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Being sick for this long has really taken a toll on this Keyholder. I haven’t had that physical connection with cagedmonkey since Saturday. I mean we’ve tried but how long can you actually kiss with a stuffy nose before gasping for air? We’ve tried to be touchy feely and while that feels good I’m dealing with a tummy getting nauseous at the same time. My nose is all sore from blowing it constantly and my lips are all chapped. It’s really sexy, I tell ya.

I feel like my confidence has taken a hit in all of this as well. Usually, daily, I’m seeing or feeling a reaction to my aggression/dominance but since we’ve been sick there really hasn’t been any. We’ve haven’t felt like teasing really or anything like that in the past few days either.

Last night I was feeling some pretty yucky anxiety. Cagedmonkey, being sick, has been home from work more nights this week than normal. I usually have a little trouble on his first night back to work after being off, anyway, but last night got me particularly hard. I guess I should have prepared myself better for him going but I didn’t. So yeah, I had him get on his knees in front of me and hold me while I told him I was having a hard time. Cagedmonkey knows me very well after all these years and knows what I need to help me through.

Maybe this all sounds lame to some and not very becoming of a big bad ass Keyholder but it’s reality. I’m a little nutty and insecure sometimes and I’m just glad my subby hubby loves me and cares enough to give me what I need to push through and regain my composure and confidence.

Ya see, all that wonderful love he showed last night really helped when he got home from work this morning. I went up to tuck him in and unlocked his cage to release the sexiness within. He’s still not allowed to touch himself until my birthday, in a week and a half, so I put him in the bondage mittens. I had him get on his side and I spooned him and gave him quite the mind fucking while stroking his cock. Telling him all the things I could force him to do. Making him watch as I was fondling his cock and stroking him, something he hasn’t done in 16 days. I just love feeling that big thick hard cock in my hand. I had him so extremely turned on that he gushed precum onto my hand. I really enjoy getting him to that point.

One of the things that really got a good reaction out of him was when I told him how I could spoon him while wearing the strap-on. I explained in a sexy whisper how I could hold his cock in my hand and the only way he would be stroked was if he would push back against me. He would basically have to penetrate and violate himself to get any pleasure for his cock. What a dilemma! Such a humiliating thing to do just to feel that stroke on his shaft!

Hehe that really got him breathing heavy and moaning slightly. He even started to buck against me a bit too. I really think he liked the idea of being forced to do something he hated if he wanted any pleasure.

Such fun in teasing the mind. I’m also happy to feel myself getting back into the groove, so to speak.

I’m really tired of being sick, how is it possible that I feel worse this morning?!

That doesn’t really stop me for the most part. When I woke up this morning I wasn’t feeling particularly horny or anything because I felt like shit. However, cagedmonkey and I have a communication notebook and I was writing in it and got myself worked up anyway. I decided to pay him a visit upstairs while he was sleeping. I did just snuggle with him for a bit, until he put his knee between my legs and I started grinding on his thigh. I rubbed myself to a soft orgasm, it was nice, but it only made matters worse. I ended up sitting on his face and getting myself a good pussy licking. I love him being in the Jail Bird because I get to lick him and play with him while his face is shoved in my pussy. I came a few times and then another by my own hand before I headed back downstairs.

I don’t know if it’s me being sick, going to start my cycle or what but I’m emotionally sensitive today too. I feel like everything is a criticism. Maybe its just me because I’m sick, haven’t cleaned my house, folded the laundry or anything all week and I feel bad about it. Maybe I’m the one being over critical about myself so I’m putting it on others as them thinking that. I feel like I’ll never live up to expectations today. Like I’m not good enough for anything.

What a fantastic way for a Dominant woman & Keyholder to be, huh? Ugh!

I JUST WANT TO FEEL BETTER!

I’m not really one who plans out how things are going to be or even what things are going to happen. I’m more of the go-with-the-flow type person because I’ve found that things are much more enjoyable when we don’t expect or count on certain things. One thing about life that used kill me was getting my hopes up or expecting something and then only getting disappointed because it wasn’t how I imagined, what I pictured or exactly how I wanted it.

One thing chastity had taught, me as a wife and Keyholder, is that nothing is ever set in stone and everyday is a maybe day! I certainly have ideas of how I want things to go, especially a T & D or D/s session but in no way do I plan our expect anything to go in any particular way.

Since our Valentine’s Day romp my goal was to keep cagedmonkey caged completely (not out, no erections, no feeling me) until my birthday in April and denied his orgasm until his birthday in June. Well as you all probably read a couple weeks ago, the caged completely thing was blown out of the water soon after. Hey, what can I say? I love my man’s cock! 🙂 Still denying him orgasm until June was going to be easy, right?

Nothing is ever as easy as we think! Last night was something quite amazing. Hubby and I were spending some wonderful time together snuggling on the couch. We watched a couple shows on Netflix and just laid together holding each other. Cagedmonkey ended up rubbing my shoulders, relaxing me and making me feel so good and loved. One thing led to another and we were kissing and groping each other. It felt incredible to have his body between my legs, above me like that. It was so sexy, such a turn on, to feel his strong arms, his hips and thighs. We kissed and made out like a couple of horny teenagers.

We’re stopped for a break to get a drink and we talked. As were were sitting there talking we got on the subject of how bad we both missed his cock. With it being in the Revenge I don’t even get a chance to play with it like I do in the Jail Bird. Somewhere in our conversation I leaned over, used the key on my necklace and unlocked the lock on the Revenge. I popped the caged off and he started to instantly get hard so I made him quickly remove the ring.

This was something that had been going through my head for a good part of the day. I am a wife and I have a sexual relationship with my husband… but I’m also a Keyholder. Sometimes the heart, the wife part of me, really wants to have that connection, that intimacy with her husband. To feel his body against mine, to feel him slowly slide his thick cock into my tight pussy, to feel him fill me up with his cum.

One of the best things about being a Keyholder, his dominant, is that I’m in charge and what I say goes! Sometimes when the wife part of me wants to take over, I have the choice to let it happen. To feel my man make love to me. Thrusting slowly into me until I feel those very familiar spasms of his cock. Continuing to thrust as I feel his warm cum overflow my pussy. Filling me up and spilling out on to the couch because there was so much!

It may seem like I messed up my plans but really the ideas I have to get to my goals are never plans. Ideas don’t always happen like we think and that’s the best. One thing I did different this time around was I immediately locked hubby back in the Revenge. I did this in hopes of preserving some of that horny he had pent up for three weeks. I certainly want to try to avoid the “low” that happens after orgasm. We will see how this goes, it’s new to us because usually if he’s going to cum, I drain him with multiple orgasms.

So when a Keyholder Wants something, a Keyholder will have it. She is in charge!

Cagedmonkey and I thought it might be interesting to see what it was like for me to be teased and denied. The whole idea was to keep me denied of orgasm until Date Night on Friday the 14th, which would have been about 9 days or so when we started. Well the first 24 hours were completely bonkers and I was going nuts! I was so crazy horny I couldn’t even stand myself haha. I soaked through three pair of panties and pants! By the end of the 24hrs cagedmonkey was so turned on by teasing me he chased me down in the kitchen. He had his coat on and everything ready to walk out the door for work. He grabbed me, pushed me back against the counter and used his fingers, rubbing that familiar spot. You know the one that’s like a button to make me squirt. Well squirt I did all over his hand, dripping down my legs soaking the floor below.

Ok, so there went that day, we’ll just start over. Another day goes by and it wasn’t quite as frantic horny as the first but still a sopping wet pussy kind of day. I was excited, I made it 24 hours being edged and denied over and over all day without coming, woohoo! I thought I was well on my way to making it to Friday. Boy, was I wrong! I really think cagedmonkey enjoys making me cum way too much! However another 24 hours had gone by and I’d made it to last night without an orgasm. The woman who will sometimes have 10 orgasms in a day just went 48 hours without!

Last night, hubby and I watched an episode of Dexter before he had to leave for work. After the show we got in a little snuggle time, started kissing… harder, faster, deeper. Kissing turned to groping and that led to hands and fingers finding their way to my crotch. At first cagedmonkey was edging me over and over. He was really starting to learn the tension in my body, my breathing and was catching on to when I was hanging on the edge for dear life.

Then, he looked me right in the eye and asked if I wanted to cum. I told him of course I WANTED to! He said “do you want to cum enough to unlock me and let me fuck you until I cum deep in your pussy?” He knows I love that, it’s one of my favorite things, being filled up by him. However, I didn’t give in, I told him simply, “No.” Apparently he liked that I didn’t give in because he smiled and had this look in his eye as he started to rub my clit faster. It felt so good, I could feel it surge through me. I was so close to an orgasm, he stopped . One more flick of the finger, I swear, I would have had a full on hard orgasm. I told him to be careful and just as I did, the smile on his lips turned almost evil. He looked at me with his beautiful blue eyes and and began to flick his fingers fast, slipping over my clit, back and forth. My eyes got wide and I said, “No, I’m going to go over!” He said, “and?” I just kept telling him, “No, no, no!” I begged him, “please don’t make me cum!” He didn’t stop and over I went, hard, cumming and dripping, gushing more out of my pussy. He’d just forced me to cum!

Once I started cumming that was the end of that. He just kept going, rubbing my clit relentlessly, not stopping even after I’d cum. He kept rubbing and stimulating me. Forcing me orgasm over and over one right after the other. It seriously reminded of the Wand, the Wand doesn’t give up or stop once I’ve cum so my orgasms continue until I stop it. Well I had no control, he just kept going! After who knows how many orgasms I started to almost hurt from the touch, from the sensations on my clit. I started begging him to stop. Over and over asking him to please stop, telling him I couldn’t take it. Finally I got to the point of telling him if he didn’t stop I was going to have to use my safe word!

He slowed, allowed me to finish my last orgasm and come down. Well, like the title of this post says, that didn’t work haha! I really feel like he was enjoying himself way too much and actually liked forcing me to cum over and over to the point of almost using my safe word.

Maybe we’ll try this again for a few days before date night. I suppose if I ever do make it a substantial amount of time I’ll share it here on the blog. We’ve even talked about the possibility of mutual chastity and having me in a belt while he’s locked in his cage. Who knows what the future may hold! 🙂 So many fun possibilities.

I usually don’t work in absolutes, but I’m going to drop one on you right now only because it’s 100% true: every man should learn how to eat pussy. Period. Chastity or not, it’s one of the greatest and most generous things you can do for your lover. I always enjoyed it, way before the FLR/chastity lifestyle with My Lady began to form. For me, it’s such a turn on to know I can satisfy my wife with just my tongue (or fingers, should the desire arise). And now that I am in chastity, my pussy eating skills are all that more important!

It is very easy to enjoy licking My Lady’s pussy, simply because her pussy is DELICIOUS. Her taste and smell turn me on so much that I cannot get enough of it. I can (and have) eaten her pussy for as long as she will let me… 15 minutes, 30 minutes, an hour… it’s like an all you can eat buffet for me! I love the way she reacts to my tongue, gradually moaning more and more, louder and louder, until I push her over the edge of orgasm and she explodes. I don’t mind getting her gooey pussy juices all over my chin, or even the occasion squirt on my face… I wear it like a badge of honor. 🙂

I was always pretty good at oral sex; I have a strong, agile tongue that can handle lots of work. I’m also very dedicated to pleasing ML. But the most important aspect of my pussy eating prowess is the fact that I LOVE doing it! Naturally, you are going to be better at doing something you like. Speaking of: to those guys out there who don’t like eating pussy… what the fuck is wrong with you? REAL MEN EAT PUSSY. Give up your hang ups and just do it. Otherwise, some guy who likes doing it is going to do it better than you and steal your woman. Don’t say I didn’t warn you! 😉

So, as I was saying… I’m pretty good at eating ML’s pussy. But just like anything else, there is always room for improvement. So I ended up reading through She Comes First: The Thinking Man’s Guide to Pleasuring a Woman to see if I could learn a few tricks. And learn a few tricks, I did! I learned how to control the amount of pleasure I give My Lady, holding back at times to build tension: for example – pressing my tongue firmly on her clit and holding still; after a few seconds, she very often starts asking (begging?) me to make her cum. That’s when I unleash on her to release that stored up tension, flicking her clit quickly with my tongue until she cums good and hard. Using this rhythm, I can draw out the pussy licking over a much longer amount of time, pleasing ML almost endlessly, instead of just going right for it, making her cum hard, and draining her of energy.

I highly recommend this book, for beginners or for so-called “experts.” Everyone can get something out of it. Thanks to this book, I can now make My Lady buck and bounce all over the bed while I’m eating her pussy. I sometimes have to hold her down just so she doesn’t push me off of her with her hips. And the noises she makes… let’s just say I need to be really careful about when I lick her pussy, so I don’t end up waking up the kids, or any of the neighbors! 😉

Eating pussy is an excellent tool for a man to please his woman, and I feel that every man should learn how to do it well. It’s wonderful foreplay, a great way to turn your partner on. And for those of us in chastity – where foreplay is pretty much the only sex we are allowed to have – it is an essential skill for pleasing your keyholder.

I write this blog based on our experiences, feelings and general knowledge. I’m not a professional nor do I claim to be an expert. I do know that there are some feelings and emotions in this lifestyle that are pretty common. You don’t have to be a Domme or a Keyholder, all you have to be is a partner to someone who has fantasies.
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In our contract, cagedmonkey and I are both required to share any and all fantasies with each other. No matter how crazy, absurd or off the wall they may seem. We are also required to listen to each others fantasies without judgement and with open-mindedness (is that a word?). There are two ways we can respond to fantasies, enthusiastically: “Ooo, damn baby that sounds great I want to try that!” Or accepting: “well, that’s interesting. I don’t think that’s something I’d be into, at least not right now but it is interesting.” This is when we can ask questions, see what the reasoning is behind the fantasy, spanking? humiliation? pain? etc and maybe see if there is even some aspect of it we might like to explore.

One thing someone can start to feel, when hearing your partners fantasies, is responsible. We instantly feel like we HAVE to fulfill said fantasies. We start to feel intimidated by the fantasies thinking we will never measure up. Well I’m here to set the record straight… just because someone has a fantasy does not mean it needs to be fulfilled or that they even want it fulfilled. Not everything can be done but the thought of some things is enough to get a guy to struggle against those cage bars! 🙂

There are several ways to handle a fantasy. Some are like, “Woohoo! I want to do that right now!” Others are like, “well, let’s look in to how to do that right but it sounds awesome so let’s explore.” Some might be like, “I’m not sure I’m into all of that but I did like __________ and I would love to try that part.” And still others are like, “Holy shit you cray cray in the hay hay!” Those fantasies may be better off left as a fantasy inside your nutty little head. Haha however that’s not to say those “head fantasies” cannot be used later to mindfuck your partner.

My point in all of this (mostly to the newer Keyholder or partner in charge) is to remind everyone that we are not at all responsible for fulfilling fantasies. We certainly can, and will I’m sure, but it is in no way a requirement of any relationship. They can be just as fun fulfilled as they are talked about.

So now… what are your fantasies? I’m putting out a request, I’d love to hear one of your favorite fantasies that has been fulfilled, that you wish was fulfilled or that is just a really hot thought in your head.

Please leave a comment or send us an email! 🙂

Being a wife and Keyholder can bring on a lot of confusing and conflicting feelings. Especially when it comes to whether or not we want to allow our sweet locked up boys to orgasm.

I noticed last night as cagedmonkey and I were messing around that I had this feeling of wanting him to be so horny for me that he would just take me. That’s all fine and dandy because I have such a devoted, good boy that I can take his hand and put it on the back of my head and he knows I want him to grab my hair, flip me on to the couch and slide into me. What he also knows is that I don’t want him to cum while having his way with me… and he won’t.

While 99.999999% of the time I do not want him to, I really think there is this itty bitty part of me that wishes I could push him past the point of being a good boy. I said, I THINK! It really felt like it last night. I felt like I wished he was so horny he would disobey me. Of course if he did, he’d be punished for it because it would be cumming without permission but maybe part of me wants that? Maybe part of me wants him to disobey so I can punish him? I really DON’T want him to cum. However, there is this little part of me wants to know if I’m THAT irresistible. Could I possibly get him so horny that it pushes him so far as to not be the extremely devoted good boy that he is.

Perhaps just getting him to a begging, pleading, practically crying mess will satisfy my “am I irresistible?” feeling. It’s so frustrating because like I said I really don’t want him to but maybe I do want him to challenge me!

Anyway… I’m not sure what I really want but cagedmonkey and I talked about this very thing today because that’s what you do in a relationship. You talk, about everything! I told him how conflicting the feelings were but that the “don’t orgasm” feelings beat out the “disobey me” ones. We talked about how we could get to a point of, in the moment, letting him know that he had a choice to obey my rules or disobey them. Well really he always has that choice but if he disobeyed at any other time I would be extremely disappointed and probably get depressed and his punishment would be pretty severe. If there was that moment of me being like “well I wouldn’t be devastated if he was so so so bad that he just had to disobey me and take me” I would need to be able to let him know. If it was a moment like that where I let him know with a few choice words there would still be consequences but perhaps no where near as harsh as him making that decision on his own whim.

I’m telling you… if you ever think your wife, girlfriend, partner and Keyholder has an easy job, you are very mistaken! A lot of us get these conflicted feelings. That’s not to say everyone does but I’m sure a good amount of us do.

You probably thought this post would be from cagedmonkey, huh? Well it’s not, it’s from me! This whole chastity thing seriously gets me going. I’m constantly horny, constantly wet, ready and waiting to be pleased.

It’s so crazy that sometimes I’ll misread things and turn them sexual. And even the other night cagedmonkey was eating a tomato – yes a tomato – and I got all kinds of turned on. The way he was eating it and slurping up the juices reminded me so much of him eating my pussy. I just love it so much to lay back, head on a pillow, back arched, legs spread while he kisses, licks, sucks and pleases my pussy. How he basically makes out with my pussy lips and tongues my clit.

I really just shook my like, “why the hell an I thinking like that?” LoL

Once in a while, for fun, Lady and cagedmonkey will go back through their communication book and revisit experiences, thoughts, feelings and ideas they had. The communication book was something they started for and with each other at the beginning of this journey. These posts will be written exactly as they are in the book.

The following entries are about the day CM handed over the keys!

10/14/2013

ML: “OMG!! Last night you decided to give me your key! You handed over complete control! I wasn’t expecting it or really ready with what to say or do. It was unexpected and empowering at the same time! I have been more than ready to take the control and the responsibility. I’ve been waiting to officially become your Keyholder. I really, truly appreciate the level of trust you have in me and I promise to be an awesome Keyholder. Well as best as I can!

The craziest thing is that we’ve only had the cage since Saturday and by Sunday night you were handing the keys! You wore the cage for 7 hours + straight yesterday and even through the Emergency Room visit with darling daughter! Like a champ I might add.

After a pretty amazing night with lots of talking I took my cock out of his cage because he did such a good job in there during the day and through the teasing last night too! I wanted him to know that, when I want, he will get out and he may even get to cum the way I want him to. I loved watching while making my cock cum all over my hand last night. I don’t often get to see it. After I let my cock have a little release, right back in the cage he went. You’ve been sleeping in the cage all night so I guess we’ll see how you’re doing mentally and physically when you wake up. 🙂

P.S. I loved seeing, feeling and tasting the cock in his cage while we were 69 and you were servicing my pussy. – Oy! I have more feelings that I just thought of! Will write later.”

CM: “I wasn’t expecting to give you my keys last night, but I just needed to. It felt right. I know it was the right thing to do. And I feel great about it!

This feels amazing – I feel safe with you. I enjoyed servicing you and pleasing you last night. I’m starting to get the whole “focus on you” thing, but I’m glad that you enjoy hearing about my frustration, etc. You’ll be hearing plenty about it!

I think I’m going to work on my ‘list’ before playing with the kids. I love you!”

ML: I just wanted to get this written down. Last night after you have me your key I had a slightly different feeling about some things. When I straddled your lap and had your face in my big boobies and made you suck and kiss them and was I was kissing you deep and hard from above I felt this real feeling of ‘oh he looks so good servicing me.’ I haven’t ever used those words and really felt them but last night they seemed to come naturally!

I love you so much and I’m still excited about how everything is going! <3 You're my best friend and I couldn't be this without you!"

So I was inspired when I heard about a fellow Keyholder who was locking up her hubby and in the spirit of Christmas sang a Chastity Carol! Now I’m a girl who loves Christmas carols so this is right up my alley! I’m not a song writer and don’t pretend to be but this has been fun so I thought I would share with all of you!

This song is courtesy of a fellow Keyholder off one of the guys over on the Chastity Forums:

You’ll Be Locked Till Christmas
(In the tune of “I’ll be home for Christmas”)

You’ll be locked till Christmas
You can count on me
I will tease
If you will please
And I will hold the key

It will be frustrating
This I guarantee
You’ll be locked till Christmas
By me who holds the key

The following are songs I’ve put together or that in working on. I hope you enjoy and have a wonderful holiday season! 🙂

White Christmas
(In the tune of “White Christmas”)

I’m dreaming of a white Christmas
Just like the ones I used to know
Where my penis glistens
And Keyholder listens
To hear me whimper, pant and moan

I’m dreaming of a white Christmas
With every chore I do at night
Unlock me and I’ll please you right
And may all
My Christmases be white

12 Days of Chastity
(In the tune of “12 Days of Christmas”)

On the first day of Christmas
my Mistress gave to me
a cock cage and she holds the key

On the second day of Christmas
my Mistress gave to me
Two blue balls
and a cock cage and she holds the key

On the third day of Christmas
my Mistress gave to me
Three “Not yets”
Two blue balls
and a cock cage and she holds the key

On the fourth day of Christmas
my Mistress gave to me
Four ruined cums
Three “Not yets”
Two blue balls
And a cock cage and she holds the key

On the fifth day of Christmas
my Mistress gave to me
Five milkings
Four ruined cums
Three “Not yets”
Two blue balls
And a cock cage and she holds the key

On the sixth day of Christmas
my Mistress gave to me
Six paddle spankings
Five milkings
Four ruined cums
Three “Not yets”
Two blue balls
And a cock cage and she holds the key

On the seventh day of Christmas
my Mistress gave to me
Seven paddle spankings
Six veins a’bulging
Five milkings
Four ruined cums
Three “Not yets”
Two blue balls
And a cock cage and she holds the key

On the eighth day of Christmas
my Mistress gave to me
Eight whips a’cracking
Seven paddle spankings
Six veins a’bulging
Five milkings
Four ruined cums
Three “Not yets”
Two blue balls
And a cock cage and she holds the key

On the ninth day of Christmas
my Mistress gave to me
Nine
Eight whips a’cracking
Seven paddle spankings
Six veins a’bulging
Five milkings
Four ruined cums
Three “Not yets”
Two blue balls
And a cock cage and she holds the key

On the tenth day of Christmas
my Mistress gave to me
Ten
Nine
Eight whips a’cracking
Seven paddle spankings
Six veins a’bulging
Five milkings
Four ruined cums
Three “Not yets”
Two blue balls
And a cock cage and she holds the key

On the eleventh day of Christmas
my Mistress gave to me
Eleven
Ten
Nine
Eight whips a’cracking
Seven paddle spankings
Six veins a’bulging
Five milkings
Four ruined cums
Three “Not yets”
Two blue balls
And a cock cage and she holds the key

On the twelfth day of Christmas
my Mistress gave to me
Twelve
Eleven
Ten
Nine
Eight whips a’cracking
Seven paddle spankings
Six veins a’bulging
Five milkings
Four ruined cums
Three “Not yets”
Two blue balls
And a cock cage and she holds the key

********Still working on the last few lines of 12 Days, do you have some ideas? Please comment!