of the bed. Hehe 🙂 I’m such a nice caring Keyholder.

I decided when I went up that I would use the peppermint lube because then it would still be tingling his cock and asshole  while I gave him a little break. I will go up one more time this morning to bring him to the edge about 5 more times. I’m trying to decide if I should give him a horribly ruined orgasm today or wait until his birthday and decide if he will have one then. His birthday, in early June, is supposed to his next Maybe Day… it’s not like that’s so far away now.

I do know that when I finally do make him cum again it’s going to be on my chest. I want to make him video it so that he can watch it over and over and remember it when I keep him denied for longer and longer periods. I want him to see it when it happens, see it all over my big beautiful tits. I thought about making him cum on my mouth and making him watch it drip down my chin onto my breasts. I’m not so positive on the how but it will definitely be where he can video.

Ok time to work on lunch so I can go up and get in some good edging while the girl has her lunch and watches some cartoons.

Ok, really I have my hands on my dream dick everyday. I absolutely love cagedmonkey’s big thick beautiful cock, but when I have his locked up in a cock cage I can’t exactly have my perfect cock. As any Keyholder may know we do need something to satisfy us when we play certain games that involve 24/7 lock up with zero release. Well, from someone who really is not into dildos and toys, I have some pretty high standards and expectations if something is going to be used on me, other than my love’s fantastic cock.

You may have heard about the Doc Johnson Blush dildo I have and really like. It’s very lifelike, soft and actually warms to body temperature while using it. Most dildos, I’ve found are hard, cold and unforgiving. At least Blush is comfortable and something I have been able to use. The issue with it is that it has no hold, it’s all big, thick, soft and… floppy! Using Blush in the harness has caused a rip in the ur3 material right at the base. I’ll admit, it’s my fault – sometimes I like to get fucked hard with it. Can you blame me? 🙂 This put me on the hunt for a replacement.

Anyone who’s seen my Google search history in the past two weeks would think I have a serious obsession with dick, I’m sure haha. You all should know by now how much I research things to death! 🙂 In my hunting around I came across the Cyberskin style of dildo. It looks really fantastic with the nice soft, realistic feeling outer material and a firm core. That is very much how a real penis is, they aren’t all floppy when they’re erect and they certainly don’t feel hard like a silicone dildo.

Anyway, we were very excited to find one that I feel will work nicely for me! This is the one we bought and we were so excited to have it delivered yesterday.
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However, mother nature decided to throw her own tease in there and has forced us to have to wait to try out our new toy. It looks and feels wonderful and I’m so eager to give it a go and tell you all about it. We did get it brand new and very inexpensively off Amazon if you are looking to order one for yourself or for your Keyholder. So far I am very pleased with it even down to the packaging, which comes with some fantastic directions on cleaning, care and storage to get a good life out of it. I do wish the listing had stated those directions in it so I would have known to add on the Renew by Cyberskin which helps keep the material like new!

I really can’t wait to share my experience with you all but, please, if anyone already has experience, we’d love to hear from you! 🙂

Ok, let me back up a bit.

During our vacation and since then as well, My Lady has kept me unlocked almost as often as she has kept me locked. Perhaps it’s even more tilted towards unlocked, but I haven’t been keeping much track. I’m too busy being teased insane by a hellaciously horny woman nearly every moment of the day.

ML has kept me unlocked so she can tease me whenever she wants and use her “favorite toy” whenever the mood strikes her. And she has been very active in both of those activities. Whether it’s sneaking a quick edge or two when the kids aren’t around or giving me a long teasing blowjob, she is certainly getting her fill of my cock. She has also been getting a good dose of sex, either taking charge and climbing on top of me or having me do all the work.

I’ll tell you this – it has not been easy to remain a “good boy” and refrain from cumming while fucking ML. In fact, I doubt you can classify what I end up doing as “fucking.” I’m often on the very edge of orgasm after just a few strokes into her tight wet pussy. At this point, I have no choice but to hold still as I struggle for control. After I drag myself back from the brink, I can usually manage only a few more thrusts before I’m right back to the edge again. And if ML wants some good hard thrusts, I pretty much have no choice but to give her a few good deep strokes before I have to jump up off of her before my cock explodes inside her.

My Lady assures me that this is not a problem for her, that she expects is after teasing and denying me for so long and that she is the one who is creating the situation. If it truly was a problem for her, she would just let me cum. She makes a good point, but I still want to be able to satisfy her penetration needs. This is why I was so happy that the RodeOh harness worked so well.

Earlier today I found an accidental solution to the problem, albeit not a permanent one. The kids went outside into the backyard to play, which left ML and me with some alone time. My cock got hard pretty quick as ML jumped on top of me and straddled me on the couch. It wasn’t long before I was hard as a rock and sliding into her warm pussy.

So, My Lady was riding my cock, and I could feel the edge approaching quickly. Then, out of the corner of my eye, I noticed that the TV was on. Right then, a light bulb went off in my head. A DISTRACTION! THAT’S WHAT I NEED!

So while ML is bouncing her pussy on my cock, her beautiful tits hanging right above my face, I start listening to Stephen A. Smith argue with Skip Bayless about the NFL draft. I’m listening and really thinking about what he’s saying. My Lady’s sexiness is still there, right in front of my face (and right on top of my cock), so it takes a real effort to pay attention.

And then I realize it’s working.

The urge to cum is fading slowly, and ML is still riding me hard. I was able to hold back, even when ML’s orgasm started to hit her. Usually, feeling her pussy squeeze my cock when she cums will be too much for me to handle, but this time I had no problems as she rode me through her orgasm. It was great to finally NOT have to tell her to be careful or to slow down. It was great to feel her cum on my cock without having to resort to her rubbing her clit while I stayed motionless inside her.

As successful as this was, I cannot resort to watching ESPN every time ML an I have sex. We’ve discussed the idea of desensitizing spray, and the RodeOh is also an option. I just don’t understand how guys out there can deal with this problem. I read on blogs here and there about how guys who have been denied even longer than I have can have sex with their KH, and they don’t mention anything about this type of issue. Is this just something guys don’t normally feel comfortable talking about, or is it just me that has this problem?

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We’re in Disney World this week so you’ll have to pardon the lack of posts! That doesn’t mean we won’t be having any fun. We’ve never been here but so far it’s been amazing. When I say we haven’t been here, I meant to Disney World. Hubby and I came down here for our honeymoon but we did Universal Studios and the dinner theaters around here. The one thing we said then was that we wouldn’t go to Disney until we had kids and they were old enough to enjoy it. The kids are having a blast and we haven’t even gotten into the parks yet. We checked in yesterday and hung around the hotel, went swimming, got lunch, played at the arcade. Last night we took the kids to see the Pirate Dinner Adventure. It was as much fun as I remember it being when caged monkey and I were there over 10yrs ago.

So cagedmonkey and I have this goal of having penetration in every state in the US and any other countries we might be able to get. I, of course, unlocked him for the ride down. We decided to drive straight through, or well mostly. We left early Sunday morning and drove 17 hours straight through a bunch of states. We have a lot of the upper east coast states already but we did manage to stop in a family bathroom in North Carolina and get a few thrusts in. Oh, did I mention I wore a dress down with no panties on? Later at night I sat on him reverse cowgirl style outside at a rest stop in South Carolina. We ended up stopping for a few hours to sleep before driving the last 5 hours to Disney. We did miss a few states but sometimes the small ones can get away from ya. On the way back we do have to figure out getting in Georgia, Delaware and Maryland. 🙂 I’m sure we’ll manage.

We got into Disney yesterday afternoon, so hubby spent the entire ride and the entire rest of the day unlocked and free of his Jail Bird. That of course meant I had lots of opportunity to tease him. Oh gosh, I almost forgot, for a few hours of the drive, I spent time stroking and edging hubby while he drove! Haha anyway I teased him, grabbed him and squeezed him any chance I got yesterday. We, even though exhausted and in a bed next to the kids, managed some discrete sex. It really didn’t last long because we were absolutely beat!

This morning before we head into Magic Kingdom for the day hubby will “Suit Up” as Barney Stinson would say. He’s still sans orgasm since March 10th and doesn’t have possibility for parole, haha, errr orgasm until June.

Enjoy your day today guys, may it be a magical one! <3

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 My Lady has been in need of a good hard fucking for a little while now. Now, I’m all abou pleasing my KH, but this has been something of a problem for me since we started practicing male chastity. I find myself to be extremely sensitive when having sex with ML, to the point where I can only manage a good 3 or 4 hard thrusts until I’m dangerously close to cumming. We’ve experimented with toys, but we haven’t found the right toy that fills ML’s need for a good hard pounding and yet doesn’t feel like a mannequin is fucking her.

So, as ML described earlier, she had me wear the Rode-Oh strap on underwear along with Blue and wait until she wanted to come up and give them a ride. I slept for a little bit… which was a little awkward, what with a rubber penis flopping around the bed and all. Then ML came walking into the bedroom with that “I’m about to take what I want from you and you can’t do anything to stop me” look in her eyes.

Her pussy was already soaking wet when she climbed on top of me; she needed no lube whatsoever. She pushed the head of Blue just past her pussy lips and then slowly slid down until she had taken it’s entire length. Her weight pushed down on my quickly hardening cock and I could feel her warm pussy through the undies.

ML started her ride slow, but that didn’t last long. She was soon thrusting her hips powerfully down onto mine, fucking herself with Blue in the way she had been craving so badly. Every time she pushed downward, I could feel her pussy pressing hard against my stiff cock. It felt almost as though she were riding my cock, except for the fact that I couldn’t feel her tight pusy lips gripping my shaft. Thankfully, My Lady decided not to cuff my hands as she had planned, so I was free to grab her hips and move her up and down on the dildo. It felt great to be with her like this and watch her as she got more and more excited. I looked into her eyes as her body shuddered and she came all over the fake cock.

My Lady stood up and turned around to face my feet. Now, before I continue I must mention that My Lady has the most OMG FANTASTIC FUCKING ASS in the world. So there I was, treated to the amazing view of ML’s perfect ass along with being able to watch Blue slide into her sopping wet pussy from behind. Holy shit, was it great. I could watch that all fucking day, I swear. She began to ride Blue again, hard and fast, . Soon my hands were on her hips again, guiding her ass up and down, squeezing her cheeks together so she could feel Blue filling her up even more. Then ML reached for the wand and turned it on.

She first began to rub her clit with the wand, during which I felt a little bit of vibration due to being so close to her pussy. After a few seconds of this, she moved the wand down farther and began to vibrate her pussy and my balls through the underwear. It felt sooooo good; there were a few moments where I was afraid I might cum just from that stimulation, but I was able to hold off. Thankfully I did, because it wasn’t long before ML was tensing up and pushing herself through a VERY STRONG orgasm.

That wand certainly is magic! I could tell she was trying to continue riding Blue hard, but her cum was so intense she just couldn’t manage it. She was fighting hard to keep the sound of her orgasm down as best she could, only letting out a few stifled moans and whimpers here and there. After a good thirty seconds, she switched the wand off and collapsed down onto my legs.

She was spent and a half.

I was overjoyed!

See, I’ve really been hoping to find a solution to the problem that My Lady craves penetrative sex. Yeah, I know, big problem, right? Well, it is when you’re practicing male chastity. ML and I can push it for a few weeks, but eventually she just needs to be fucked. So I’ve been hoping to find a toy that she enjoys enough to satisfy this need. The problem is that ML doesn’t particularly like dildos or vibrators. She prefers the real thing.

Don’t get me wrong here, I don’t want her to never want my cock inside her again… God NO! But the key distinction here is “want” vs. “need.” I don’t want ML to need to have my cock inside her, because that takes away a level of control she has over me. I do want ML to want my cock inside her. I want her to have it on her own terms, denying or allowing me penetration when and how she decides. So you can see why this is so important to me. And you can also see why I was so happy that she was able to cum so hard with Blue, and I was even happier when she told me afterwards, “We are going to have to do this lots more!”

Yes ma’am!

My Lady and I decided to bring the Rode-Oh and Blue on a road trip we will be taking next week. I also purchased her a cyberskin strap-on attachment that I hope works out even better than Blue. Fingers crossed on that one.  😉

This morning when cagedmonkey got home from work I sent him right up to bed. We have places to be today so he has to wake up earlier than usual. I did, of course, tuck him in and decided to unlock his Jail Bird and use my toy for some pleasure. I started out by straddling him from above on my knees. I put his rock hard cock between my extremely wet pussy lips. You could hear the wetness as I moved my hips in a circular motion just teasing the head of his cock. I even made him put his hands on my hips so he could feel me moving above him.

Just as I had him moaning really good I slid down the rest of the way on his cock and instantly that aggressive feeling came over me. I really want to fuck him so hard. I want to ride him hard and fast but I also don’t want to ruin the denial. He started doing math equations out loud and I giggled at him as I held him inside me and squeezed my muscles over and over around his cock. The feeling was overwhelming me and I started to ride his cock, pounding my pussy down on him hard and fast but only a few times because I didn’t want him to explode.

I quickly had to get myself off of him to make sure I wouldn’t accidentally push him over. I told him to get himself in the Rode-Oh boxer brief strap on harness and to get Blue situated in it. I told him I want him ready for me any time I feel like coming up and fucking him but that I don’t want him to cum so I was going to ride Blue.

He’s up there sleeping right now but I’m about to head up to visit and wake him up with my pussy in his face. Then I’m going to slide that dildo in my pussy and ride him so hard. I’m going to give my pussy the good hard fucking that it needs. My pussy is so sloppy and wet today and just waiting to be pleased in every way.

Yesterday was quite a tease filled day. It started out in the morning with me tucking cagedmonkey in like usual. However, it ended up being much more than your typical tuck in! Before I went up he’d fallen asleep so he woke up to my wet horny pussy being shoved in his face and he immediately went to work servicing me. I let him lick me to a nice orgasm and then I slid down and straddled his stomach. I started kissing him very deep. I grabbed his neck under his chin, pushed his head back and started kissing him much more forcefully. I kissed him so deep and so hard that he gagged.

I have no idea what is going on with me the past few days but I’m in a severely dominant mood. I’m very aggressive and forceful. Cagedmonkey says I start to growl like a predator. That’s kinda how I feel like he’s my prey to be caught and used for my pleasure. I have this overwhelming feeling of wanting to use him so hard and force him to do things to me exactly how I want them done. It’s something that, as I get more comfortable with my level of self control, this aggressiveness progresses into much more.

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Yes, that's my tattoo! 🙂


All day yesterday I had randomly been walking up to hubby and grabbing his face and kissing him so hard and deep. I’d grab his crotch, spank his ass as he walked by. I’d been quite clear with my sexual advances.

Last night, before hubby left for work, I had him begging me and whimpering. I decided to take off the Revenge (made him put that on the other day after his little cage free time) and enjoy myself with a little tease and torment. hehe 🙂 I started by simply stroking his rock hard cock to the edge and letting go. I did that over and over while I kind of had him pinned down with my legs. He gets quite squirmy these days when I’m edging him.

So I stroked him to the edge over and over, forced him to suck my big beautiful tits while I was doing it and loved listening to him moan, cuss and whimper each time I’d get him to the edge and leave him dangling there. That’s when I brought out my awesome trick. That really got him going and he started bucking his hips and really begging me to stop. Sometimes I wonder what it feels like when I do it… I guess he’ll have to tell us sometime!

Ohhhhhhh, what’s my trick, right? Hehe see, I even teased you! Well I wish I had a picture or video to show you but basically once I’ve edged him to the point of his cock being super sensitive I cup my hand slightly and place the head of his cock in the middle of my palm. This actually works so awesome with a tiny bit of lube or even precum works. I then move my hand flat, cupped, flat, cupped, etc squeezing with my thumb a bit too to give it that extra ooomph. I keep doing it at a very fast pace and it drives him absolutely crazy. I really have to hold him down then, so if you plan on doing this, tying him down might be a good option. I had a plan to only do it for about 5 mins straight but after seeing him, hearing him and feeling him bucking and squirming under me I just had to keep it up much longer. I kept him like that until the very last minute I could where he would still have time to get back in his cage and head off to work.

He is back in the Jail Bird now but boy oh boy did he have an awfully achy, horny night at work. Especially when I’d text him and tell him how I was rubbing my horny wet pussy, just because I could. *giggle*

Tonight is date night… it’s been awhile… I wonder what kinds of things my aggressive behavior will bring tonight! :)~

Sadist (sey-dist):
noun

1. a person who… receives sexual gratification from causing pain and degradation to another.

2. a person who enjoys being cruel.

So under the actual definition of a sadist, I am far from one. I do not enjoy causing pain or being cruel nor do I get anything remotely close to sexual gratification from it. Quite the opposite actually.

I’ve noticed that one thing Male Chastity has done for us is to open up communication and sexual exploration. We have experimented with the idea of things – usually through a good ear whispering mindfuck and found “Wow, that really turned me on!” That then kicks in my desire to research and explore that thing.

What I’ve found out recently is that I really (really, really, really!) love control. I’m not talking about controlling orgasms, I’m talking about controlling something at a much deeper level. I’m talking about having someone completely helpless and vulnerable. Well that’s easy, right? Just bind someone up, handcuffs or rope work great. Yeah, you’re right, that’s pretty fantastic. I’m finding that I do really like rope and bondage but I’m talking even deeper than that! I’m talking about having someone completely helpless and vulnerable at my own hands.

Let me try to explain it this way. I, kind of on accident, slid my hand up and around cagedmonkey’s throat. He got this incredible look of fear in his eyes, he gasped and a slight moan escaped his lips. That reaction caused me to squeeze just a little tighter and push up further under his chin. I leaned in and kissed him so deep and he let out a whimpering moan. I had him in my hands, at my will, he could barely kiss me back because I had such a strong dominant hold on his neck and jaw. I wasn’t choking him, he could breathe but I was close enough that the fear was there. The fear that I could easily lean into my grip and crush his trachea.

You may be wondering how I found out that I like this. That’s simple, just as I leaned in to give him that kiss I got such an intense jolt shoot through the middle of my body. It literally was a jolt of pleasure that shot up the center of me from my crotch up into my chest. It was so strong that it caused me to buck my hips, arch my back and let out a very throaty moan. Over the next minute or so I felt my body twitching and lurching, muscles tightening… wait a minute, I’m sure you know that feeling. To put it simply, having my husband in that vulnerable position and him reacting that way caused me to spontaneously orgasm. I was not being touched in a sexual way. I was merely straddling him like I always do.

Through our play we’ve already discovered I enjoy breath play and I knew I kinda liked it when I would hold cagedmonkey down. Pinning him to the mattress with my hands or my knees and using my own body and weight to hold him down against his will. We haven’t exactly explored that deeply but after this recent discovery, I’m positive we will.

At first I was very surprised at myself and maybe even a little scared that I would like something like this. I don’t know why I would like it, how could I like it? It so not right, not something a normal person would enjoy. What is wrong with me? Well, one thing that communication with cagedmonkey has done is given me someone to talk to about those feelings. Someone to tell me it’s ok to enjoy something with another consenting adult. There doesn’t have to be an explanation or reason for liking it. We decided awhile back, in exploring these things, that we would stop asking or worrying about why. We would just go with what felt good… as long as we both felt good doing it.

I do believe a spontaneous orgasm would be the classic definition of “sexual gratification” from something. I’m content accepting the fact that I have this “fetish” but what exactly IS this fetish? I do not feel this fits what a sadist is but rather my fetish is about complete control over someone, down to the most basic of needs… like breathing.

Is there a name that describes this intense sexual gratification from control?

Last night I had my first full erection in over two weeks. Oh… my…. GOD did it feel great! I never expected something as simple as my cock getting hard would be such a wonderful feeling, but I gotta admit that it was incredible. After being locked in the Jalbird for 24 hours a day for 17 days straight, just sitting there and seeing my hard cock was very fulfilling. I felt like a man again, sexually strong and powerful… at least, to a degree. My Lady still controlled my cock, allowed my cock to get hard, and also did not give me permission to cum. But I was willing to take what I could get!

And if just being able to get hard wasn’t enough, My Lady allowed me to feel the inside of her warm wet pussy with my cock. Holy fuck in heaven, it was so amazing. She was so fucking tight, she was squeezing me so hard. I warned ML that I couldn’t do much since I was basically on the edge of orgasm the moment my cock sank into her pussy. No problem for her, she was already cumming just from having my cock stretch her out for the first time in a long time. She also rubbed her clit to give herself an even bigger orgasm after that. I managed a few thrusts as she was cumming to help boost her high a little, but I still wasn’t able to do much.

It felt wonderful to finally be free and able to feel My Lady’s pussy with something other than my tongue, my fingers, or my caged cock. Flesh on flesh, there’s nothing like it. I am lucky that ML feels the same way, that she will always have a need to have me inside her and that no toy could ever take my place.

My freedom was short lived – I was back in the Jailbird within a half hour in order to get to work on time. My Lady plans on using the next month to tease me to the brink of insanity. She is very excited that she has now decided that she will be letting me out a lot more often during the month of May; without the protection of the cage, she can really let loose on teasing my cock. Will I be longing for the days that just passed, where I knew the limitations of ML’s teasing, and all I had to deal with was the crushing tightness of the steel around my throbbing shaft?