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Lady M: I’m sure you’ve already read Cagedmonkey’s take on last night in the Part 1 post. Wow! Last night was something else! Cagedmonkey and I got the kids to bed and relaxed a little watching some How I Met Your Mother on Netflix. I just loved cuddling on the couch with his arm across my chest. It makes me feel so safe, so comfortable and so loved. <3

I'm not going to repeat everything he wrote so I'll jump to the part where I was straddling him on the couch. After teasing him so much all day long he was already gasping as I lifted a leg to sit on him. I started to circle my hips, rubbing my pussy over his caged cock and he was moaning and started those super hot whimpering sounds. It was absolutely driving me mad in the pit of my stomach and I could feel my pussy juices gushing out between my freshly shaved lips. I was feeling it so deep that I couldn't help myself and I stood up on the couch and started fucking his face right into the back of the couch. I pushed my hips forward hard over and over smashing his nose into my clit forcing my juices into his mouth as I came so fucking hard. Hearing him moan, whimper and even sobbing with his face buried in my pussy was overwhelmingly arousing. I completely loved feeling and hearing him get to his breaking point. Knowing he was there only fueled my desire to fuck his face more and I kept going, kept pushing him past his breaking point.

What an incredible feeling! Though even with my euphoric feelings I could see that my poor cagedmonkey was really in distress. I had to do the right thing. I had to ask if he needed his safeword. I assured him I would not be disappointed if he used it. I assured him that I would respect his decision, he needs to feel safe and know he can trust me. The guy has not only been denied orgasm for almost 3 months but daily he has had to deal with my relentless teasing and sometimes very very very intense teasing. I've discovered recently that I am a very intense person to handle, I'm aggressive and I do not have a "light" version when it comes to cagedmonkey. I'm lucky to have a man who is able to handle such an aggressive cock tease. He did choose not to use his safeword and I did have a feeling of pride for him because he wasn't in danger or anything like that. Just emotionally crushed.

Once he was able to calm down, I held him for a bit, comforting him with his head on my chest (something else that turns me on!). Just rubbing his head, telling him I loved him, that he could do this, and that he was so strong etc. As I talked to him he began to sob more as he shoved his face into my chest trying to hide the fact that I had tortured him to tears. I just let him know he was safe and it was ok to let it out. I love him so incredibly much and he needs to know he is loved, cared for and respected.

I'm not sure if it was him feeling that love and feeling cared for but he suddenly pushed made back on to the couch and dove into my pussy. He was rubbing his face in it, licking, sucking, moaning, whimpering, gasping for air and good Lord turning me on even more. I just had to have more orgasms. I just had to feel it again… but this time, I don't know, I was extremely turned on by his emotional state that I had one of the most powerful orgasms I've ever had. I bucked my hips toward the ceiling, my entire body was shaking, my thighs squeezed tightly around his head and I exploded a big gush of gooey cum from my pussy.

It was a fucking incredible orgasm! I literally couldn't walk straight after. I was stumbling and couldn't focus, it was a drunk feeling. I could barely speak even. Just an intense, intense orgasm. 😀

I thoroughly love having my husband in chastity & being in control of his orgasms because our sex life is no longer focused on him getting off. It's no longer focused on the vaginal sex. Our sex life has evolved into a much greater physical and emotional thing. An all over mind and body experience!

Something I wish I could explain well enough or even compare to something so others could get even a small idea of what this feels like.

cagedmonkey: So…….. can I cum yet? 🙂

Lady: Uhhh, no love, it’s just not time for that. Especially when you’re at work.

cm: Of course. Why do I even ask? lol

Lady: Hoping one time I’ll actually say yes? 😉

cm: I guess so, although I have a hard time believing you will say yes. There have been times recently where you were so horny I thought you might cave in, but you didn’t. If you didn’t give in during those times, I doubt you’ll ever give in to me early.

Lady You’re right, I’ve become much stronger than in the beginning. At first I was still in the “need to please him” phase even if I didn’t think I was. Deep down I didn’t want to frustrate you, upset you, etc. It just caused me to be weak to your pleas.

cm: Now it seems like it’s the exact opposite – the more I beg and plead, the more you enjoy it and the harder you push me!

Lady It must be bittersweet that I’ve become so strong, huh?

cm: Honestly, I couldn’t be happier. I know that I can be honest with you about how I feel (sooooo frustrated!!!) and what I want (to cum sooooo bad!!!!), and not worry about influencing you or topping from the bottom. You truly are in full control, and I’m very lucky to serve a dominant with such a strong sense of what she wants.

Lady You are a lucky boy! Hehe 🙂 It wasn’t hard after awhile to embrace the frustration and let it entertain me. Once I was able to almost laugh at your situation, I began to really get enjoyment out of your frustration. I started enjoying the control of making you so incredibly horny for me. I just love getting you to that point where you HAVE to touch me just to feel my skin… because you’re THAT horny.

cm: And I definitely am that horny! Speaking of which…… can I cum now?

Lady No :)~

cm: Damn…..

Ok, let me back up a bit.

During our vacation and since then as well, My Lady has kept me unlocked almost as often as she has kept me locked. Perhaps it’s even more tilted towards unlocked, but I haven’t been keeping much track. I’m too busy being teased insane by a hellaciously horny woman nearly every moment of the day.

ML has kept me unlocked so she can tease me whenever she wants and use her “favorite toy” whenever the mood strikes her. And she has been very active in both of those activities. Whether it’s sneaking a quick edge or two when the kids aren’t around or giving me a long teasing blowjob, she is certainly getting her fill of my cock. She has also been getting a good dose of sex, either taking charge and climbing on top of me or having me do all the work.

I’ll tell you this – it has not been easy to remain a “good boy” and refrain from cumming while fucking ML. In fact, I doubt you can classify what I end up doing as “fucking.” I’m often on the very edge of orgasm after just a few strokes into her tight wet pussy. At this point, I have no choice but to hold still as I struggle for control. After I drag myself back from the brink, I can usually manage only a few more thrusts before I’m right back to the edge again. And if ML wants some good hard thrusts, I pretty much have no choice but to give her a few good deep strokes before I have to jump up off of her before my cock explodes inside her.

My Lady assures me that this is not a problem for her, that she expects is after teasing and denying me for so long and that she is the one who is creating the situation. If it truly was a problem for her, she would just let me cum. She makes a good point, but I still want to be able to satisfy her penetration needs. This is why I was so happy that the RodeOh harness worked so well.

Earlier today I found an accidental solution to the problem, albeit not a permanent one. The kids went outside into the backyard to play, which left ML and me with some alone time. My cock got hard pretty quick as ML jumped on top of me and straddled me on the couch. It wasn’t long before I was hard as a rock and sliding into her warm pussy.

So, My Lady was riding my cock, and I could feel the edge approaching quickly. Then, out of the corner of my eye, I noticed that the TV was on. Right then, a light bulb went off in my head. A DISTRACTION! THAT’S WHAT I NEED!

So while ML is bouncing her pussy on my cock, her beautiful tits hanging right above my face, I start listening to Stephen A. Smith argue with Skip Bayless about the NFL draft. I’m listening and really thinking about what he’s saying. My Lady’s sexiness is still there, right in front of my face (and right on top of my cock), so it takes a real effort to pay attention.

And then I realize it’s working.

The urge to cum is fading slowly, and ML is still riding me hard. I was able to hold back, even when ML’s orgasm started to hit her. Usually, feeling her pussy squeeze my cock when she cums will be too much for me to handle, but this time I had no problems as she rode me through her orgasm. It was great to finally NOT have to tell her to be careful or to slow down. It was great to feel her cum on my cock without having to resort to her rubbing her clit while I stayed motionless inside her.

As successful as this was, I cannot resort to watching ESPN every time ML an I have sex. We’ve discussed the idea of desensitizing spray, and the RodeOh is also an option. I just don’t understand how guys out there can deal with this problem. I read on blogs here and there about how guys who have been denied even longer than I have can have sex with their KH, and they don’t mention anything about this type of issue. Is this just something guys don’t normally feel comfortable talking about, or is it just me that has this problem?

A few nights ago, My Lady and I were laying on the couch together, and things started to get sexual… as they very often do nowadays. 🙂 We began kissing and touching each other; things started to get really hot, really quick. I rolled over on top of ML and began thrusting my hips towards her as I kissed her deeply. All of a sudden, both of us felt it at the same time: we flipped the “power switch.” All of a sudden, I felt very dominant and powerful over ML.

When I get dominant, I tend to talk dirty a lot. I rubbed up on her, and I started asking her if she wanted to get fucked. If she missed taking my hard cock deep inside her slutty wet pussy. ML was getting turned on, too, pushing back up against me as I pushed my hips down against her. I pounded my hips down on her, doing everything I would be doing if I was fucking her pussy as hard as I could… except for the fact that my cock was still locked in its steel cage, of course.

Afterwards, I started to get a little down. All of the simulating of the dominant, forceful sex kinda made me miss it a bit. I realized that I really do miss my cock. I miss being able to fuck My Lady hard and deep. I miss the way ML’s warm pussy feels when it’s squeezing my cock. I miss being able to fuck ML more than three thrusts at a time. Hell, right now I just miss my cock getting hard!!!

I didn’t expect these feelings to show up so strong and so soon into the 24/7 month. I’ve gone 24/7 longer than this, but not with the pretense that I would be waiting an entire month for my next full erection. It’s really getting to me this time around. I’m not really having second thoughts about all of this – chastity is still the most amazing thing that has happened to our sex life, and I wouldn’t change it a bit. But still, I can’t deny that right now a decent part of me truly feels like a prisoner locked away against his will. This is when chastity truly becomes “enforced chastity.”

So the HUGE piece of news I teased in my last post was already spoiled by ML in her last post, unbeknownst to me: My Lady has decided to keep me in the Jailbird 24/7 until the May 4th. No removing the cage. Not even a cursory release for my poor cock. I will be locked up for the next 26 days straight.

624 hours.

37,440 minutes.

2,246,400 second.

Not like I’m counting or anything.

My Lady and I have talked about trying this for quite some time. When we were discussing it, it really turned me on. How would I respond to not having an erection for an entire month? How will I feel after it’s been so long since I’ve seen my cock get hard? How will it feel when my cock is finally free of the steel and can swell to its full size?

Now that it’s happening, it’s a little bit overwhelming. Although ML has caved in the past and given me mercy during some of these “extended” times or denial or lockup, I have a feeling she’s not going to crack so easily this time. She’s very curious about the reactions she can coax out of me. If I start getting desperate, she may just grow to love it. Who knows? Maybe I won’t even be getting out until my next Maybe Day in June? No clue. No control over it.

Right now, I’m a little stunned. I know for a fact I’m really going to miss my hardon. I like it when my cock gets hard. It feels nice. I’ve come to enjoy the feeling of my cock pressing against the steel cage, but it doesn’t compare to the feeling of my cock getting nice and thick and big when I’m turned on. The longest we’ve ever done a 24/7 lockup stint is ten days I think, and I started to get a little antsy near the end of that time. I went into what ML likes to call “bargaining mode,” which is when I start to try to make a deal with her in order to get just the tiniest need filled. For example, near the end of that ten day period, I was literally begging ML to give me a ruined orgasm, just so she’d let me out and touch me. Again: I begged My Lady to give me an utterly frustrating ruined orgasm just because I needed to get hard and be touched. This was after ten days. I wonder what My Lady will have me doing by the end of this run.

My Lady had some errands to run this morning, so she decided to let me stay in bed while she took the kids to school and got her stuff done for a couple of hours. “How nice of her to let me sleep,” you say? Notice, I didn’t say she let me sleep.

Technically, she made me stay in bed by cuffing my wrists to the bed. Then, she used her new favorite toy – the bondage rope – to fix the wand so it would rest right on my cage. She wrapped the rope around my legs so I couldn’t move them apart, to make sure I couldn’t move the wand from where it was. It would stay there until she got back from her errands. She hit the switch and turned on the wand to about medium vibration setting and left me there, blowing me a kiss on the way out.

Dear God, it was such an intense feeling! I was almost immediately moaning and squirming around on the bed, or at least as much as I could squirm around. The wand was vibrating my balls as well as rattling the cage around my captive cock, constantly teasing me without mercy. Although my cock was nearly crying for relief after about a half hour, I will admit the vibrations were somewhat relaxing. I must have dozed off once or twice (and had some extremely odd dreams about walking around in public with ML with the wand tied on me… very strange… lol), because I woke up with a start when My Lady texted me to see how things were going. I was about to text her back to say that I was surviving the treatment, but when I reached over to get my phone something… happened.

I don’t know if the wand shifted ever so slightly when I moved, but all of a sudden my cock started twitching and the wand was really starting to have an effect on me. It felt like at any moment, the wand might just make me cum in the cage! So I texted ML about it, telling her that I wasn’t sure but the wand might end up making me cum. Her response?

“Really? Cool! I wonder what it will feel like after, if you do… hehe”

What??? Oh God, I hadn’t even thought of that! Is the wand going to give me post orgasm torture? Will I be able to handle it? What am I supposed to do?

I tried to fight it. I held off as long as I could. But I couldn’t stop it. The wand kept pushing me and pushing me. And finally, I felt it. I was cumming! I could feel my cock twitching and pulsing in the cage, pushing against the wand. I dribbled a little bit of cum over my balls, but because I was still confined to the cage I couldn’t get a nice good cum. It was very much like a ruined orgasm – yes, I got there, but I was by no means satisfied. After my cock finished its spasms, the wand kept up it’s vibrating assault on me. Luckily, I think the “ruinedness” of the orgasm helped me avoid the post orgasm torture I was dreading. I was a little sensitive, but it was by no means as bad as I have heard about. After I was able to calm down a little bit, I was actually able to get back to sleep for a little while until ML got back home.

As for now, I feel as if a little bit of the edge has been taken off due to my ruined o, but DEFINITELY not enough. I’m still horny as fuck, as sexually frustrated as I’ve ever been (perhaps even more so), and still desperate to cum. So not much has changed!

My Lady also dropped a HUGE piece of news on my after I woke up today. But that’s something that’s big enough for an entire post on its own!

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As my current denial period has been going on and on (and on and on and on…), I’ve noticed that both my cock and my balls have gotten SUPER sensitive. When My Lady has unlocked me I’m usually moaning at the very first touch of her hands. My sensitivity doesn’t apply to my unlocked periods alone; my cock is almost more sensitive when it is locked in its cage, it seems. ML has taken advantage of this frequently over the past week or so, rubbing the head of my cock through the bars of the Jailbird, or even snaking her tongue inside to tease my flesh with her warm wet tongue. Being teased by ML is one thing, but the thing that has been driving me a little bit crazy lately is how everyday mundane tasks end up teasing me in some weird way.

My balls have felt extremely full over the past few days. I don’t know if it’s because My Lady has been teasing me more and I’m getting a little backed up with pre-cum, or perhaps it’s simply that I NEED TO FUCKING CUM FOR GOD SAKES. I’m so sensitive that certain pairs of pants have made it difficult to sit down without giving me the sensation of having my balls gently squeezed. It’s a little hard to concentrate on work when I’m sitting at my desk and I can feel my balls throbbing to my heartbeat.

So far, the worst of all has been the shower. It’s bad enough when My Lady and I share a shower; having her soaked & sexy naked body so close to mine, performing the task of soaping and rinsing her soft skin, kneeling before her in the shower to wash her legs and feet… it’s all VERY arousing. But even when I’m alone in the shower, I can’t escape the torture of a cock teasing. The spray from the water seems to tickle every sensitive spot on my cock, and it’s usually no more than two minutes into my shower before I’m softly moaning. And when it’s time to wash the cage, and I need to massage my balls and soap up my shaft through the cage, my knees immediately get wobbly. It’s almost too much to handle!

I still have at least 2 more months before I get to cum, and I can imagine my sensitivity issues are only going to get worse from here on out. Two months… that’s a helluva lot of showers from now until then.

My Lady is getting used to taking charge during the new “no look/no touch” rules she has come up with. She showed her skill last night with a devious little tease that left me wanting to cum so bad!

I was a little overdue for some shaving maintenance, so after the kids went to bed, My Lady went about shaving me. She has gotten much better at shaving me with the cage on, which works well during this new game we are currently playing. After I my balls were nice and smooth, it was time to clean off.

My Lady led me to the bathroom, where she had drawn me a nice warm bath. After I stepped in the tub, she used cuffs and one of my belts to restrain my hands to  the shower rung. Then she put her newest toy on me – a spandex blindfold hood. Unable to reach down or even see, I was ready for my bath. She removed my cage and had me sit down in the bath.

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It was a wonderful feeling, both being free of the cage and having the warm water surround my cock. I could feel my hard cock bobbing against the waves. It was a slight tease in and of itself, giving me sensation but no friction. Of course, I needed more, but I wasn’t going to complain.

My Lady then began to bathe me, giving me a literal sponge bath as I sat there. She used the loofa sponge to wet down my chest and back, soaping me up and rinsing me off. Her hands felt so wonderful on me, cleaning and caressing my body. It was relaxing to feel so cared for. This is the best part of being kept: the care that your keeper gives you.

Then the bath turned from relaxation to utter frustration. She kept moving down my body with the sponge, across my stomach until her hands brushed against the tip of my cock. I moaned loudly, and I heard ML giggle in response. She continued toying and teasing with my cock as I struggled to keep my hips still and avoid splashing water all over the bathroom floor. Soon, ML was stroking my cock under the water. My moans echoed off the walls as she drove me closer and closer to cumming. She slowed her pace just short of pushing me over, bringing me back from the edge and pushing me back up once again time after time. There was a moment where, as she got DANGEROUSLY close to making me cum, I was afraid she may give me a ruined orgasm. But she let go of my cock just in time, the waves in the tub acting as her freelance cock teasing agents, holding me on the edge but not giving me enough pleasure to cum.

It is difficult to explain the spectrum of emotions I felt during this. I was excited that My Lady was playing with my cock, grateful for the attention I was getting. But I was also very vulnerable in that position; once it was clear that I had no way of stopping or resisting the teasing ML was giving me, I had no choice but to submit to her. I could only take what she was giving me and wait for the sexual torture to end.

Once ML was finished bathing and teasing me I heard exit the bathroom, leaving me in the tub waiting for my erection to subside. Apparently, my cock had other ideas, as it refused to get soft even when the water began to chill a bit. I heard ML come back in twice to check on me; both times she was not satisfied with how my cock was still hard. Finally – after doing a handful of math equations in my head – my cock started to soften. ML let the water out of the tub and put the Revenge back, caging my teased and desperate cock once again. Only after my cock was safely locked away did she uncuff me and remove the hood.

I’ll admit, I didn’t think this would happen so fast… but I really do miss seeing my cock. Before this, I’ve always been able to watch ML tease my cock; being denied the sight of it seems to make the experience even more intense. I know she has more ways on how to drive me crazy with this idea; she has already told me this morning that she may need to unlock me again later tonight to satisfy some of her needs. Stay tuned….

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This morning, My Lady came upstairs to tuck me into bed, and soon things took a turn for the frisky. I could feel her dominant streak starting to grow. It wasn’t long before she was telling me the things she was going to do to me, the ways she was going to use me.

It was time for her to go out and run some errands, and leave me at home to sleep. But she decided to make things just a little more difficult for me – we have a vibrating butt plug that has works on a number of different speeds and patterns with the push of a button. She got the plug from our toybox in the closet and began to rub it up and down her pussy lips. Then, using only her pussy juices as lube (OMG fucking hot!), she slid the plug into my ass and turned on the vibration.

Immediately I began moaning and squirming on the bed. She told me to keep my phone handy because she’d be texting me during the morning when she wanted me press the button to change the pattern. And off she went, leaving me with a vibrating ass, unable to lie still.
 
I laid in my bed over the next couple of hours, softly moaning as the plug vibrated my ass, ML texting me every so often to change the pattern. Every once in a while, my entire body would jerk and spasm in response to the unyielding vibration. I began to feel a building pressure in my balls, a pressure I had felt before. It felt like…
 
It felt like I needed to pee.
 
I get this feeling usually when ML is toying with my ass, but the strongest I’ve ever felt this sensation was when My Lady milked me for the first time. Was this what was happening to me? Or was I about to piss all over the bed? I had no idea! I frantically texted ML, begging for permission to turn the plug off, because I was unsure what might happen next due to the sensations I was having.
 
Her text message response:
Nah, little slutty boys who like their asses played with get to sleep in their own mess 😉
 
I then asked if I could at least put a towel down, but she refused. She told me to just let it happen, if I ended up peeing the bed it wouldn’t hurt or kill me. Then she told me she would be in a store for the next twenty minutes and not to bother her until she texted me back.
 
I tried like hell to hold it in, but the vibrations would not let up. I felt the pressure building and building inside me, until it was nearly unbearable. I was feeling as if I was about ready to burst, causing me to moan out loud once again. Then I heard My Lady’s words in my head… let it happen
 
So I did. I lifted my hips from the mattress, my ass in the air, and tried my hardest to relax my muscles.
 
Two seconds later, I heard the sound of something dripping on the sheet.
 
I looked down between my legs, and clear liquid was literally POURING out of my cock from inside the cage. “Oh God, please no,” I moaned. Still dripping, I reached down, afraid to smell urine on my hand, but I didn’t. The fluid was clear and had no scent to it. Thankfully, it wasn’t pee. The vibrating butt plug milked me, and VERY effectively at that!
 
After a few more seconds and I was fully drained, I reached down once again to survey the damage. Holy fuck… there was a 4-5 in wide puddle on the mattress, completely soaked through! My balls must have been completely emptied, without any orgasmic feelings for me. It was equal parts humiliating and exciting. I always liked the idea of being milked by ML, my cum being drained from my body without giving me pleasure. It involves such a deep level of control that she can extract my cum yet still control my orgasm. But this was something else; ML somehow managed to milk me without even being in the house! What the fuck?!?!?!?
 
I sent ML about six frantic texts about how I think I accidentally milked myself, that the bed was a soaked mess, what should I do, but she didn’t respond. So I put my phone down on the nightstand… now what? Once again, I heard the words of My Lady in my head… slutty boys who like their asses played with get to sleep in their own mess…. I knew what i had to do.
 
The puddle was cold and slightly sticky by the time I laid back down. God, how embarassing, sleeping in a puddle of my own cum that I didn’t even get an orgasm with. It was once again difficult to lie still, this time because my cock was SCREAMING for attention. I really wanted/NEEDED to hump the mattress and cum, but couldn’t obviously because of the cage. I eventually did end up falling asleep, only waking up when ML came into the bedroom when she returned home. After checking out the sheets for herself, she hugged me and told me how amazing it was that I listened to her and just “let it happen.”
 
And you know what? It felt good for her to say that. It was not easy to allow that to happen to me, but I trusted her and went along with it. I put myself through some pretty embarassing and uncomfortable stuff, simply because she demanded it. It felt great to be controlled like that. But the best part was that I could tell she appreciated the fact that I followed through on her desires. That is the essence of submission, I think – allowing yourself to be controlled by your dominant, and experiencing the appreciation that s/he has for your submission.
 
Now, of course, I can’t wait until ML milks me again in person. I want to hear her talk dirty to me while she does it, call me a dirty boy for making a mess. I want to hear her reaction when my cum starts pouring out. I think she will really enjoy it, and that humiliation/excitement feeling will go off the charts for me!

I’m currently well into my third week of orgasm denial, and My Lady is really starting to hit her stride. The more desperate and needy I get, the more she enjoys teasing me. And the more she teases me, the more desperate and needy I get. And the more desperate and needy I get…

ML gave me a thorough teasing last night, testing the strength of the Revenge in the process (stay tuned for a device review, coming soon!). She cuffed my hands to the bed, which she said made her start getting wetter almost instantly. She really does love to restrain me! It gives her the opportunity to completely control me as she drives me crazy with need. With my hands secured, she began to tease me with her perfect tits, pulling in close to me but keeping her cleavage just out reach of my tongue. I could smell her scent and it drove me wild. She rubbed her nipples over my lips, making it clear I was NOT allowed to lick or suck them. She even stuck her nipples into my mouth, making me moan and wish she would let me suck on them.

She got off of me and reached into our “toybox” to get the nipple clamps. She put them on my nipples, and I had to breathe to fight past the initial sharp pain. When she tugged on the chain lightly, I could feel the surges of pain translating into pulses of an attempted erection in my cock. I was already throbbing in my cage, and ML wasn’t even near finished with me.

She took her magic wand – which is ALWAYS plugged in now, by the way – placed it under my balls, and turned it on. My body jumped and lurched as the vibrations shook me to the core. I couldn’t help but move my hips in small fucking motions, my body desperately searching for some sort of orgasm after being denied for so long. The vibrating continued as ML climbed on top of me to put those hip motions to good use.

My Lady took the cage inside her and began fucking her pussy with it. I couldn’t believe it – I couldn’t feel a thing! I had to ask her if I was inside! The steel tube of the Revenge cut off all sensation and contact with my cock. It was so unfair to watch ML take her orgasm after all of the ones she’s been having lately, while I was denied even the pleasure of feeling her warm wet pussy on my cock. I whimpered and began to pull my hands up, wanting to touch her, squeeze her tits, hold her close to me, get ANY sensation I could to fill the void that the Revenge created.

When My Lady came while riding me, my body tried as hard as it could to join her. Obviously, without any sensation on my cock the efforts were futile, but my muscles still tensed up and my hips lurched upwards as if the rest of my body didn’t care. My body needs to cum so badly that it is trying to do so on it’s own now, apparently. 🙂

After her orgasm, My Lady climbed off of me and began to massage my entire body, focusing on my legs and feet. Her fingers pressed deep on my muscles, and my body responded with more of the tense squeezing as before. I would have curled up into a ball if I wasn’t spread out and cuffed to the bed. Instead, my arms tugged against the restraints as the rest of my body trembled and shook uncontrollably.

Finally, ML removed the wand from under my balls. I breathed a sigh of relief, but then I realized what she was doing. I moaned loudly as she laid back next to me, spread her legs wide (draping one over my stomach, even) and began rubbing her pussy with the wand. She moaned louder and louder as I heard the sounds of her wetness being vibrated by the wand. Then, she took the wand and pushed the vibrating head into her pussy! “Oh, fuck,” was all I could say as she fucked the wand, moving her hips up to meet it in mid-thrust. Then she began alternating between rubbing her pussy lips and clit with the wand, until she began to cum, loudly and intensely.

I’m not kidding, My Lady rode her orgasm for about two solid minutes before she slumped down and relaxed on the bed. The entire time she was struggling to hold back her screams of passion (barely succeeding), and I could see her thigh muscles pulsing and tensing up with each orgasmic jolt. I was equal parts happy for her and jealous, wanting a body-racking intense orgasm of my own to enjoy.

That feeling has been creeping up a lot lately – envy. I’m envious of My Lady for being able to cum at any and all times of the day, whenever she desires, and as intensely as she does as well. She gets more than her fill of it, while my body sits and waits for its chance. I hunger for my orgasm. My balls constantly feel swollen and sensitive, itching for the chance to drain themselves of weeks of backed up cum. These feelings force me to contemplate my denied state every minute of the day without one moment of reprieve. I don’t see how this feeling could get any more difficult for me to deal with than it is right now.

The reaction I had while tied up and teased has been more and more frequent – I call them “bodygasms,” although the more proper term is most likely “sympathetic orgasms.”  It’s really crazy, feeling my body behave like in that way and having no power to control or stop it. I can only assume that my brain and the rest of my body is tired of waiting and is making it’s own “body-gasms” and leaving my cock behind. I can’t blame them; I’d cum any way I could right now if it were plausible.