Sex

Man, this cold has really been kicking my ass. As My Lady mentioned in earlier posts, I missed a couple days of work, which is fairly rare for me. Even over the weekend, I was feeling like crap. I’m much better now, although I’ve still got some sinus congestion; it’s a major mood killer when I have to pull back from a passionate kiss to sniff some snot dribbles back into my nose.

The one thing I have noticed is that the “horn” has definitely started coming back. When ML is near me, I feel a surge of desire that drives me closer to her. The last two nights while leaving for work, I haven’t been able to resist kissing her fiercely. Tonight, I even pushed her up against the wall and kissed her, causing her to moan and grind her body against me. It’s been a while since I’ve been inside her pussy with anything (thanks to her cycle), and I think she’s starting to feel the frustration of that, as well.

I also have some good news on the horizon to report – very soon, I will be having surgery to help fix my elbow. It’s been a pain for quite some time now, and to be quite honest, it interferes with our sex life. Missionary is sometimes a challenge of finding the best way to take weight off of my arm, and you can imagine how difficult certain bondage positions can be for me. After the surgery and recovery, I should be in much better shape. I seriously cannot wait! I’ve been wanting to get this done for years now, and I finally found a doctor who was willing to consider surgery an option.

So, here’s to getting healthy and hopefully staying that way!

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I know March is supposedly “Ask a Question” month here in the blogosphere but I really didn’t make a big deal about it because we don’t usually get into all those little traditions. However, I DO love questions so maybe this is one I should have gotten into!! Oh well… with all that said, we had a fellow blogger comment the other day to ask a question and I decided with the subject matter that the answer might be better explained in it’s own post. What he is asking is something that I have often thought to write about and explain my view on but I haven’t just yet, now seems like the perfect time. I do encourage any other Dominant ladies, Mistresses, whatever who might read our blog to give an answer as well, feel free to comment!

Here is the comment from DtBHC:

As March is not yet over I thought I would ask a few more questions. I have posed the same questions to other dominant women to gauge their thoughts on this matter as well.

The topic I would like to get an understanding of from you is around the feminisation of your partner. Obviously this can be a fantasy of the male in the relationship and therefore something they desire, but what I was interested in was what do you gain from any such practices that you adopt in your relationship? N on occasions likes to make up my face. This occurred a few times before we started this current dynamic and only once since. It was different when she did it the last time as I was more accepting of what she was doing and hence she enjoyed it more. I still don’t know what she gets out of it.

This is what he is curious to know:

So the sorts of practices I have seen mentioned are like breast growth, wearing panties, being plugged or pegged (fantasy of mine so I get the thrill this brings your partner), removing hair and wearing adornments. So if you wouldn’t mind, could you please share with me what these practices mean to you and the relationship?

As far as the whole feminization (I’ll spell it the American way haha) thing goes, it seems that is something that most people think HAS to be part of a D/s relationship. Personally, I do not think anything HAS to be part of any relationship. I think you do what you enjoy, no matter what it is or whether it makes sense to you or any one else!

Now, as far as feminization in OUR relationship, it is actually something we are not into. We did for a VERY short time play with the whole wear my panties thing but, to be honest, it’s not a turn on and I might even consider it a turn off to see MY husband being feminized. If we are to discuss what I do with some of my other subs, then there are other dynamics at play. I like to get to know my subby boys which means I get to know if they have a thing about humiliation and of course then I can feminize them. If it is something they enjoy and get a thrill from then I am going to go all out doing what I am able to give them what they need. I do know that some women enjoy some parts of feminization, whether thats a completely shaved, smooth body or how pretty her guy looks in panties, it’s just not something I enjoy. This is the same for the breast growth or looking in any way feminine. I like to see my man as a big man. A man that, even though he’s a big strong man, I control and have on my puppet strings.

What this practice ultimately comes down to is control. A man wants to be controlled to the extent that he could even be made to be completely the opposite of what he is. There is a huge aspect of humiliation when a man being treated as a woman or seen as a panty wearing sissy boy. It digs deep into them showing them they are not even worthy of being men. I guess there might even be a little bit of degradation in there as well. Along with this some might go as far as the Forced Bi thing and that’s just another aspect of control.

DtBHC also asked about buttplugs and pegging and I guess in a way the pegging could be seen as sexual feminization – a man being fucked as a woman would be. I’ll spend a little time getting into how I view buttplugs and then pegging.

The use of buttplugs for me is not something I would consider a form of feminization. For me this is another aspect of control. I do not use buttplugs to cause pain, punish or stretch my boys. I use them to control yet another part of their body and to cause frustration because they sit on their already swollen prostate.

Pegging, on the other hand, I don’t know that I would call it feminine, many people have anal sex and is it feminizing for two men when they are having sex? I don’t think so. I think it’s just another way to have sex and not necessarily feminizing. I can see it being used that way, to humiliate and degrade and man by dressing him up as a slutty girl in a pink frilly shirt and a mini skirt, bending him over the side of the bed and fucking him in the ass like the dirty little slut he is… but I don’t feel it HAS to be that way.  I do think having a man that way, who is not normally in that position, and taking him in that way can be just another way to enjoy sex and control… it just so happens a woman doesn’t usually have an actual penis to use on her man so there is a need for a strap-on.

So I apologize to DtBHC, if my answers are a bit vague or maybe not be the full fetish answers he wanted to hear. I play with and do the things that make me feel good and that I enjoy. I also do them for the reasons and, in the way that I enjoy. I dont think there is some rule book that has to be followed and that you have to be one certain way because you do a certain thing.

Thank you for the questions and I certainly encourage more! I do love to get questions (even if it takes me days to answer them!)

My Lady and I spent last night together in our favorite way. She got up before I did in order to get the kids ready for school. I woke up to ML halfway through getting dressed, her fabulous fucking ass tempting me from just inches away.

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Yes, THAT fabulous fucking ass.

My uncaged cock wasted no time in getting hard. ML turned around and smiled when she saw me checking her out; she loves knowing how turned on I get just from looking at her sexiness. My cock wanted attention so badly, I asked ML if I was allowed to stroke myself as I watched her get dressed.

“You may,” she replied with a smirk, as she reached back and unhooked her bra.

Her perfect tits spilled out of her bra (which she very graciously removed after putting it on just moments before). I moaned loudly, gripping my cock tight as she cupped and massaged her breasts right in front of my face. Before I had the chance to fully enjoy the feeling of stroking my cock – a sensation I don’t get to experience all that often anymore – ML bent forward and squeezed my cock in between her tits.

“Oh, fuuuuuuuuck,” I moaned as I leaned back on the bed. The feeling of her soft titties surrounding my cock, stroking up and down the shaft was absolutely heavenly. She looked up at me with a sweet smile, her eyes locking into mine as she continued to tease me cock with her cleavage. I could only hold eye contact for just a moment, because my cock between her tits just looked so damn good.

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Ammirite?

Of course I wanted nothing more than to shoot my cum all over those pretty titties, but My Lady wouldn’t allow that. She left me hard and needy as she got dressed the rest of the way and went about her day.

I felt very tense after, my legs were shaking and I couldn’t help squeezing my fists over and over. Yes, part of it was the frustration of going 6 weeks without an orgasm, but there was something else. I was just so excited that this what my life is now: I have a wife who loves me, who is everything I could ever want and need physically, and she teases me and keeps me in chastity just the way I always fantasized. I was frustrated that I wasn’t getting the orgasm I so badly wanted, but I was excited that I was getting the sex life I so badly needed.

My Lady and I were made for each other. The type of sub I am matches up perfectly with the domme that she is. Her qualities fill my needs, and my characteristics fulfill her desires. It really is a special thing that we have found.

But enough of that emotional crap… my cock fits perfectly in ML’s pussy.

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It’s almost as if it belongs there.

It really does defy logic. No to brag or anything, but my cock is pretty damn big… ok, that is sort of a brag, but we’re moving on, so deal with it. As for My Lady, her pussy is very tight, she works hard to keep it “in shape,” so to speak. So you’d think there would be some painful stretching involved when we get down to it. Fortunately, that’s not the case – I fill her up perfectly and she squeezes like nothing ever could.

There really is no physical feeling better than when my cock slides inside her tight wet pussy. Our chastity play only enhances this; after being locked up in a steel cage and not even able to get a full erection, sinking my cock deep into her warm wetness is like seeing the sun after being stuck indoors for a month. There’s nothing better in the world.

It’s crazy that I just thought about the fact that cagedmonkey has been denied over a month! It hardly feels like it! I remember not too long ago I was dying to have him orgasm myself by now but this time, a month feels like nothing. It’s interesting how things change in a year and a half. It seems like this whole 6 months of denial might not be as hard as I thought. Who knows… maybe at 6 months I’ll be like, eh that wasn’t so hard, lets go another month and another! Who knows how long we can go without him orgasming! 🙂

Today has been so much fun. I’ve been teasing cagedmonkey throughout the day. At one point I texted him, told him to go in the bedroom and stroke his cock nice and hard. I didn’t tell him for how long or anything and off he went. I soon followed and stood there, hands in my pockets, watching him stroke himself. Then I pushed him back on the bed, bent his knees and put his legs up. Our bed just happens to be the perfect height for a pegging so I simulated that while I stroke his cock. I loved hearing him moan while I was fake fucking him.

I continued my hip thrusts against him while I was stroking his cock, I rubbed my hand up his stomach to his nipple and as I pinched it I said, “I bet you’d love it if I was fucking you right now and made you cum all over your stomach.” He just moaned out an, “oh yes!” It was really very pleasing to tease him and intensify his horny that much more.

I can’t wait till later. The kids will be going to bed soon and we plan to have a couple drinks and then it’s playtime! There will be no falling asleep early tonight!

Last night was the first of our two nights together and it was such a lovely night too. No, we didn’t get all naughty kinky crazy sexual, we just enjoyed watching tv and being close. Cagedmonkey was locked right up until we went to bed. I actually wasn’t going to unlock him because I wanted to build his frustration. Then just as he was getting in bed I told him to take off his cage, just in case. 🙂

Since we only get two precious nights together naked in bed, I cherish those times. Last night, as we lay there completely naked, our warm skin pressing together, I thought about how horny I was for him. I thought about making love to him, about feeling him in that amazing way. Then I thought about how incredibly frustrating it must be to finally be unlocked and laying naked together. How bad he must have wanted to be in my warm pussy. I love to increase his horniness, to tease him and make him want me desperately.

I can just imagine how bad he was aching to be with me as we lay there, his cock hard against the soft skin of my ass. Not to mention those times I woke in the middle of the night to run my hands on his body. Those times I trailed my fingers over his skin, around his sexy hips to tickle, tease and fondle his cock.

Not sure how many times I can say it but I really, really, really do love being a cocktease.

I really do love that we can go from intense fantasy-like sexual times to very sensual loving more vanilla-like times. I love that I can be with and enjoy my husband this way. It wasn’t always like this. There was a time when I was anxious about any amount of affection because the motive behind it was always sex, sex, sex. It’s just not that way with us when I’m in control. We have much more sex than we ever have and much more intense sex. It really is an amazing thing.

Tonight… I can’t say, is going to be as sensual or as vanilla because I’ve only been up for 2 hours and my pussy is aching in my panties right now. I’m aching to feel him, to be with him, to cum good and hard on him.

I took advantage of daylight savings time this morning and was able to make it home before ML or the kids were awake. I snuck into the bedroom, quietly locked the door, and crawled underneath the covers to get to her naked pussy. She must have been having a wonderful dream, because she was already wet and ready for my eager tongue.

I slowly and gently licked her pussy, allowing My Lady to fully wake up. I could hear her soft moans above the covers as she began to respond, her hips pushing up off the mattress to find my mouth. I kissed and licked her pussy lips from bottom to top, sucking her clit into my mouth each time I passed over it. I wasn’t even trying to make her cum, but she was getting there very quickly.

I took her clit into my mouth and strummed it quickly with my tongue, and very soon she was right on the verge of orgasm. A little more tongue pressure gave her exactly what she needed and triggered her orgasm. She began what we like to call her “silent screaming” – it sounds like a breathy whine, even in reality she’s trying not to scream her lungs out as she cums and alert the kids to the kinky sexing going on. I continued licking her clit throughout her orgasm, and she continued to cum hard for a good thirty seconds or so.

I needed to give her more, I just love to make ML cum way too much to stop at just one. I used two fingers to tease her opening, pushing just the tips of my fingers inside her pussy. When ML began to hump against my hand, I slid my fingers deep into her wet pussy, continuing to suck her clit into my mouth at the same time. Once again, it didn’t take long for her have another orgasm, fighting her uncontrollable screams throughout.

ML ended up cumming twice more; a total of four strong full body spasm orgasms. She was sprawled it on the bed, trying to catch her breath and recover from the intensity of her orgasms. I, on the other hand, was left denied and needy for an intense orgasm of my own. I was so turned on, my cock was bulging against the bars of the cock cage harder than ever.

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And my balls have never been more swollen.

Something that I noticed lately: the intensity of our chastity/orgasm denial has stepped up and up, over and over as we go through each denial period. It sounds almost impossible, but it keeps getting better and better. You’d think there would be times where the ebb would balance out the flow of things, but the intensity only comes back stronger. ML’s orgasms are the strongest they’ve ever been, and so is my desire to please her… and also my growing need for an orgasm!

How does this happen? How does it just keep getting better? Is there no limit to how amazing this can be? And does it really even matter? All that matters to me is what’s going on right now…. and right now is pretty damn good.

Wow, did I ever end up horny the other night. Cagedmonkey and I were making out on the couch and I even had an orgasm rubbing myself on his lap. It all just got me going so much that I just needed to feel him. I pulled him on top of me and made him simulate making love with me. God, just being with him in that position, in that way, makes me bonkers. At that moment, period or not I told him I needed him. I needed him to get that cage off and to make love to me. I needed to feel his thickness inside of me. I needed to feel my pussy clamp down on him as I cum on his cock.

He was so hard in his cage, pressing hard against the bars, squeezing out. He told me he had no idea how he was getting out and I told him I didn’t care, I wanted him out and I wanted him out right then. He was just going to have to yank it off. He managed to pop the cage off and the dents in his shaft were outstanding. They looked similar to this:

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He even managed to bend himself out of the ring too. And I just grabbed ahold of him and guided his cock into my pussy, I barely waited for him to kneel down between my legs. I really did just need to feel him and cum on him. It wasn’t even so much about feeling him thrust as it was him filling me up so my muscles could grip and squeeze his shaft as I came. It’s just such a wonderful feeling to feel myself clench around him.

I had several super hard amazing orgasms. My whole body tightening, shaking and quivering with each one. Sometimes I really wish I was able to be as loud as I need to be, to scream out “oh myfucking God” while cumming. I just can’t with kids down the hall sleeping in their bedrooms. Even though I couldn’t be as loud as I want I still cum so fucking hard. So hard, in fact, that when I stood up the other night I almost fell over and passed out. My brain was ridiculously fried. I think I had cum so hard and held my breath so long from holding in the screams that I lost some oxygen to my brain. I felt very dizzy, woozy and lost my balance and almost fell. Luckily cagedmonkey was there to give a hand but, wow, was it crazy to feel so out of control of myself after cumming like that. Especially when hubby is denied and all my hard cumming does is frustrate him more and more everyday. Making me cum is one of the biggest teases for him. He is giving me the one thing he is so desperate to have. To me, there really is nothing better than my hair trigger horny man.

My Lady just instructed me to put in the small butt plug – just in case she she decides to peg my ass later tonight, she wants me to be ready. 🙂

The small butt plug isn’t all that uncomfortable anymore. I’ve gotten used to the size of it, although the stimulation on my prostate is quite intense.. especially after a month without release. It’s a different experience without the cage on, as my cock tends to stay at least half hard with the constant anal stimulation.

The large butt plug (which ML may have me use later, if she desires) is a different story. The huge head on it really stretches me out and I really have to take it slow to be able to insert it. Once it’s in, it takes a moment or two to adjust to being filled up so much inside. After that, it’s almost more of a pain the remove it than to keep it in (literally).

ML hasn’t pegged me in a while, but she  has wanted to ever since the new steel collar arrived. She has already used the collar on me as a way to control me, grabbing it and using it to pull me in for a kiss or a pussy lick, etc. But she hasn’t used it as a “pegging handle” yet. I’m wondering if tonight is the night.

(The events in this post occurred on Friday night; I’m late writing this post mainly because I’ve been dodging sick family germs for the past two days.)

I never really expected orgasm denial to get “easier” with each successive denial period, but I’ve found that it certainly is the case. It’s been almost a month since my last orgasm and it feels like the time has flown by.

Up until now.

Perhaps it has been the lack of available play time together, but I hadn’t really felt the growing need of my horny before Friday night. My Lady and I finally had some alone time as well as the energy to put that time to good use.

We started our night by watching a couple of episodes of The Americans on Amazon Prime – I highly recommend it, it’s a great show. But I digress… we sat with each other, cuddling and touching and feeling very lovey towards each other. After the show, I really wanted to make love to my wife, even though my cage was still on. As I told her, “I can make love to you without my cock, you know.” I kissed her body everywhere, licking and caressing her stomach all the way up to the sensitive skin on her neck. She was moaning and whimpering the way she does when she is experiencing intense emotions connected to our sex play. I love hearing that, because I know I’m doing something good. 🙂

I moved up her body and began kissing her as I ground my hips between her legs. I could feel her body responding to me, pushing up against me, the energy flowing between us. We locked eyes as the energy peaked and something amazing happened – ML had a strong orgasm right as our lips met. I looked into her eyes and kissed her deeply as she came, her body shuddering underneath mine on the couch.

It felt wonderful to make love to her like that. I felt so close to her. It was a wonderful tender moment between the two of us.

Then, the hungry animal inside My Lady took over, and she pushed my down to the floor and straddled my head. She shoved her warm wetness all over my face, soaking me in her delicious juices. I dutifully stuck my tongue out and she immediately began fucking herself with it. Her clit rubbed against my nose as I tongue fucked her, and I felt her pussy pulse as she came again on my face. I couldn’t hear much as her thighs were squeezing my ears tight, but I could feel the waves of pleasure throughout her entire body.

ML lifted her hips and allowed me to slide out from underneath her. I turned around and looked at her, and that feeling hit me: the feeling of furious hunger. I looked at her, on all fours, resting her head on her hands after an amazing orgasm, her beautiful ass and delicious pussy spread wide due to her relaxed posture. I wanted to take her. I needed to fuck her. It wasn’t a choice; I couldn’t resist. The only thing holding me back was the steel cage that was still locked on my cock.

So I did the next best thing to slamming my cock in her pussy and fucking her as hard as I could – I did it with my fingers instead. I shoved two fingers into her pussy, and she gasped in surprise pleasure. She began to moan again and pushed her hips back into me. Her body shook with pleasure again, and again I was overcome by an urge I couldn’t resist. Her twitching asshole just looked so goddamn sexy, I shoved my tongue as deep as I could while I fingerfucked her harder and deeper. ML moaned even louder as I attacked both of her holes in a sexual frenzy.

It only took her a few minutes to come again, this time she was unable to hold back her screams as her pussy gushed all over my hand and dripped down to the floor below. She was completely spent, as was I. The only difference was that I had to get up and go to work while she was able to lounge on the couch and enjoy her post-orgasm haze.

Since that night, I’ve felt the level of my horniness increase. When the sexual frenzy inside me flares up, it’s difficult to put out the fire. It’s especially difficult when I’ve been denied for a while. It’s almost impossible when ML is deliberately trying to make those flare ups happen. But to be honest, I love how it feels to need her that badly. I love the hunger that comes with needing her that much, feeding off of her sexual pleasure, and wanting nothing more than to give her that pleasure. It drives me insane, and I love it.