Male Chastity

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Lady M: I can’t get enough of feeling your body, touching you all over.

cagedmonkey: I love the way you touch me.

LM: I want to touch you all over. I miss your cock.

cm: Yeah, about that… can I ask you something out-of-role?

LM: Sure, baby. What’s up?

cm: It seems like lately you’ve been really missing my cock… I’d say almost as much as I do, but that’s pretty much impossible. But I’m getting the vibe that it’s starting to take its toll on you too. Do you want my help with finishing the whole month you planned to have me locked 24/7? If you start to break down, do you want me to remind you?

LM: I’ll be okay. When I tell you that I miss you cock, I’m just expressing myself. I’m not going to pretend that I don’t miss it.

cm: Good, I don’t want you to pretend. I also kinda like it that you miss it.

LM: Right. See, I can’t play that “hard ass Domme” role like I don’t want your hard cock. This stuff is hard on me too, you know.

cm: I know, but I need to know how bad you want this. Because I obviously want out of the cage, and if you start getting weak I can’t guarantee what I’ll try to talk you into it. But if you REALLY want this to happen, I’ll try my best not to push it. We may need to work together when we try to stretch to new limits.

LM: I do want to make it. I will let you know if I need your help. It’s only a few weeks, I should be able to make it.

cm: You say “only a few weeks” as if it’s not that much time. To me, it’s “a few weeks!”

LM: Only a few weeks until I get to wrap my hand around that big fat cock of yours.

cm: Mmmmm, I love it when you describe it like that!

LM: Well, it is big and fat… but only when I allow it to be.  😉

A few nights ago, My Lady and I were laying on the couch together, and things started to get sexual… as they very often do nowadays. 🙂 We began kissing and touching each other; things started to get really hot, really quick. I rolled over on top of ML and began thrusting my hips towards her as I kissed her deeply. All of a sudden, both of us felt it at the same time: we flipped the “power switch.” All of a sudden, I felt very dominant and powerful over ML.

When I get dominant, I tend to talk dirty a lot. I rubbed up on her, and I started asking her if she wanted to get fucked. If she missed taking my hard cock deep inside her slutty wet pussy. ML was getting turned on, too, pushing back up against me as I pushed my hips down against her. I pounded my hips down on her, doing everything I would be doing if I was fucking her pussy as hard as I could… except for the fact that my cock was still locked in its steel cage, of course.

Afterwards, I started to get a little down. All of the simulating of the dominant, forceful sex kinda made me miss it a bit. I realized that I really do miss my cock. I miss being able to fuck My Lady hard and deep. I miss the way ML’s warm pussy feels when it’s squeezing my cock. I miss being able to fuck ML more than three thrusts at a time. Hell, right now I just miss my cock getting hard!!!

I didn’t expect these feelings to show up so strong and so soon into the 24/7 month. I’ve gone 24/7 longer than this, but not with the pretense that I would be waiting an entire month for my next full erection. It’s really getting to me this time around. I’m not really having second thoughts about all of this – chastity is still the most amazing thing that has happened to our sex life, and I wouldn’t change it a bit. But still, I can’t deny that right now a decent part of me truly feels like a prisoner locked away against his will. This is when chastity truly becomes “enforced chastity.”

If you’ve been reading our blog you’re already familiar with the fact that I am a huge researcher. When I’m interested in something I search the hell out of it on the internet and I love physical (& ebooks) books. As a new Keyholder I was happy to find that there were actually a few books out there for Keyholders and about male chastity. I have been into tease & denial since cagedmonkey and I got together but it is always great to find a book to give some ideas for that as well.

Below are just some of the books I’ve read on these subjects; well the ones I care to review and recommend to other Keyholders.

In all my research I was extremely happy when I found those certain key words to search that brought me to the websites with real life male chastity information. People who are married, love each other and live the lifestyle how they want it to be. Btw, those magic key words? Yeah, I finally got around to using “male chastity and/in marriage.” What a huge difference that made in weeding out the fantasy world.

That’s when I found Thumper’s blog as well as Sarah Jameson’s blog.I found that Sarah had written books that were available on her site and that is what got me started on hunting down books.
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Sarah’s book main book (if she’s still selling it) is a bit pricey however she does have a couple free ebooks. Her tease & denial guide and guide to male chastity & orgasm denial (no I don’t feel it’s a “complete guide” but it’s a good read anyway) are pretty good for a Keyholder who might also be new at tease and denial. You can also sign up for free emails from her that do offer some good advice.
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I can tell you that Sarah’s book is a pretty good book. It’s a very gentle, easy read and focuses on male chastity in a marriage. It really would be great for a very vanilla wife looking for information on this lifestyle. Though with all the other books out there, now, it’s hard to justify the cost of her book (which was an ebook/pdf when I got it). 🙂 I think it could be a great resource if she lowered the price and possibly offered it in print format.

A couple of cheaper books are available on Amazon.com. Georgia Ivey Green has a book “A Keyholder’s Handbook: A Womans guide to male chastity”
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This book has some good advice for a keyholder on chastity but be aware she also talks about some other fetishes such as feminization, humiliation and others. This book is less than $10.00 and well worth it in my opinion. As with any self help type book, you take what applies to you and leave the rest. Nothing is the end all authority on how to live your FLR or chastity lifestyle.

Mistress Ivey also has another book “How to setup an FLR” which is a great read if you are also looking to expand your chastity lifestyle to include a Female Led aspect.
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This book gives a couple a lot to think about in regards to what they each want from their relationship. It has questions for both partners to see where they are in terms of flr. We used this book to help write our chastity agreement.

Another book available from Amazon and is more vanilla than Mistress Ivey’s book but is an excellent starters guide is “Male Chastity: A Guide for Keyholders” by Lucy Fairbourne.
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This book is in both paperback and ebook format which is also around $10.00. It’s well worth it again in my opinion. If you are looking for a book to start with or to introduce your wife/partner to chastity and being your Keyholder, this would be it. As the book states it is a very “non-threatening, female-friendly introduction to the topic of male chastity, ideal for nervous keyholders or as a love-offering from a would-be-chastened male.” This book is a gentle approach to the subject and written in a very matter-of-fact style. It really is the perfect way to introduce this kink.

I try to give my honest opinions on the things I use or read. I hope that they are helpful to those who check out our blog and those looking to get started in this wonderful lifestyle. We love and embrace both the chastity and flr/wlm parts of our relationship.

Please feel free to add your own opinions of these books in the comments. If others are anything like me they would love to hear more than just one point of view.

The bondage rope is quickly becoming one of My Lady’s favorite toys. Last night before I left for work, she chose to give me something to remember her all night long with. And it was VERY effective!

ML started off by using the rope to tie me down to the coffee table in our living room; she cuffed my wrists together, and then used the rope to attach the cuffs to my thighs, running the rope around my cock cage for good measure. Now, if I tried to move my hands upwards the rope would tug on my cage and pull on my balls. ML let out a tiny giggle as I tested her ropework for her; she was obviously enjoying herself already, and we were only at the beginning.

Once I was secured to the table, My Lady grabbed her prized butterfly paddle and began to spank my ass. As she whacked my ass harder and harder with each swat, I began to whimper after each hit. My reactions began to fuel her desire, and she spanked me harder and faster until it seriously started to sting. She sat across my back to hold me down and paddled me more. I could feel my ass starting to turn red as each blow stung my ass cheeks. I could tell by ML’s breathing that she was getting very turned on, and when she gets very turned on she starts to lose herself in the moment. When this happens, there’s no telling what’s in store for me next!

What was in store for me, apparently, was a very rough pegging!

My Lady first started working Pearl into my ass. Pearl is a small-to-average size dildo, so it wasn’t too terrible. ML began fucking my ass with it fast and forcefully; I could feel it rapidly filling me up and exiting me, only to fill me up once again. I began to moan uncontrollably; ML’s response to this was to simply fuck my ass even harder. After a few minutes of this, she removed Pearl from my ass and reached for something much, much bigger.

The dildo she chose next was the large bronze one she has used on me before. This thing just looks painful – it’s longer than I am, and the head is extremely thick at the base. The shaft thins out to give a little bit of relief, however it is ribbed which rubs against my asshole over and over as it thrusts into me. She pressed the head of the dildo against my asshole. I wasn’t sure if it was going to go in at first! I felt my asshole trying to stretch around the bulbous head, and it didn’t seem to quite be getting there. No need to worry, though… ML shoved it in hard, forcing my ass to open up and accept the intruder. I grunted loudly as she shoved it in farther. God, it hurt SO FUCKING BAD. It felt like the dildo was pulling apart my insides.

My Lady began to fuck my ass with the huge dildo, roughly and without mercy. It didn’t take long for me to start sobbing and whimpering. I couldn’t take it anymore; I begged her to stop. I pleaded. And how did My Lady respond to my pleas? She leaned over and cupped her hand over my mouth and told me to be quite while she fucked my ass like a good little slut so I didn’t wake the kids (omgggggggg).

It was at that moment I started to break down. I didn’t just want her to stop. I needed her to stop. My Lady had never done anything this intense with me while the kids were in the house. I couldn’t stay quiet. I physically could not. Yet My Lady was forcing me to. I needed to scream. I needed to cry out in tortured agony. But I couldn’t I wasn’t allowed. So instead, I simply broke down and began to cry into her hand.

My Lady did it. She broke me. But did she stop? Oh no. She wasn’t finished with me yet.

ML pushed the dildo further into my ass; instead of screaming in pain I simply flopped down on the table like a rag doll. She pushed in as far as she could, thrusting deeper into me as I let out what would be best described as a long deep groan. I’ve never made that sound before. Then again, I’d never had a huge dildo pushing so far into my asshole I could feel it all the way up to my hips inside. My Lady held in in place deep inside me. My whole body shuddered as I struggled to keep my screams in my chest. I felt precum pouring out of my cock as I was harshly milked, I honestly didn’t care. All I cared about was surviving being impaled by the bronze monster My Lady was assaulting me with.

Just as I was contemplating whether I should safeword or not, My Lady pulled the dildo out of my ass. She untied me from the table, but I couldn’t get up. I laid on the table, as limp as a ragdoll. When I was able to lift my head, I saw ML motioning me to lay on the floor, face up. I slowly moved over to where she wanted me. She stood over me and removed her soaked-through panties. Facing my feet, she squatted over my face and shoved her dripping wet pussy into my face. For the next ten minutes, My Lady alternated between rubbing her pussy all over my face and pushing her asshole down onto my tongue. I fucked her ass with my tongue as a good sub should, and I sucked on her clit when she moved it within my reach. After she rode my face to two orgasms, she laid back on the couch and waved me over again. “You have a mess to clean up,” My Lady said. I crawled over and licked her pussy to a massive orgasm that seemed to last about 5 minutes. Even after all of the pain I was put through, I smiled proudly at my ability to make My Lady cum so hard with my mouth.

After we took time for our aftercare (always important after a scene like this!!!), My Lady sent me off to work with a sore throbbing asshole. And the weird thing is that I was horny all fucking night long. I still am, about 12 hours after everything happened. I think this the worst horny I’ve ever felt!

So the HUGE piece of news I teased in my last post was already spoiled by ML in her last post, unbeknownst to me: My Lady has decided to keep me in the Jailbird 24/7 until the May 4th. No removing the cage. Not even a cursory release for my poor cock. I will be locked up for the next 26 days straight.

624 hours.

37,440 minutes.

2,246,400 second.

Not like I’m counting or anything.

My Lady and I have talked about trying this for quite some time. When we were discussing it, it really turned me on. How would I respond to not having an erection for an entire month? How will I feel after it’s been so long since I’ve seen my cock get hard? How will it feel when my cock is finally free of the steel and can swell to its full size?

Now that it’s happening, it’s a little bit overwhelming. Although ML has caved in the past and given me mercy during some of these “extended” times or denial or lockup, I have a feeling she’s not going to crack so easily this time. She’s very curious about the reactions she can coax out of me. If I start getting desperate, she may just grow to love it. Who knows? Maybe I won’t even be getting out until my next Maybe Day in June? No clue. No control over it.

Right now, I’m a little stunned. I know for a fact I’m really going to miss my hardon. I like it when my cock gets hard. It feels nice. I’ve come to enjoy the feeling of my cock pressing against the steel cage, but it doesn’t compare to the feeling of my cock getting nice and thick and big when I’m turned on. The longest we’ve ever done a 24/7 lockup stint is ten days I think, and I started to get a little antsy near the end of that time. I went into what ML likes to call “bargaining mode,” which is when I start to try to make a deal with her in order to get just the tiniest need filled. For example, near the end of that ten day period, I was literally begging ML to give me a ruined orgasm, just so she’d let me out and touch me. Again: I begged My Lady to give me an utterly frustrating ruined orgasm just because I needed to get hard and be touched. This was after ten days. I wonder what My Lady will have me doing by the end of this run.

My Lady had some errands to run this morning, so she decided to let me stay in bed while she took the kids to school and got her stuff done for a couple of hours. “How nice of her to let me sleep,” you say? Notice, I didn’t say she let me sleep.

Technically, she made me stay in bed by cuffing my wrists to the bed. Then, she used her new favorite toy – the bondage rope – to fix the wand so it would rest right on my cage. She wrapped the rope around my legs so I couldn’t move them apart, to make sure I couldn’t move the wand from where it was. It would stay there until she got back from her errands. She hit the switch and turned on the wand to about medium vibration setting and left me there, blowing me a kiss on the way out.

Dear God, it was such an intense feeling! I was almost immediately moaning and squirming around on the bed, or at least as much as I could squirm around. The wand was vibrating my balls as well as rattling the cage around my captive cock, constantly teasing me without mercy. Although my cock was nearly crying for relief after about a half hour, I will admit the vibrations were somewhat relaxing. I must have dozed off once or twice (and had some extremely odd dreams about walking around in public with ML with the wand tied on me… very strange… lol), because I woke up with a start when My Lady texted me to see how things were going. I was about to text her back to say that I was surviving the treatment, but when I reached over to get my phone something… happened.

I don’t know if the wand shifted ever so slightly when I moved, but all of a sudden my cock started twitching and the wand was really starting to have an effect on me. It felt like at any moment, the wand might just make me cum in the cage! So I texted ML about it, telling her that I wasn’t sure but the wand might end up making me cum. Her response?

“Really? Cool! I wonder what it will feel like after, if you do… hehe”

What??? Oh God, I hadn’t even thought of that! Is the wand going to give me post orgasm torture? Will I be able to handle it? What am I supposed to do?

I tried to fight it. I held off as long as I could. But I couldn’t stop it. The wand kept pushing me and pushing me. And finally, I felt it. I was cumming! I could feel my cock twitching and pulsing in the cage, pushing against the wand. I dribbled a little bit of cum over my balls, but because I was still confined to the cage I couldn’t get a nice good cum. It was very much like a ruined orgasm – yes, I got there, but I was by no means satisfied. After my cock finished its spasms, the wand kept up it’s vibrating assault on me. Luckily, I think the “ruinedness” of the orgasm helped me avoid the post orgasm torture I was dreading. I was a little sensitive, but it was by no means as bad as I have heard about. After I was able to calm down a little bit, I was actually able to get back to sleep for a little while until ML got back home.

As for now, I feel as if a little bit of the edge has been taken off due to my ruined o, but DEFINITELY not enough. I’m still horny as fuck, as sexually frustrated as I’ve ever been (perhaps even more so), and still desperate to cum. So not much has changed!

My Lady also dropped a HUGE piece of news on my after I woke up today. But that’s something that’s big enough for an entire post on its own!

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As my current denial period has been going on and on (and on and on and on…), I’ve noticed that both my cock and my balls have gotten SUPER sensitive. When My Lady has unlocked me I’m usually moaning at the very first touch of her hands. My sensitivity doesn’t apply to my unlocked periods alone; my cock is almost more sensitive when it is locked in its cage, it seems. ML has taken advantage of this frequently over the past week or so, rubbing the head of my cock through the bars of the Jailbird, or even snaking her tongue inside to tease my flesh with her warm wet tongue. Being teased by ML is one thing, but the thing that has been driving me a little bit crazy lately is how everyday mundane tasks end up teasing me in some weird way.

My balls have felt extremely full over the past few days. I don’t know if it’s because My Lady has been teasing me more and I’m getting a little backed up with pre-cum, or perhaps it’s simply that I NEED TO FUCKING CUM FOR GOD SAKES. I’m so sensitive that certain pairs of pants have made it difficult to sit down without giving me the sensation of having my balls gently squeezed. It’s a little hard to concentrate on work when I’m sitting at my desk and I can feel my balls throbbing to my heartbeat.

So far, the worst of all has been the shower. It’s bad enough when My Lady and I share a shower; having her soaked & sexy naked body so close to mine, performing the task of soaping and rinsing her soft skin, kneeling before her in the shower to wash her legs and feet… it’s all VERY arousing. But even when I’m alone in the shower, I can’t escape the torture of a cock teasing. The spray from the water seems to tickle every sensitive spot on my cock, and it’s usually no more than two minutes into my shower before I’m softly moaning. And when it’s time to wash the cage, and I need to massage my balls and soap up my shaft through the cage, my knees immediately get wobbly. It’s almost too much to handle!

I still have at least 2 more months before I get to cum, and I can imagine my sensitivity issues are only going to get worse from here on out. Two months… that’s a helluva lot of showers from now until then.

It’s amazing the effect that chastity has had on me in a little over four months of time. I’ve undergone some very interesting changes, both mentally and physically. Some are both obvious and expected (I’m horny all the time, DUHHH), but others are somewhat surprising. And I know I’m not the only one experiencing these changes, because I get emails from some of you guys out there asking me about the same things. 🙂

One reader asks:

“I’ve noticed that immediately after taking the cage off, I’m as hard as a rock but I have trouble maintaining a strong erection. I don’t lose it all together, but it’s definitely not as intense. I’ve never had this problem before trying chastity. Have you experienced anything similar?”

Don’t do what I did and start panicking and figuring out how to pay for your Cialis perscriptions; this is a pretty common issue.  The first few times My Lady unlocked me after I was already getting hard, we had to wait until I got soft to remove the base ring. After the ring removal, it took a while to regain my erection. I think this happens because it takes a little bit of reset time to go from “SO FUCKING HARD I COULD FUCK A HOLE THROUGH A BRICK WALL” to “totally soft and chillin'” and back to hard again. Now, ML will either remove the cage when I’m still somewhat soft or will just leave the ring on if I’m already aroused. Problem solved.

Another reader has a question for the mail bag, or perhaps mail “sack” is more fitting:

“The skin around my balls looks really loose and hangs kinda weird now. It sort of dangles a bit.”

Ah, yes. This has happened to me, too. My scrotum seems as if it has been stretched out since I started wearing a chastity device. I even have what looks like a little tab that hangs down between both of my nuts. I’m assuming this is from my ballskin being stretched out when my cock tries to get hard and pushes the cage forward from my body and the balls stop it from advancing any further. When my erection is strong enough, it pulls on the skin with a good amount of strength. This used to hurt me a ton, but I guess I’ve gotten used to it because it’s not that bad anymore. Solution? I have no idea. Even a perfectly fitted cock cage is going to be pushed forward by a hardening cock. And, honestly, I don’t think this even requires a solution. Yeah, your sack looks a little funky, but it looked funky to begin with, didn’t it?

Last one:

“When my wife takes the cage off, my cock is extremely sensitive all over, even in places that weren’t like that before. Is this ok?”

No. This is more than okay! This is GREAT! This is what it’s about, right? What’s most likely happening here is that your cock is responding to the constant pressure of the cage on your sensitive areas, resulting in a stronger reaction when that pressure changes. It’s like when you put your hand from ice cold water into room temperature water – it feels scalding hot, even though it’s far from it. You’re feeling these AMAZING sensations because they are so different from what you are used to. This is a good thing. Just make sure that the hypersensitivity is not due to any skin damage or irritation, and you are good to go.

Don’t be shy or embarassed, keep these email questions coming! (Bad choice of words, perhaps)

My Lady and I have been fighting off a very severe cold/flu for almost a week now, but things are finally starting to turn the corner towards healthy. Finally! Perfect timing, too, since ML’s cycle is just about finishing up as well. What does this mean? It means that we are back to being the crazy horny fucking perverts that we have come to be!

Tonight after I put the kids to bed upstairs, My Lady and I shared a wonderful shower together. She soaped up my back (yum!) and I dutifully soaped up her entire body (double yum!). It was nice to hold her close to me and kiss her under the warm water, especially with winter hanging out just a little too long around here. I even washed ML’s hair, giving her a nice shampoo and conditioner treatment. I couldn’t resist giving her hair a slight playful pull as I massaged the conditioner in; this led to her bending over just the tiniest bit, and shortly after I slid a finger inside her nicely cleaned asshole. She moaned as I softly thrusted in and out; ML sounds so sexy when she moans in the shower.  🙂

When we were out of the shower, her naked body was too much for me to resist. I began kissing her soft skin, moving my way down until I was on my knees in front of her. I began licking her clit and My Lady wasted no time in pushing me down on the floor and straddling my face, shoving her pussy down onto my mouth. I greedily licked her pussy, glad to finally be able to taste My Lady’s juices once again. She pulled my hands up to her tits, making me squeeze them as she came all over my face. Both of us were smiling as I picked myself up off of the floor; we’ve BOTH been missing this so badly!!!

Before I left for work, we once again took a moment to get a little frisky (kissing, rubbing My Lady’s clit, making her cum standing next to me as I held her close). Taking that moment started pushing me into “gonna be late” territory, so I asked ML if she would help get my dinner together. We both went to the kitchen; I went to the cupboard for snacks and she went to the fridge for the leftovers set aside for me. I turned around and saw her amazing, jaw-droppingly perfect, round, naked ass as she was bent over looking in the fridge. On instinct, I dropped to my knees behind her and shoved my tongue into her asshole.

Oh God, the sounds she made were just fucking OOOOOOH! She was breathing very heavy, and she pushed her ass back into my face, wanting more of my tongue. I stood up and saw her, grasping the door handle of the fridge, shuddering because she was so turned on. I couldn’t possibly just let it end there, could I? Of course not!

I pushed her down to bend her over just a little more, rubbed her beautiful ass with my hand, and gave her a nice hard spank on her right ass cheek. My Lady gasped and moaned, wriggling her ass back and forth. I spanked her again, and she moaned even louder. Then, My Lady started ordering me, “Spank me again, harder.” And I did, each time giving her a harder slap and she would moan even louder after each one. Then I slid a finger inside her pussy, spanking her ass as I thrusted deep inside her. Her legs began to tremble and her moans crept closer to becoming screams of pleasure/pain.

I could tell she was on the verge of another orgasm. I leaned over and whispered into her ear, “You know I’m going to spank you HARD right when you cum, right?” All My Lady could do was nod as her orgasm rushed towards her. I felt her body stiffen and her moans of impending orgasm began. At the moment I could feel her passion reach it’s highest point, I shoved my finger as deep as I could and gave her the hardest slap possible. My Lady arched her back and let out a loud, passionate moan; I could feel her pussy clenching hard on my finger. She came hard! It must have been triggered by the spank on her ass, but I could tell it was very intense. And DAMN was her ass so red when I was finished with her.  🙂

It was so nice to have this time with My Lady, finally after so much time away from her. The horny definitely has come back for both of us, and I’m sure ML is going to use me to satisfy herself as much as possible to make up for the week we missed. I, on the other hand, will be waiting a much longer time for my satisfaction….

The “no look/no touch” rules have been in effect for a week now, and I’m really starting to miss the fuck out of my cock. This morning before I went to sleep, My Lady wanted to feel my cock inside her. She cuffed me to the bed, had me close my eyes (for convienence), and climbed on top of my cock. God, her pussy felt so fucking good.

My Lady left me cuffed during her cock ride, driving me crazy holding and squeezing her tits and teasing me with them. She bounced and rocked on my cock, being careful not to get too carried away and accidentally drive me to orgasm. When it came time for ML to get hers, she sat down on my cock taking me fully inside her. She then rubbed her clit fast, reaching orgasm in a matter of seconds. She looked directly into my eyes as she came, her pussy clenching my cock tightly. I couldn’t help but moan loudly from the intensity of the physical sensations and the dominant eye contact she was making; my body lurched upward in an uncontrollable bodygasm.

When ML was finished using me for her pleasure, she covered me with the blanket so I could not see my cock, and left me cuffed to the bed so I couldn’t touch (or move the blanket). Giving me instructions not to “hump the mattress” (I may have had she told me not to!), she left me to find a way to get to sleep. I could feel my rock hard cock underneath the blankets, finally free of the cage yet I was unable to enjoy even the sight of it. It took quite a while for me to get to sleep. When ML came upstairs later to release me, I was soft enough for her to put the Revenge back on.

So it has officially been a full week since I have last seen my cock, or even had the opportunity to touch it. My Lady has hinted that she may bring an end to it this weekend and allow me to see and perhaps even touch my cock. I’m hoping that she chooses to have mercy on me with this. She has been able to enjoy the sight of my hard cock while I have had to go without. Just one more thing that she gets and I don’t.