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Update

Posted by cagedmonkey on June 22, 2018
Posted in: Male Chastity, Marriage, Orgasm Denial. Tagged: , , , , . Leave a Comment

Hi everybody!

We’ve been slacking a bit on the posts lately because we’ve been so busy here and there; we also took a little road trip last weekend and also took the time to visit some friends, which ended up being a very fun time! I’m sure you’ll be “hearing” about it pretty soon!

With that said, many people have been asking us how things are going since starting the longer lockup and even lengthier denial. Well, I think it’s not a big surprise that I’m horny as fuck at the moment. 🙂

The longer lockup didn’t go as long as My Lady had planned for it to go – she was initially looking for at least a month, but it was only a little more than two weeks before she let me out for sex. I know, it’s such a pain that she wants my cock inside her so badly, ammirite? My Lady was feeling a little down about the whole thing, thinking that she let me down in some way, but I was MORE than happy to get my cock in her pussy. 🙂 Seriously, I don’t get “disappointed” by things like that anymore, mainly because I don’t set expectations that I feel NEED to be filled, or else it won’t live up to my fantasy… I mean, I’m basically living a fantasy as is, why would I need anything more than what I already have? As long as ML is happy with what transpires, then that is all that I want.

As far as orgasms go: I still haven’t cum since my birthday, after a weekend where I had more orgasms than I’ve had over the past 3 years combined at least. ML was trying to make me cum so much to the point where I wanted to stop, but I think she underestimated what these last 5 years have done to me! I’m not sure how many times I came (maybe somewhere in the teens, perhaps?), but after so many years of extreme denial I felt like I could definitely do more. It might take 20 or 30 before I feel sufficiently caught up. 🙂

Orgasm denial has never been a major problem for ML to deal with, at least during the first handful of months; we got through six months pretty easily during our last long run…or, maybe I should say she got through easily, I was out of my mind desperate to cum after two. This time around, we are taking a “let’s see what happens” approach to it all: ML wants to go at least six months, then who knows? Going for a full year or orgasm denial would be an amazing milestone, but if it doesn’t happen, then no biggie. And, on the flip side, if she feels like she wants to go more than a year…. um, well, that would be a big biggie for me, but I guess I would have to go along with it.

You’ll Cum When I Say So

Posted by Lady M on June 2, 2018
Posted in: FemDom, KeyHolder, Male Chastity, orgasm control, Orgasm Denial, Tease & Denial. Tagged: , , , , , , . 6 comments

This weekend is Cagedmonkey’s birthday weekend. His actual birthday is on Monday, so I decided the weekend before I would spend overloading him on orgasms. My plan is to try to make him cum so much he’s actually asking me to STOP making him orgasm. Once he’s to the point that he can’t physically orgasm anymore, I plan to use the vibrator to overstimulate him as much as possible.

You may be wondering why I plan to do this and the simple answer is that, starting on his birthday, he’s going to be locked and denied for an indefinite amount of time. I’m thinking a good 6 months of denial sounds good to start. Once we get there I may, or may not, make him go another 6. 🙂 The actual lock up won’t be that long but I am planning on having him go 24/7 for a good chunk of time. I want him aching in the pit of his stomach, desperately needing to get hard and even wanting to orgasm.

I can’t wait to flaunt the fact that I get to have as many orgasms as I was, as much as I want, and even get to make him provide me the pleasure of those orgasms. I very much love to see and feel how frustrated he is when he’s aching for sexual attention and so jealous of my orgasms and the orgasms of others! It’s fun when friends brag to him about the orgasms they get to have when he’s locked and denied and wanting one so bad.

It should be a fun year 🙂

Weekend Release

Posted by cagedmonkey on February 11, 2018
Posted in: Male Chastity, Orgasm Denial, Sex, Sex toy. Tagged: , , , , . 3 comments

I spent a couple of days working some odd hours, which gave me some time to hang out at home by myself during the morning. While ML was at work, she made sure to keep me occupied during the day by giving me instructions. Her favorite task was to edge myself in the cage using her wand. It certainly wasn’t lost on me that the toy she normally uses to get herself off was now being used to frustrate me, and I think My Lady also enjoyed the irony.

It didn’t take very long to edge myself – after being locked for over two weeks, my cock was in desperate need for attention. My cock was throbbing and twitching within moments of applying the wand, and I definitely could have cum if I continued, even in spite of being caged.

My Lady finally allowed me to unlock for this weekend, but the teasing and edging hasn’t stopped. She had me stroke myself for my first edge out of the cage (and for my first erection in weeks). God, it felt so fucking good… and just putting this out there, but my cock seems like it’s bigger than usual! Maybe it’s a trick of the eye after being locked for so long and not seeing it’s full size, but I look (and feel) huge! Anyone who says chastity shrinks your cock doesn’t really know what they’re talking about.

ML can also vouch for my consistent size – she also allowed me in her pussy last night! I was very grateful, because it has been SOOOOOOO long since I felt her pussy on my cock. Even though I was well drunk and don’t remember everything from last night (apparently, ML had not one, but two intense orgasms), I made sure to keep the feeling of her riding my cock in my memory… mainly because I’m not sure how long it’ll be until the next time!

Fantasy Fiction: Couple Control

Posted by cagedmonkey on February 8, 2018
Posted in: Bondage, D/s, FemDom, Fetish, Fiction, Male Chastity, Orgasm Denial, Sex, Sex toy, Tease & Denial. Tagged: , , , , , , , . 11 comments

It started out as an innocent attempt to increase the excitement in their sex lives.

Michael and Emily had been practicing chastity for almost a year, alternating as each other’s keyholder. They enjoyed how horny being locked chastity made them, how desperate and needy they became for one another. The only problem was their conviction – they could only keep themselves locked for a week or so maximum before the desire was too strong to resist. They wanted to go longer, but they couldn’t. They turned to Sophia for help.

Sophia was a good friend of Michael and Emily, they had met through meetups and get togethers through the kink community in their area. Sophia had a husband who she also kept in chastity – Michael and Emily were always amazed at how Sophia could keep her husband locked up for months at a time. Sophia’s husband had also not had a full orgasm in over 8 months, and she had no plans on allowing him to have one any time soon.

“There’s no way I would be able to go that long without Michael’s cock inside me,” Emily once told Sophia. “I think I’d die!”

“Oh, you’d be surprised,” Sophia replied.

So, when Michael and Emily realized that they would need help taking their kink to the next level, they turned to Sophia for help. They agreed to let Sophia hold their keys for a year and be in control of when they would be unlocked and allowed to have sex with each other.

“You’re sure you want this?” Sophia asked. “If I’m in control of the both of you, I’m not going to go easy on you. In fact, I would do everything I could to make it a living hell for both of you, because that’s what I enjoy…”

“We are sure,” Michael said. “We are ready for this.”

They were not ready for this.

It only took two weeks of being locked in chastity 24/7 for Michael and Emily to realize they were in way over their heads. Michael and Emily were absolutely desperate for some sort of penetrative sex with each other, but Sophia would not allow it. She kept both of them locked up tight in their chastity belts, letting the need build slowly. Michael and Emily felt the ache growing with each passing day, but could do nothing to fulfill their desires.

After a month in chastity, Sophia had basically turned Michael and Emily into sex starved maniacs. Even just the thought of sex would cause Michael’s cock to swell and throb in his cage, and Emily could feel her pussy nearly dripping through the steel plate over her crotch. She sometimes found herself absentmindedly stroking the chastity belt, wishing she could be rubbing her pussy instead. When Michael noticed this, he would whimper to himself, wishing he could take advantage of his god-awfully horny wife.

After two months of chastity, Michael and Emily were both desperate for an orgasm. Emily found herself grinding her pussy against objects during the day, rubbing herself against the counter as she cooked or fruitlessly humping a pillow as she tried to sleep. Michael could feel his underwear brush against his cock through the bars of his chastity cage with almost every step he took. Sophia used their desperation against them during this time, upping the intensity by introducing the couple to some bondage games. Sophia would tie Michael and Emily up together chastity belt to chastity belt, and wedge her wand between the two of them. When she turned the wand on, it vibrated the steel around both of their sexes, and it didn’t take long before both Michael and Emily were frantically thrusting into each other trying to get off. But the vibration wasn’t enough to get either of them off in chastity, it only made things worse.

After three months, Michael and Emily seriously began to regret asking Sophia for her help. They had hoped that she would occasionally unlock them for some sexual contact, but Sophia had kept them locked constantly. They could plainly see that Sophia was enjoying this even more than she thought she would – having two chastity slaves to play with was even more exciting than just one! Sophia tortured Michael and Emily by inviting her husband over, letting him out of chastity, and forcing them to watch him fuck her all night long. Sophia’s husband was more than happy to participate, as Sophia allowed him to cum more times that night than he had for the entire last year combined! Emily watched as Sophia’s pussy was stretched by her husband’s cock over and over, and Michael watched as Sophia’s tits were covered in cum. Would they ever get to feel that again with each other, or would Sophia keep them locked up forever?

Sophia answered that question about a month later by telling Michael and Emily that she would be unlocking them for the first time and allowing them to have sex with each other, but it would be on her terms. Michael and Emily quickly agreed – how bad could it be if they were finally going to be able to have sex?

They had no idea how evil Sophia could be.———————————————————————

“Please!” both Emily and Michael were begging. “Please, faster! PLEEEEEASE!!!!”

Sophia was incredibly turned on by the scene playing out in front of her. She had spent weeks thinking of the perfect situation to torture Michael and Emily with their own desires, and she had finally come up with the perfect way to do so.

Sophia was sure to restrain both Michael and Emily before removing their chastity devices. After being locked up for so long, it was frustrating to not be able to touch themselves, but being unlocked was enough of a release… for now. Sophia had placed Emily in her steel stockade on her hands and knees in doggy-style position, complete with a locking collar and waistpad to hold her in place. She was strapped down tight to the waistpad so that she couldn’t move her hips even the slightest inch. Michael was on his knees behind Emily, with his hands cuffed and attached to the ceiling above him. His predicament was what Sophia considered to be her masterpiece.

Michael’s balls were held in a tight grip by Sophia’s fucking machine, pulled slightly down and away from his body. There was not much discomfort when the arm of the fucking machine was pushed forward, but he felt the pain of being tugged when the fucking machine cycled backwards. This prevented Michael from thrusting into Emily’s pussy out of synch with the rhythm of the fucking machine. Sophia had also rigged the fucking machine with a firm backrest that caused the fucking machine to push Michael forward, forcing his cock into Emily’s pussy with each thrust. Essentially, Sophia had turned Michael into a flesh-and-blood fucking machine, able to easily control him with the turn of a dial. Michael would fuck Emily at the pace Sophia wanted, regardless of how fast or slow either of them wanted him to.

Of course, Sophia had no intention of allowing Michael to fuck Emily hard and fast, like both of them so badly craved. In fact, Sophia had set the fucking machine for the slowest speed possible at the moment, causing Michael’s cock to sink into Emily’s pussy at an excrutiatingly slow pace. Each thrust of his cock took at least five seconds to plunge fully into Emily’s pussy, and another five seconds to pull out. After only a few minutes of this slow fucking torture, Emily began to try to move her hips back onto Michael’s cock. The stockade held her in place, but she couldn’t help but try. Sophia was getting very wet watching Emily’s futile attempts at impaling herself on Michael’s hard cock. Emily’s body was moving on its own accord, her shoulders hunching back and forth trying to get any type of movement going, but her pussy didn’t move an inch back or forth. Soon, Emily was wailing loudly, her entire body trembling as she could not contain her frustration any more.

Michael found very quickly that the pain of having his balls pulled was not bearable enough for him to fuck Emily in the way he wanted. He certainly tried, but could only manage an inch or two of penetration before he needed to pull away. Even if he could take the pain, having his balls pulled in that way would definitely prevent him from having the orgasm he so badly needed. Michael could only slouch against his restraints, taking only what the machine was giving him, silently begging for the machine to speed up so he could cum. Occasionally, his hips would involuntarily thrust forward in a fit of uncontrolled desire, causing him to yelp out in pain as the machine pulled his balls forcefully.

As Sophia had promised, Michael and Emily were in hell. They wanted nothing more but to have crazy hot hard fucking sex with each other; Sophia had put them so close to what they so desperately needed, but she wouldn’t give it to them. She only tempted them with it in the worst way possible. Michael and Emily reached their breaking point within minutes of each other, both of them crying out and begging Sophia to make the torture end. Tears were streaming down Emily’s face as she couldn’t take it any longer, and Michael had gone limp and was reduced to a broken mess of sexually tortured flesh.

But Sophia let the torture continue.

Sophia watched as Michael and Emily went through stages of frantic frustration, to deflated acceptance of their fate, and back again. Each time she could see the moment of change: their bodies shaking back and forth trying to gain some control of their situation, and then sagging lifelessly in their restraints. They would shout, cry, scream, wail, and then fall silent as Michael’s cock mindlessly penetrated Emily’s pussy over and over.

But Sophia let the torture continue.

Sophia watched the couple, rubbing and teasing her wet pussy as she enjoyed the scene. She wanted to draw it out so that Michael and Emily would be forced to watch her have a massive orgasm while they were teased mercilessly. She let her pleasure build and build, her moans getting louder and louder. As it became clear that she was about to cum, Michael and Emily couldn’t help but stare as Sophia brought herself to a huge, screaming orgasm.

Sophia was surprised by the strength of her orgasm – she was enjoying torturing the couple a hell of a lot more than she thought she would, and her orgasm was fueled by the intense feeling of power she felt in the moment. Even her orgasm was killing them, and that made it even more sweeter.

Once Sophia had come down from her orgasm, she reached for the control for the fucking machine. She looked directly into Michael and Emily’s eyes as she turned up the speed. Both Michael and Emily cried out in response to the increased pleasure.

“OH MY GOD!!!!” Emily screamed as Michael fucked her harder and faster. Michael was grunting loudly as the machine forced his cock into Emily’s tight wet pussy. They both were racing towards an orgasm they had been desperately needing for so long. The machine pounded Michael’s cock into Emily’s pussy as they were both ready to cum…

Suddenly, Sophia cut the machine off on an outstroke, leaving just the tip of Michael’s cock inside Emily’s pussy.

“AAAAAAAAAH!” Emily shouted in horror, as her pussy began to spasm. “NOOOOOO!” Emily shoved herself back, desperate to get Michael’s cock back inside her as her pussy suffered through a ruined orgasm. Her pussy lips sucked at the head of Michael’s cock, trying to pull him in so that she could experience some sort of pleasure from this long-denied orgasm, but it was no use.

Michael had thrown his head back, ready to fill Emily’s pussy with a load of cum when the machine stopped. “UGGGGHHHHH?!?!” was all he could manage as he looked down at his cock just barely in Emily’s pussy. He watched as her pussy pulsed around the head of his cock, and he felt himself falling over the edge. He tried to hold back, knowing how frustrating a ruined orgasm would be after all of this. He gritted his teeth, squeezing hard and trying to hold his load in…

The pressure and need to cum was just too much; Michael’s ability to hold back failed, and Emily’s greedy pussy ended up bringing Michael off, his cock twitched through a ruined orgasm. His cum spilled out of his cock and into Emily’s pussy. Emily felt Michael’s cock pulsing, and she knew that he, too, was suffering through a ruined orgasm. Each of them was cumming, yet neither of them were able to fully enjoy it. Emily cried once again as she felt the ache building in her pussy once again.

“I hope you enjoyed fucking each other and your orgasms, because once Michael gets soft enough, you’ll both be going right back into your chastity cages…. I’m not through with you guys just yet. If you think this has been intense, wait until you see what I have in store for you for the rest of the year…”

A Partr-Edge In a Pair Tree?

Posted by cagedmonkey on December 13, 2017
Posted in: Male Chastity, Orgasm Denial, Sex, Tease & Denial. Tagged: , , , , . 1 comment

Tonight is the start of our 12 Days of Edge-mas fun, and ML has already added a few wrinkles into the mix. ML wants to have me wear the Revenge for the entire thing, and also plans on blindfolding me whenever I’m being edged. It’s not quite “no look, no touch” but it results in me not seeing my hard cock until Christmas… at least, not in person. I’m sure My Lady plans to get plenty of pics and video of my cock during this time, although wouldn’t it be crazy if she were to post the pics here or on Twitter and not allow me to even see them? All of our readers and followers would be seeing more of my cock than I would!

Second wrinkle: ML has hinted that she might not necessarily be in a “gift giving” mood on Christmas. In other words, I may not get to cum, even after all the edging. I doubt that she would try to continue adding edges every day, that would begin to get a little crazy. Then again, crazy has never stopped her before…

The 12 Days of Edgemas

Posted by Lady M on December 6, 2017
Posted in: Orgasm Denial, Tease & Denial. Tagged: , , , , , . 10 comments

On the first day of… Ok no, really, by the title I’m sure you get my point. Cagedmonkey and I were talking and I decided  It would be great to do the twelve days of edgemas. What that means is, starting 12 days before Christmas – the twelfth day being on Christmas Eve – that cagedmonkey would be edged each day. On the first day he’d be edged once, second day twice, third day three times, etc all the way until he’s being edged 12 times on Christmas Eve. If I’m feeling extra special nice on Christmas day, maybe all that edging will earn him with an exceptional orgasm!

Have any of you done this kind of thing? Would you like to do it with us? It sounds like it would be such a frustratingly fun time!

Gimmie Five

Posted by cagedmonkey on November 17, 2017
Posted in: Male Chastity, Orgasm Denial. Tagged: , , , , , . 4 comments

Today makes a total of five weeks that I have worn my chastity cage nonstop, 24/7. Five long weeks of not being able to fully get hard or erect, instead pushing and bulging against the steel in futile attempts at full arousal. I’m not going to break that down into days or hours or anything like that, because “five weeks” should illustrate how long it’s been without having to go deeper into it.

Seriously, though…. FIVE WEEKS! Most guys find it difficult to go one week without even jerking off, and I haven’t even been able to get my dick hard for five times that! It really seems almost ridiculous when I say it out loud.

Before this, my longest time of wearing the Jailbird 24/7 was a little bit over three weeks, and I remember feeling my skin on my cock stretch out for the first time… it almost hurt, it had been so long. This time around, I’m almost doubling the amount of time between erections… how much more is this going to hurt when I finally get fully hard?

Five fucking weeks… actually, I should say five “no-fucking” weeks, because that’s what it’s been. Five weeks since I’ve been able to feel My Lady’s pussy on my cock, her mouth or hands on me stroking me up and down… it’s been waaaaaay too long now. Not for her, of course; she’s been getting all of the sex she wants. Whether it’s my tongue, my fingers, or one of our toys when she really needs her pussy filled… she is having all of her needs attended to, while I get more and more desperate every day.

I don’t know if it’s just me noticing it more or if it’s true, but our Twitter timeline seems to be filled with pics and videos of couples fucking. Every day I’m bombarded by images of hard cocks thrusting deep into wet pussies, and all I wish for is being able to see my own do the same with My Lady. I will admit that part of me finds the “pseudo-cuckold” aspect of it all very hot – forced to see all of these people easily getting to do the one thing I can’t, no matter how badly I want to. And don’t even get me started on the gut punches that come in the form of cumshots; I’m way past the realm of fantasizing of having an orgasm any time soon. I just want to be able to get hard….

Next week is Thanksgiving, which is the earliest deadline ML has put on my current 24/7 lockup period; I’ve known for a while that I wouldn’t be getting out before then. I think it was this past weekend where I truly hit the point where I just wanted out, and it’s only gotten worse as the week progressed. I think I would seriously, honestly do anything just to be unlocked right about now, it’s that bad. But it’s not over yet…and, depending on ML’s mood, it might not even be close to being over.

The End of Locktober

Posted by cagedmonkey on November 3, 2017
Posted in: Chastity Device, Male Chastity, Orgasm Denial. Tagged: , , , . 3 comments

November has finally come, and “Locktober” is officially over. For me, however, my extended period of 24/7 chastity still continues…

Today marks 3 weeks since my Jailbird chastity device was locked onto my cock, and if all goes according to ML’s plan it will be at least another 3 weeks until it comes off. I say “at least” because you never can really tell with My Lady anymore – she very well could be waiting until Christmas, New Years, or even Valentine’s Day to unlock me. This uncertainty makes it difficult for me to anticipate just how much longer I have left to go this time around, so I’ve pretty much resigned myself to being locked until whenever ML decides to take me out…. I’ve accepted that it could be weeks or even months until I have another full erection.

It’s very difficult to think about the fact that I won’t be having a full erection for at least another month, and perhaps even more, especially after having gone almost a month without one already. I get frustrated enough not getting to cum for a couple months, but this is a whole new level. Forget being denied the pleasure of an orgasm, I’m being denied the experience of basic physical sexual arousal. Out of necessity, my body has begun to express its arousal in other ways – I’ve been having more and more “bodygasms” as the weeks have gone on, which makes sense now that every other avenue of sexual arousal is rigidly controlled by My Lady.

The thing that surprises me the most is that ML doesn’t seem to be wavering as badly as she has before. Three weeks is close to my longest 24/7 lockup period (to be honest, I’m not exactly sure what length of time is my longest, but I’m pretty sure a new personal best will be set very soon). Although her horniness has been increasing over the last few days or so, and she has been getting quite sexually aggressive with me, her need of PIV-sex specifically doesn’t seem very strong at the moment; I’m 100% sure I want it WAY much more than she does right now. I have no doubt imagining her having no problems with keeping me locked in this cage for another month.

Insomnia

Posted by cagedmonkey on October 26, 2017
Posted in: Chastity Device, Male Chastity, Orgasm Denial. Tagged: , , , . 9 comments

It’s almost two weeks since my cock has been able to get fully hard, but it’s definitely not due to lack of trying. On the contrary, my caged erections have been worse than usual. This could be due to the supercharging of my horniness after this past weekend, or if it’s just the knowledge that it’s going to be much longer until I’m finally unlocked. In fact, now that I think about it, the time I still have left ahead of me is probably longer than I’ve ever been locked 24/7 before…

How do I get into these types of situations?

You’d think that I would learn my lesson after going almost a year with no orgasms that when I suggest something extreme to ML, she’s not going to take it lightly. Did I think that when the idea of locking my cock up for two months straight came up, that she would go easy on me and give me a few hours out of the cage when I really needed it?

Of course not.

So I’m stuck fighting through the rest of this month and most of next (at least) until I can have the pleasure of a full erection. Forget feeling my wife’s warm wet pussy* on my cock (although, that would be fucking GREAT right about now), it’ll be nice to finally not have to feel my cock being squeezed by steel every single time I think about something even the slightest bit sexual.

I must be having sexual dreams on a pretty regular basis, because three times this week I’ve woken up at 3am with an extremely full and painful cage. It’s so severe that I’m forced to lay on my back, which is not my usual sleeping position (I’m used to sleeping on my stomach… of course, lol). I try to get my mind off of it, but the constant throbbing caused by the tightness of the cage makes that impossible. It usually ends up taking 45 minutes to an hour just for me to soften up enough so there’s even a small chance of me getting back to sleep.

It’s really a dilemma with no solution: I can’t just decide to not have sex dreams (especially when I’m so damn horny after being denied so long), and it’s not like ML is going to suddenly discover her compassionate side and unlock me any time soon. In fact, the more she sees me struggle with this, the more likely she is to enjoy the feeling of control she has and decide to push me even further past Thanksgiving…. Christmas, maybe?

Or… have I already had my last full erection of the year, and I don’t know it yet?

*I was going to use “tight” as an adjective here, also, as I thought, “Man, after two months of not having my cock inside her, she is going to be soooooo fucking tight!” Then, I remembered Adam… sigh….*

Free… For Now….

Posted by cagedmonkey on October 8, 2017
Posted in: Male Chastity, Orgasm Denial, Pictures, Sex, Tease & Denial. Tagged: , , , , . Leave a Comment

In my last post, I wondered aloud whether or not my long lockup period had already begun without my knowledge. ML’s response to this was, “I don’t know, maybe it has! I hadn’t really thought about it too much yet…”

It’s a little startling to realize how easy it has become for My Lady to keep me locked in my chastity cage for a week straight, but that is where four years of chastity has brought us to.

It turns out that did get at least one more chance to feel ML’s pussy before my cock is locked away for more than a month. ML and I had date night last night, and afterwards we attended a “play party” with some friends. We couldn’t stay long so we didn’t have a chance to play ourselves, but we came home pretty turned on. Lucky for me, My Lady was in the mood for sex, and she didn’t want a toy; she wanted the real thing.

ML used my cock along with her wand to give herself a few good orgasms before bed (none for me, of course). She was nice enough to allow me to sleep uncaged, which was a nice surprise. In the morning, she took the opportunity to give me a little bit of a tease to start my day.

She’s left me uncaged for the day today so far, which makes me wonder if she’ll be teasing me tonight or throughout the day… or both. It’s actually a tough day for me, because I’m seeing all of the things I’m going to miss when I’m locked up next week.