The other day our kids were driving me absolutely insane, misbehaving, talking back, arguing with me and each other constantly, etc. It was actually over the course of a couple days which, I’m sure, anyone with kids (especially on the spectrum) would know the time around a full moon or new moon can get very frustrating when it comes to behavior. Needless to say I was worn down and tired and pretty sick of being called “mean mom” because I felt like I was constantly redirecting or punishing them.

Cagedmonkey is such an amazing hubby and noticed how tired and mentally worn out and frustrated I was with their behavior. He offered to help with dinner one night and he then offered himself to me. Since you can’t go around beating your children and using the paddle on them, he offered to give himself to me to use the paddle on and take all my frustration out on. I haven’t actually had a real opportunity to spank him good recently so it really got me going and I decided, that night I would get my anger and frustration out on his deliciously sexy ass. 

Just to make things hotter I decided to tie him up similar to the way we had seen in a bondage photo recently. It’s basically a “face down, ass up” position that he cannot get out of. It was extremely hot seeing him tied up that way and completely unable to move. I used the underbed restraints and tied his wrists to his ankles. Not in a “hog tie” because I specifically needed his ass up and ready to take a beating and anything else I wanted to give it. 

It really helped having his face down into the mattress like that when he started to get loud at times. I just got up on the mattress and would shove his face into it telling him to be quite so no one heard him. He really was yelping and howling a bit and making some noise. We certainly didn’t want to wake the kids or alert any of the neighbors. ๐Ÿ™‚

It seriously felt so incredibly good to spank him. I actually felt such an amazing release as I spanked him over and over, harder and harder. Each set of swats with my fantastic paddle, I could feel myself let go more and more. I usually am kinda reserved when spanking him because I don’t want to hurt him. This time, I just really let him have it much more than I ever have and good Lord did it really feel good. The release of stress, the lift off my chest. It truly was such a gift for him to say “you can have me and I will take whatever you need to give out.” I beat his ass to a beautiful shade of red.

I love how you can totally see the marks the edges of the paddle make on his ass. While I was spanking him and telling him I knew he liked me doing it (because he was hard as hell!). I teased him and mindfucked him, telling him how easy it would be in that position to make him my bitch. To put on my strap-on and just fuck his ass hard while he was face down in the mattress. I got out one of the anal prostate toys and barely lubed it and stuck it in his ass. His ass is so slutty for me that it just took it right in, hungry for it. I told him he had a slutty ass for me and it only made his cock that much harder. 

After such an amazing night, we both thought I’d have some serious Dom drop. We did everything we could to prevent it and I think we did a good job. I was in such a happy fantastic mood the next day. I just kept remembering how terrific it felt to let loose. I know I could have let go more and beat him harder or longer but just that bit that I was able to felt so incredible and my pussy was so wet. I really look forward to another night like that!

We were so happy to be asked by Topco Toyz to review a few products and give our honest and unbiased opinion. Of course we love toys and trying them out so this was so perfect for us and we appreciate them asking! 

One of the toys we received was the Magic Massager G-Spot Pleaser. This is a “magic wand” or Hitachi attachment that gives you an extra boost by getting you in touch with your more sensitive spots. The attachment itself is a soft rubbery-like material. It’s almost got a sticky feeling too it right out of the package. We washed it before use (always a good idea with toys being used with your intimate areas!) And the sticky feeling didn’t really go away. It wasn’t a turn off but I felt it was something to mention. The g-spot attachment was just the right firmness to be inserted (it didn’t wiggle around too much going in) and then the to portion sat right against my clit giving me a good amount of vibration all around.

It’s not a very big size but it is angled just right to reach that spongy sensitive spot to push us ladies over the edge of an intense orgasm. It fit perfectly on my magic wand but I did have to remove the original cover to put this on.

I think this toy will be very helpful for those times I want to tie cagedmonkey up and force him to watch me please myself over and over, while he continues to be denied his own pleasure until I’m ready to give it to him! ๐Ÿ™‚ Go check out Topco Toyz for the Magic Massager and many other great toys to add to your collection! Keep an eye out for other fun reviews coming up as we get in more playtime!

I know it’s kinda crazy to be looking as far ahead as next year… but, honestly, can you really blame me? With as long as I’ve been waiting for an orgasm? But – and this might be even crazier – it’s not my orgasm that I’m focusing on. I’m assuming (guessing, lol) that it won’t be too far into next year before I get to cum. It’s the “after that” that’s on my mind.

For much of the past 3 years, ML and I have been working towards various things. At first, it was building up my comfort with the chastity cage so that I could spend longer time locked up for My Lady. Once I was able to go about three weeks without any problems, it showed that ML could keep me locked indefinitely if she chose to. And after suffering through over 6 months of denial, it’s pretty clear that ML can deny me for as long as it pleases her to do so.

ML and I have worked very hard to get to the point where she was fully in control of my sexuality and not held back by any physical limits. Now that we’ve gotten to that point, what’s next for us?

After ML allows me my next orgasm (if? Dear Lord, I hope it’s not if!), I expect us to move to a simpler arrangement – no scheduling, no “shooting for” chastity/denial sessions… even no Maybe Days. If ML wants me locked, I stay locked until she wants my cock free. If she wants to deny me, I don’t get to cum until she lets me. It could be days, weeks, months, etc. for either chastity or orgasm denial.

Since “whatever ML chooses” isn’t really a goal (it’s more just fun, which is much more awesomer), ML and I decided on some other things to work toward. We each had a list, and – not surprisingly – they were very similar. One thing that we both agree on is that we want to try some more bondage exploration. ML really wants to learn how to tie me up good and tight, and I really want her to. We’ve also received some bondage toys recently (and purchased some, too… we aren’t total freeloaders, lol), which we will be reviewing soon.

Even though (in my “desperate-to-cum” state) I’m looking ahead to next year already, I’m sure we’ll start exploring our new goals sooner than that. The question will be whether or not I can handle the intense domination that is sure to come… or if it really matters to My Lady at all. ๐Ÿ™‚

I’ve had a few people contact me asking where I’ve been. I haven’t been making my normal rounds on the websites, haven’t been commenting as much or anywhere near Twitter. I want to let you all know that I am sick and not feeling well at all right now. I, once again, have drug resistant E Coli which takes a little bit to get rid of. The doctors are checking everything out to see what the cause is (hopefully) and today I had a CT scan done. I won’t know results for a few days and then I have some other testing and procedures to go through.

Anyway, I am on antibiotics now and hopefully I will be feeling a bit more myself shortly. Don’t get into to much trouble without me lol! 

Being the internet kink celebrities that we are (yeah, right, lol), we were asked to do some unbiased product reviews for TopCo Toyz. Being the kinky people who love to use sex toys that we are, we agreed! One of the first products we tried was the Adam Male Toys P-Spot Intensity Prostate Vibe.

The “Ins and Outs”

I will admit, the P-Spot Intensity Vibe looked very intimidating in the package at first. The “that thing goes in my ass?” thought went through my mind more than once. It’s long and the business end is very bulbous, for lack of a better word. It didn’t look like it would be very comfortable.

Boy, was I wrong. ๐Ÿ™‚

The widened end isn’t really any worse than any of the plugs I’ve worn, and the rest of the shaft is thin enough to not be a problem for me. Once in, that bulbous head does a very good job of reaching all the pleasurable areas.

Does It Work?

The vibration was smooth and, like the name of the toy implies, rather intense. When ML found my prostate with the vibrating tip, I couldn’t help but start moaning. When ML began thrusting in and out, rubbing the toy against my prostate along with the vibrations, I couldn’t keep my hips from wiggling. And when ML started stroking my cock, I humped against her and and the toy. She stroked me to an incredibly frustrating edge, leaving my cock dripping precum onto my stomach.

I flipped over to get into a better “milking” position, and I immediately began to feel the effects of the P-Spot Vibe. ML was slowly working it in and out of my ass, massaging my prostate and teasing it with strong constant vibrations. She started rubbing my balls, coaxing the cum to flow from my prostate. I was moaning loudly as I felt the pressure building, demanding release.

I felt the cum begin to slowly drip from my cock. It was maddening how slow it was – I could almost feel it flow through my cock, millimeter by millimeter. After not feeling any cum pass through my cock for about 6 months now, it was a mix of pleasure and torture. After a minute, the feelings switched mainly to torture as my body demanded a more forceful cum, but instead it was only dragged through me. I looked down between my legs and saw the milky fluid oozing from the tip of my cock. I could only manage a groan as I resigned myself to having my cum extracted from me.


Conclusion

Honestly, the P-Spot Intensity Prostate Vibe is probably one of the most pleasurable and comfortable prostate massagers I’ve ever experienced. The toy itself is firm, no seams or irregular surface areas, and the vibration is very smooth. It gives a gentle touch – at no point did I get that “ow, ok that was too hard” feeling that sometimes comes with other firm prostate massagers. Lastly, it is very well designed, able to “achieve its goals” quite efficiently. ๐Ÿ™‚

Many thanks again to TopCo Toyz for generously gifting us with the P-Spot Intensity Vibe, as well as a few other items that we will be reviewing very soon. Stay tuned!

Literal answer to rhetorical question alert!

chasยทtiยทty
หˆCHastษ™dฤ“/
noun
the state or practice of refraining sexual intercourse.

As I was putting my cage on after shaving yesterday, I started thinking about exactly what this is that ML and I are doing. It’s easy to call it “chastity” but is it really that?

As you can see from the definition above (thank you, Google), chastity usually involves less (or perhaps even no) sex. Since ML began locking my cock in a cage, we’ve been have more – and BETTER – sex than ever. That’s like the opposite of chastity!

My Lady is in complete control of when and how much sex we have. And keeping my cock locked up all to herself gets her pretty damn horny, so we end up having sex pretty often. The cage doesn’t even stop her from having my cock when she wants it – she will have sex with even even while I’m caged, and she loves every minute of torturing me like that.

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You cannot imagine how frustrating it is to feel her warm wet pussy on my cock, yet I’m still unable to get hard. My cock certainly tries, but always fails. ML has has many orgasms on my caged cock as I throb helplessly against the steel. It often feels like I could cum, but it’s only wishful thinking. I’m left as frustrated as ever, often with a painfully full cage as ML drifts off into blissful post-orgasmic sleep.

So, we will continue to call it “chastity,” even though it’s something different at the heart if it. It’s not about refraining from sex; if anything, it drives us to want it more. For us, it’s about control. ML controls me sexually, not just my orgasms but even my erections. She will have sex with me when she wants, whether she allows me to have a erection or not.

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With all of the craziness of the moving and the new job and all that stuff, I feel terrible that I haven’t had the opportunity to write all that much lately. I guess getting 3.5 hours sucked out of your day just by simply commuting to work doesn’t leave all that much time for horny thoughts.

But then again… when you’ve gone without an orgasm for 176 days, those thoughts find their own time. ๐Ÿ™‚

Now that we are settled in our new home (or at least on the way to getting there) and my work schedule is a little more stable, there will be a hell of a lot more time for me to write… and plenty of time for me to dwell in my own crushing horniness.

Yesterday, ML and I completed a major goal for ourselves in making the apartment our own – we got the new bed fully put together, placed the box spring and mattress, and finally got it “sleep ready.” We’ve been waiting so long! We finally got it done. We also had to test out if “sleep ready” also meant “fuck ready.”

Any excuse, right? ๐Ÿ™‚

Good news to report: it passed with flying colors. No crazy kinky sex, no bondage or restraints or anything (yet)… just the regular damn fucking good amazing sex that ML and I can’t seem to stop having.ย  ๐Ÿ™‚ It felt so damn good, I had to text a video to one of our good friends, just to share the joy.

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Enjoy, my good friends.

I think that getting…

Oh God… fuck, my wife has an amazing ass….

Ok sorry, I got distracted… as I was saying….

There was a moment during last night’s sex where I really felt that I wanted to cum. So far, yeah I’ve wanted to cum, because almost a full half year since I’ve done so, duh… but I’ve also been enjoying the denial so much, and the novelty of a year without orgasms has always made it a “yeah, we’re gonna do it” thing. But last night… it was different.

Last night I really wanted it. I wanted to say “fuck it, getting this far is enough, I really need to cum.” I seriously contemplated just continuing fucking ML until I came inside her, and I’d come up with some sort of excuse later on why it wasn’t my fault (“I swear, honey, I tried to stop, but…. El Niรฑo!”).

I think the whole “settling in” and actually having a place to live now is not just allowing me to get back to normal, but all of the feelings that have been put off for the past handful of weeks are rushing back in one big wave. ML and I had a little bit of “standing against the kitchen counter” sex this morning, and I whimpered when I had to stop. It hasn’t been this bad in a long time… ever? Possibly.

My Lady is worried that my horniness has plateaued… I think there’s still plenty of Mt. Horniest to climb. ๐Ÿ™‚

Today, for some odd reason, out of no where I was having a bit of “drop.” I was feeling off and emotional and REALLY missing cagedmonkey while he was at work. I could feel my thoughts race, it felt like a roller coaster. I even caught myself wondering if I should just make him cum and forget this whole denial thing. I missed him so much today that my mind was racing through ways I could feel him… Making him cum is a huge way to feel him and connect with him. It’s been 173 days since he’s had an orgasm… He’s not quite half way there yet.

I don’t really want him to cum and I’m feeling much better this evening but this whole thing isn’t that easy on a wife who happens to be a keyholder to her one and only love. Who she happens to REALLY, REALLY like sex with! Haha I really am living how incredibly horny cagedmonkey is, how badly he wants to cum when he’s being teased and edged. I will say that I don’t feel there is much difference between how horny he gets at 3 or 4 months to how horny he is now… Just sayin’

It might be time to do some extended lock up. Perhaps some No look, No touch? What do you think?

Last night, ML and I got our first chance to try out the more “interesting” features of our new bedroom set. The fact that it’s not fully put together yet didn’t stop us – the bed is not ready to support our mattress yet, but at least the frame is up. My Lady used this frame to string me up and have her way with my defenseless body.

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The upper supports of the bed are pretty strong – they held up well when I pulled against them. They obviously won’t be strong enough to fully support my weight for true suspension bondage, but they will definitely be useful for ML to restrain me in many different ways.
Last night, ML cuffed my hands above my head and began rubbing her hands all over my naked body. I could feel her energy growing quickly as she touched y skin, sending shivers all over my body. She lightly tickled me, and I could only stand there and squirm. I could tell ML was very excited; she was like a kid with a new toy, she couldn’t decide how to play with me next!

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ML pulled my legs back a little bit, forcing me to stick my butt out in order to maintain my balance. She then started rubbing her hands over my ass, squeezing it as she whispered in my ear how much she loved my ass. Then she swatted my ass, giving me a good hard spanking and making my ass sting.

ML spanked me pretty hard; it had been a while since she really laid into me, and I could tell she had some “urges” she needed to address. ๐Ÿ™‚ I’m sure she would have hit me harder if she had her paddle at the ready, but my ass was still very red and tender by the time she was done with me.

(Sorry, no good pictures of my reddened ass cheeks… We still need to get a lamp for our bedroom)

After giving me my good hard spanking, ML decided to “reward” me with some hardcore cock teasing. She kneeled in front of me as she stroked my cock, looking deep into my eyes as she edged me over and over. I couldn’t help but try to thrust into her hand, searching for any stimulation that would give me a dearly needed orgasm.

Sensing that I was wanting more stimulation, My Lady fetched her wand and began using it on me in conjunction with her stroking. Soon I was moaning and shaking, softly begging ML for… I’m not quite sure if I wanted to cum or wanted her to stop. Either one would have been good, but she did neither. She continued teasing me, pushing me closer and closer to orgasm with each edge.

Finally, ML pushed me just about as close a she could without giving me a true full orgasm. She stroked me to the perfect moment, until one more stroke would drive me over the edge, and stopped… but she let the wand continue to work its magic on my tortured cock for just a moment longer.. Just as my cock began to throb, she removed the wand. I moaned in incredible frustration as my cock spasmed, bobbing in mid air as it made its futile attempt at cumming.

After a few seconds, ML grabbed my cock at the base and slowly squeezed up to the tip, pulling all of the ruined-orgasm cum out of me. She even gave me a little bit more of the wand treatment, causing me to wiggle and squirm in post-ruined-orgasm torment. My Lady was so turned on by having me so helpless and having such control over me that she laid back and treated herself to a wand-assisted orgasm while I was forced to watch from my restrained position. It was incredibly frustrating, but also incredibly sexy.

It was great to see that our new bed is going to fit our “specialized needs.” Once we get the mattress up on the bed frame, it will be exciting to see what types of fun we can have!

We have been fully moved in our new Midwest USA Apartment now for about a week. I’ve been working hard this week getting things unpacked and finding them places to be in the new place. We needed a few things to be taken care of by the maintenance staff before we could actually get our bed fully put up. Who knew there was a ceiling fan in our room? Crazy!

Anyway, there is obviously still more unpacking to do but tonight I’m taking off from all of that and I’m going to give my urges the attention they need. This evening I am taking the kids swimming and leaving cagedmonkey here to take care of a few tasks I have for him. He will be finding a few toys and getting our room ready for play. I want the kids good and tired out tonight after dinner so they sleep deep tonight.

I’ve got some incredibly strong urges for bondage and a good spanking and tonight, I’m giving in to those urges! I’m sure you will ‘ve hearing about it soon!