There’s really nothing super special about today. Just a regular old Sunday, hanging around the house.
I’m crazy fucking horny.
This is just how my life is now – I’m perpetually in a state of horniness, wanting sex, and needing to cum. Even as I sit here writing this, I can feel my thighs putting pressure on my cock and making it worse. Just the act of sitting is making me sexually crazy.
It seems as though all of this time with extremely reduced orgasm frequency is starting to catch up to me. Even after so long, I’m not getting used to it – it’s actually building and becoming even greater. It’s like I have a certain baseline need for sexual pleasure inside me, and when I’m denied and fail to meet that baseline, it just keeps rolling over. Eventually, I’ll reach a point where no amount of orgasms will ever be able to truly satisfy me, because I’m so deep in the hole already.
Here’s the scary part: all of this is going through my mind at a time when playtime between ML and I has been patchy at best – we haven’t had a truly intense play session for a while. But just our base level of sexual connection is enough to leave me simmering on a lazy Sunday morning.
I’m truly fortunate that ML isn’t bothered by my now-permanent mindlock on sex. I can’t help myself from squeezing her boobs or grabbing her ass for no other reason that she happens to be within arms reach. Although, it is her fault, after all.
I think this is absolutely wonderful hehe! Your cock belongs to her, you rarely cum and you are normally locked up. You should be horny all the time longing for her!
I was wondering what your thoughts were on transmutation. Is it possible to take all of that horny rush and apply it to something not sexual? I love the horny feeling, but sometimes can feel either out of sync with my mistress, or I can feel like the horniness is over taking my focus. But then, I have a let down after sex, when the horniness washes away. Ideally, I could hold on to the horniness without letting it overtake me or feeling overly depleted when the chastity period ends.
You may be experiencing “subdrop” – ML wrote a post on domdrop, which is similar but for a dominant instead of submissive (https://monkeyinacage.com/when-the-other-shoe-drops-domdrop/).
It’s not such a bad thing to feel “overtaken” by horniness if that’s what you want. If you prepare for the subdrop ahead of time and communicate your feelings, I find it helps to prevent it from getting too severe.
I will read more about subgroup, for sure. We’ve been playing on and off for 20 years. I definitely love the horny feeling 3-7 days out, and totally hear you on that. It gives me mixed feelings to try to push through that feeling to longer term chastity, or start over so I can again feel the horny feelings 3-7 days out. I’ve also noticed the longer I go without an orgasm, the bigger the “drop” afterwards, and I don’t get back on track. But one side effect of the horniness is lack of focus, it it’s hard to keep going through a week long cycle of ups and downs.
Lately, I’ve been pretty undisciplined and unfocused in my personal life. There have been a few occasions in the the past we have played for longer stretches (up to 2 months without an orgasm). The really long stretches have been few, and sometimes it has coincided with the wife have a lower sex drive. Sometimes, when I’ve pushed more than 14 days out, I’ve noticed more of the nirvana of wanting to keep playing longer, rather than starting over. I’ve started to want that more lately. But I also want to be realistic, and since the start of the year, I’ve mostly decreased orgasms/MB on a month-to-month basis rather than be too pure. Still, I’d like to find a way of pushing through 2 weeks, so that I am not too unfocused, but responsive. I know this is common stuff for people who like denial.
“Sublimation” is a better word than I used.