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It’s been weeks since my hubby has been locked in the Steelworxx Revenge. He hasn’t seen his penis and the only thing it’s felt is that steel around it. I find that pretty fantastic lately. This is literally the longest he’s ever been locked in the device without it being removed. Usually I’d be worried that it was getting stinky or might develop sores from the constant touching of the cage… But this time I just told him I don’t know when I’m unlocking him so he’d better keep care of it! 🙂

I’m really enjoying what being locked in the Revenge is doing to CM. He’s so overly horny and sexual and touchy. Usually that takes a good while of being in the Jail Bird but, it’s happened way faster this time around in the Revenge. I love how it feels like he wants me so bad he can hardly stand it. Like he’s aching for me and NEEDS to have me.

It’s not so much that need he even needs intercourse with me. He has said, “I just need to please you!” Which is very interesting. He just needs some kind of sexual connection and he’s not so much begging to get out and have sex but more just wanting to touch my body, kiss me and my body, feel my sexual bits. He wants to see and feel that I’m turned on. He very much loves being able to eat my pussy, to make me cum and to give me that level of pleasure.

Now, I’m not locked up and denied orgasm or even access to my intimate parts so I’m not feeling that overly crazy horny-all-the-time feeling. That’s not a bad thing at all it just means that “pleasing me,” like he so desperately wants to do, isn’t always about sex or getting me horny or anything. Sometimes it’s more of a turn on to feel him just rub his hands on my body, almost avoiding the intimate parts. Just touching and gently running his fingers over me as if to activate my nerves all over and give me lots of the good feels. This morning was a great example of that. Just as we were about to get up, I sat on the side of the bed and he slid behind me and just ran his hands all over my upper torso and kissed my neck… It felt wonderful. It wasn’t him trying to get me all horny so we could have sex… It was sensual. That sensual stuff has much more of an effect on me than anything. Don’t get me wrong, I love him coming up and grabbing my ass or cupping my huge boobs but, the sensual stuff is by far more effective.

Something I don’t want any of you to forget is that “pleasing” your partner isn’t about what you want or what you think they want. It is one hundred percent about what makes your partner feel good, about what turns THEM on. That may not necessarily even mean touching them. Maybe they love the sexual and sensual stuff but maybe they are “turned on” and made to feel good when you make dinner or bring them flowers or just do anything for them that fills that part of them and gives them those feelings of love and being thought of. I’ve found that the sexiest thing, and thing that pleases me the most, is when I know that my likes, wants and desires have been considered. I am pleased when I’m thought of and something is done because CM knows it’s what I would want and not what he wants me to want. 🙂

Cagedmonkey has been denied orgasm since the beginning of June. He’s extremely horny, super achy and pretty much always begging for an orgasm. He desperately wants some relief.

I did have this brilliant and devious plan to finally give him his long awaited orgasm. I wanted to make sure he experienced a really great intense orgasm. I wanted it to be memorable for him so that he really felt it, not only physically, but mentally. I kept thinking, what could I do to him to really create this moment that would really stick in his mind. I came up with something I was quite proud of. 🙂 haha

As you may have read, Cagedmonkey and I will often visit our local munch. We had planned to make sure that we would attend the December munches because they are always fun. The first one we collect toys for the Toys for Tots program and then the second munch is always the group’s Kinky Gift Exchange. It’s always a lot of fun this time of year. So my plan for this amazing orgasm involved the munch, so to speak. 🙂

I had come up with a fantastic way to integrate a little humiliation, if you will, into this final release. While hubby and I are definitely not into public humiliation, I thought adding some privately, public humiliation into this release would give him that intense, lasting memory I was hoping for. My plan was to have hubby drive to munch, unlocked, while I was playing with and stroking his cock the whole way. Then in the parking lot I was going to finally make him cum, right in his clothes, and then make him walk into munch and sit there, the whole time, covered in his long awaited orgasm. He’d have to sit there knowing it was all over inside his clothes, possibly leaking through his pants or shirt. Knowing that anyone could see at any moment. I also had no plans of letting him use the rest room… No way did I want him accidentally cleaning up his mess.

To add a little fun to the mix I would have, perhaps, mentioned it to a few close friends at munch that he was sitting in his 6+ month orgasm goo. Hehe 🙂

However, none of that was able to happen because hubby ended up having to work the evening of the munch and I went alone. He couldn’t come to munch and that meant he couldn’t cum. So, sorry that your orgasm got “ruined” my love!

I’m going to have to come up with some other intense and memorable way to make him cum now, does anyone have any ideas? Feel free to comment! 🙂

Last night was our “Christmas Munch” better known as the munch where we do a White Elephant style kinky gift exchange. The whole idea is for each person attending to bring a wrapped, perverted or pervertable, gift for the exchange. Each person who brings a gift then chooses a random number and gifts are chosen in number order. The person with number 1 goes up to choose a gift, they open it and show everyone else. Then it’s #2’s turn and they have the choice of taking the first person’s gift or choosing a completely new gift from the table. If they do choose to take the already open gift, the person they took it from, goes up and chooses a new gift. It goes on and on like that until the last person, who gets to choose from all of the already open gifts our the last gift on the table!

It’s a lot of fun to see what people come up with. There have been gifts from wax play sets, bondage tape, dildos, and floggers to wooden cutting boards, spatulas, and knives and even some fun, fantastic homemade implement items. It’s amazing to see what interesting things people come up with as gifts!

So last night we went through our dinner and the whole gift exchange and had a lot of fun seeing friends, laughing and just having a great time. Then it was time to come home and put the kids to bed. Needless to say, I couldn’t walk in with some kinky gift and try explaining that to the kids so I decided to put it in the back seat and I’d grab it later when they were asleep. Until I didn’t grab it later and forgot about it until my daughter and I got in the car to go grocery shopping today. Haha It’s always fun trying to come up with some way to cover up or ignore weird things the kids may see.

I had number 8 of like 18 or 19 gifts so being in the middle it was pretty likely someone was going to take a gift from me. Which they did. The first gift I’d chosen had a dildo, nipple clamps and some other fun toy in it. Who wouldn’t want something like that? After it was taken, I had to choose another gift so, I decided on the homemade extra-large wartenburg wheel – or at least that’s what I call it. It’s actually a smaller sized paint roller with tacks taped all around it. It feels similar to the wheel but on a much wider surface. It’s very interesting and seems like lots of fun.

It wasn’t so much fun trying to explain it away to my daughter in the car. We started to pull out of the driveway and we heard this clink… as the paint roller rolled across the seat and hit the car door. She looked back there to see what it was. When she turned back, she scrunched up her face at me like, “what is that thing?” I was like, “what?” And she’s shrugged and I thought “oh shit!” Then I just started laughing and told her I didn’t even want to get into it. I told her that I have crazy friends and it was someone odd prank gift at the Christmas gift exchange. I told her when she’s an adult and she’s got goofy friends she will completely understand! Haha it seemed to satisfy the question for the time being so we will just go with that.

Anyway, I can’t wait to see what Cagedmonkey thinks of my gift. He isn’t too fond of the wheel itself because it’s a very focused feeling but this is a much wider, spread out sensation. I think it might be interesting, especially with him tied up and running it across those pierced nipples.

I saw this on Amazon the other morning and thought, “wow, wouldn’t it be awesome if they had smaller bluetooth locks?” Could you imagine small bluetooth locks on chastity cages? I wonder if something like that would work. Also, would that work for remote locking & unlocking?

Technology has the potential to make chastity and other fetishes very interesting! Could you imagine controlling what someone feels from a distance? Controlling the access to their bits and not even being there with them. Or even worse, being there and messing around with them? We’ve already started to explore some of the Bluetooth buttplugs and other devices. They seem like they have so much potential. 🙂

It’ll be quite interesting to see where technology takes us next when it comes to fetishes and bdsm.

I was having a quick conversation with cagedmonkey this morning and told him I was horny and wanted sex later this evening. I made the comment that I needed him “sex ready” for later so when he gets home he’s to unlock his cock. That way when I’m ready and want it, it can be hard in an instant for me to use.

There are times where I let hubby out and want him sex ready, so to speak, but I may decide not to use him, I may decide to tease the hell out of him instead. Sometimes having him out and ready is better than having to wait for him to get unlocked and wiped down (even in an open cage he can get sweaty in there).

The other morning could have been one of those mornings, where I was completely horny and ready to take that big cock and having him sex ready would have helped the situation. You know how it is… When you want it right then and there and don’t want to wait? Yeah, then… Having a big hard cock ready on demand is awesome! 🙂

I’ve been part of chastityforums.com for a long time and there is a thread on the forums about cartoons or comics related to chastity and femdom. I saw recently someone posted this awesome comic. I feel like this is one of the best FemDom comics I’ve seen.

What are some of the better chastity or femdom, or even bondage, comics you’ve seen?

I don’t often dream or, I should say, I don’t often remember my dreams. When I do remember, they aren’t typically sex dreams. Let me tell you… Last night I vividly remember some very intense, teasy, sex dreams! I wish I could remember exact scenes in my dream but, I more remember the feeling of the dream. I remember feeling sexy and wanted and how it felt to tease and keep CM aching and then having full blown, letting him cum, sex with him! I remember the feeling of cumming so hard with him. Oh it was amazing!!! Needless to say, I am very horny this morning and hubby’s butt felt so good when I gave it a squeeze before he left. I totally would have had some hard sex with him if I wasn’t sick and having my lady cycle.

It’s kinda interested that I would dream about stuff like that because over the past week or so I’ve been telling hubby about how bad I want to make him cum! He’s been denied since June and I get so excited thinking about when I finally do allow him to. Having that power of deciding the moment I’ll give him that pleasure. That moment I’ll allow him to explode and feel all the sexual pleasure from it.

I was telling him about all the ways I could possibly make him cum. I even mentioned doing it privately in his clothes, in a public setting, and making him sit in it afterwards. It would be such a privately humiliating thing. We’ve never done anything like that but it could be fun hehe 🙂

I am extremely excited that it’s the end of the year, simply because that means I will be making him cum soon. That also means I get to have lots of wonderful sex with him without having to worry about him stopping or accidentally cumming while I had be him denied.

Today I had cagedmonkey wear the plug all day… Just to give him an all day reminder of what I control. While he was locked and plugged I decided to send him some pics too. I love how he reacts when I send him sexy pics and there is nothing he can do about it. I love hearing how horny he gets because of it and how he struggles in the cage.

A little cleavage fun 🙂

And then a little more than cleavage fun hehe I hope you all enjoy, just as much as hubby did!

It seems like CM is always posting pics about what he wakes up to in the morning. How he thinks I’m beautiful and loves my body and boobs and all that. Well he’s not the only one that gets to wake up to complete sexiness beside him in the morning. This was my view yesterday morning as I woke up. I had to stop and tell him to freeze so I could take my own picture. I love how he looks, especially locked in his cage for me.

I love sleeping next to him naked. I love the way his skin feels. I love how he’s the perfect amount of warmth when I need it. I love how we can sleep all entangled up with each other and we both feel so incredibly comfortable. It’s amazing that we can snuggle up so close and fall asleep together like that.

I know at first I was a little worried about how I’d feel about him getting his nipples pierced but I really do like them and I love playing with them and making him squirm when I grab and pull on them. They really are fun and I look forward to finding fun ways to incorporate them into play. His nipple rings and cage really are extremely sexy.

So yesterday, I was feeling better than I had in a while so I decided it was time to take back control of things. Things with my house, my life, my kids and my hubby. It was time to get this house back in shape and cleaned up. I was almost like a drill sergeant, in a way, getting things going. At one point I told hubby I was sick of feeling like crap, sick of hurting and being sick and feeling like I was not in control. I told him, in a half whisper right at his mouth with my lips barely brushing his, that I was taking back my control, of the house, the kids and of him. I told him exactly what he would do to help clean. How he’d do laundry and anything else I asked and I even told him he could “shut his little fucking mouth” about how I went about getting this house back together. Lol it was surprising to me that I finally felt strong enough and good enough to use that tone with him.

I am the one who should control this house and control him, he gave me that control over 5 years ago. He chose to hand me his keys and trust that I could competently control him. I felt a lot of power yesterday and I felt in control and I needed it. My illness does not control me.

Football and Cheer season is juuuuuuust about over here in Monkeyland lol. We’ve had a very long season that felt like it’s gone on forever. We actually have one more cheer competition coming up this weekend but football and practice is done. Which means no more reason for my super horny, long denied, hubby to take off his cock cage. I don’t regret it at all since our kids won’t be young forever and I know that they will look back and remember that we were very involved parents when it comes to their sports and other activities. Now that we have time to get a little more back into our kink, I did some thinking today. We won’t have a ton of time but more than we did and, like I mentioned, now there isn’t the excuse of coaching to remove the cage.

This morning I realized that I’m really wanting CM to remember just who owns him and his body and his sexual pleasure. I also want him to remember what is important in this dynamic. That’s my pleasure and what I want. What I want for about the next month is to have CM locked him his cage 24/7. He needs that intense reminder that I control his cock and I’d I want it locked it will be locked and if I want it out it will be out.

The other part of this will be that each evening he will be having some kind of ass play while his cock is locked. That could mean he’ll wear one of our butt plugs – the njoy’s or even the remote plug – or he could be instructed to use a toy on his ass and maybe the wand as well to get his cock dripping precum from his cage. On the nights, when possible, I will likely have him get out the little tripod or selfie stick and take me some really slutty pictures. It would be so humiliating to have to take pics & video of himself violating his own ass because I told him to. Then I can choose to show friends the pictures or maybe even post them on the blog.

I did explain to him that I want him to do this for me and use these toys to keep his ass ready for me… You know, should I have a need to use his ass for something it would be ready. I know, after a couple weeks of being used daily with no use of his penis he might get to a point of wanting to stop… And it won’t stop until I say it stops. He really has no choice in the matter.

So, hopefully, we have a few exciting weeks coming up here in November! 🙂