A friend of mine I haven’t seen in about 9 years came by the other day. It was so much fun seeing her, we’ve been friends over 20 years now! We met as teenagers working fast food and have been friends ever since. Since I moved away 16 years ago, seeing my friends in real life doesn’t happen all that often.

Anyway, we were chatting away and at one point she grabbed my necklace to have a closer look. She says, “that’s an interesting looking necklace.” I said, “oh, that’s the key to CM’s chastity cage and I had the company who made it cut the key shorter so I could wear it on this necklace!” It’s funny… I didn’t even think to hide it from her or anything. She knows we are into kinky stuff but I found it interesting that I freely offered up the info like it was just a regular thing! 🙂

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That’s only fair, right? I get to tie up cagedmonkey and then open (torture) him as a present to me on his birthday?!?! Hehe

Happy birthday to my amazing subby hubby! I love you and our life together more than any words could explain. You have given and continue to give me everything I need mentally, physically, emotionally and sexually and that is a huge gift.

Tonight I have us booked a 2 room suite at an indoor waterpark for a family fun night away to celebrate CM’s birthday. I hope it turns out to be an amazing day!

Recently I started working with Mistress Ivey on her new journey at Ivey’s Keys. It’s been quite fun and even a learning experience working with my subs. I am very much enjoying the interaction, the tasks and ask of the people in general.
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Our toys and equipment are all packed in storage and we certainly haven’t had any time for much play living in this state of limbo, as we are. That doesn’t stop the mind from wandering and the body from wanting.

Lately, I’ve been craving things, intense things. I’ll just flat out warn you now that I may describe some things in this post that I’m fantasizing about. No one can hold my cravings or fantasies against me and if you don’t like intensity, women in control being forceful etc, then you might as well stop reading now.

I’ve noticed since living here in someone else’s house the lack of control I feel. Not so much the lack of control over cagedmonkey but over everything in general. When I start to feel that loss of control it makes me want to grab on harder and hold deeper to my dominant-ness. It’s been building and building and I’m fantasizing about getting that control back. I’m feeling very (almost) angry and aggressive and life I want to forcefully take it back, make it mine and have it again… Complete and utter control of everything. I find myself craving getting it back in the one consensual way I know how.

I’ve been craving some serious full bondage, complete restraint, like being locked in the bitch tamer or tied strong to our new bed. Just so completely bound that he cannot move, gagged so he can’t talk. The only sounds he can make are the whimpers and cries and slight pleas begging me to stop. I want to use him, spank him, fuck him, tease him and torture him until he is limp and sobbing. I want his complete body to be mine used, abused, raped consensually against his will. I want to feel his body give up against my aggressive, forcefull dominance.

I desperately need to feel like I control his pain, he pleasure, his teasing and his torture. That I am in control of everything in those few moments while I year him down to nothing but a blubbering, begging pile of a man, begging me to stop, begging me to stop.

Do you know anything about the Gorean lifestyle and/or kajira? I recently had a long time friend confide in me that she was into this lifestyle. I don’t know much about it but from what I gather (this is very little reading and listening to her) it is very similar to a Master/slave relationship in the bdsm world. Rules to follow, she is the masters property and is not allowed to question, etc. Over the past few days we’ve been chatting about this and it seems she’s been a very very good girl. I would be so proud if she were my submissive! She’s very obedient and devoted.

Anyway, the reason I’m writing this post is to reach out to ask if my readers, their friends and anyone else you might know to give this poor girl some advice. She is a kajira in distress and is spiraling down fast. Here is her story – if you have questions, please ask and I will get answers!

I’m a kajira. I met a gorean Master online. He started training me, as I was brand new. I was also going through a divorce. I followed every rule I was given and He is a very dominant man. Everything was decided by Him. He told me that there would come a time He would need to leave me alone for a while, that after the divorce I would need that time, it was for the best. Last I heard from Him was January 16 and now His email no longer works, as of yesterday. I’m lost, sick to my stomach. I’ve remained devoted and faithful, following every rule. have I been abandoned? He would post how much He hated hearing about a kajira being abandoned, but I wasn’t collared yet. Before He stopped communicating, He’d told me He’d picked out my collar that I would wear the rest of my life. I fell in love with this man. Now I feel broken.

Ladies and gents, I need some serious help for this girl. She hasn’t heard from her Master in almost 6 months. Has she been abandoned? Does she give up waiting to see if he will again contact her? She’s so devoted and faithful to the lifestyle that she has continued to follow her rules and report to him and even continued to ask permission for everything – all without response from him all these months. She is not allowed to speak to other men (to ask another Master for advice), according to her rules, unless they are approved by her Master, but does she even have a Master anymore? She desperately needs advice! Please, I am asking you for help and for you to share this post to help this girl. She is one of my best friends and she trusted me with telling me about her living this lifestyle.

As much as I would love to, I couldn’t possibly write about every time I tease cagedmonkey or every little thing we do. If I did I would have so many little micro posts on this blog haha. That’s one reason I like having Twitter, because we get to tweet out those sexy little tid bits!

So, I’m not going to get into the difficulties, again, about staying in someone else’s house and trying to be invisible so you don’t disrupt their life too much – I’m sure some of you get it. I do want to stress that, even in this situation, tease and a sense of control for both us, it’s still extremely important. We don’t have much opportunity but I try to find those little amounts that we do have and sneak in a tease here or there. Sometimes I send him up to play video games alone and keep the kids busy on a project just so I can do things like this – to remind him who’s in control. It also drives home the incredible horniness he has from being teased and denied for a almost 150 days!
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Ladies ask me all the time about how I keep him teased and what can they do so that their guy isn’t just locked up and forgotten about – because that’s the worst thing that could happen. Honestly, Ladies and gents, it’s the little things that keep it going and keep it fun. Just like it’s the little things in marriage, and we work everyday to keep that going… Having a guy in chastity or just controlling his orgasm without a cage is still work but it’s the fun kind of work! 🙂

I was talking to a friend about this stuff this morning too. He only wishes I had him locked in a cage, teased and denied for 150 days haha. But we talked about some of those little things and how they are needed to keep things going good! Even a quick grab of the cage and balls is a helpful reminder of who they belong to! 🙂
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Although I’m craving a good bondage and torture session (that’s for another post lol) these little reminders I give him help remind me that he is mine. He wears that cage for me, he submits to me because he is a strong man who loves me and trusts me. I feel like I am the lucky one to have such an amazing submissive man as my hubby who gives me his everything if, when and how I ask.

So the past couple of weeks haven’t been all that easy. Getting acclimated to living in someone else’s house hasn’t exactly been “smooth.” It’s difficult for me to relax and feel comfortable when I’m not in my own environment. Sex aside, it’s been a difficult transition. It will be better in a couple of weeks when we finally get our apartment.

Focusing on the sex – despite the situation, ML has found ways to keep me sexually frustrated. Whether it’s waking me up with a teasing handjob or having me fuck her with my caged cock until she cums all over me, her teasing has been very effective. And, unlike the apartment situation, it’s only going to get worse as time goes by.

It’s getting close to five months into the year and still no orgasms for me; ML is still determined to have me go cum-less for 2016. I’m not even halfway through the year and I’m already dying for an orgasm. My balls are almost constantly sore and feeling very full. At this point, I really need a good draining – whether or not I get an orgasm with it kinda doesn’t matter. I mean, obviously it does… obviously I’d love a nice hard intense orgasm right about now. After 142 days, who wouldn’t?

Ok maybe not an actual bondage bed but we recently went furniture shopping for our new apartment and I found a bed I just had to have.

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I couldn’t help but think how amazing it would be to have him bound spread eagle to this bed. I just had to talk him into getting it (it didn’t really take much talking into lol). There are just so many possibilities with this bed. Also the nightstands have usb ports and outlet plugs right in them so I certainly won’t need an extension cord for the wand anymore haha.

The other evening before bed, cagedmonkey and I snuck in a little play time. I stroked him and teased him and edged his cock. I love seeing that anguish on his face, that deep need for release as I stroke his cock closer and closer, only to stop and leave him unfulfilled.

I know he misses having an orgasm and I know he is extremely horny after over 4 months of denial. I felt so bad and awfully devious the other night that I decided to let him get himself good and hard and stroke his cock. I even let him stroke to an orgasm… Unfortunately, it wasn’t HIS orgasm he was stroking to. I allowed him to stroke his cock, while I looked right into his eyes and masturbated myself to an awesome orgasm.

I forced him to continue looking at me the whole time and he was not allowed to stop stroking until I was finished and satisfied. In other words, I came three times while I forced him to keeping stroking and watching me cum, over and over.

I know he slept well that night!

A few of you know but most, I’m sure, do not. We recently moved again and we will be living in the midwest soon. We are currently in between homes which means all of our stuff is in storage and we are staying with other people… for about a month or so. This also makes tease, denial, cock cages and other fun kinky stuff very hard to accomplish. It’s been a rough week or so and now I’ve started homeschooling both of the kids. Since we aren’t even staying in the area we will be living in, it was pointless to enroll the kids in school for a month.

I have been trying very hard to add in little teases and edges here or there where I can. I will try to make cagedmonkey’s mornings very rough and frustrating by stroking and edging his cock so he spends most of the day dripping precum. The other day he dripped so much it went through his underwear and shorts! We have no toys with us because they are all packed in storage. It does make things difficult when I have no cuffs or rope or anything to use to restrain cagedmonkey. That’s something I know he loves that I do. He really does love that helpless feeling! I miss making him feel that way, too.

We still have about 4 weeks to go until we have our own home again… I know we are strong enough to make it but that doesn’t mean it is or will be easy. We are working hard to keep the kink going with the limited time we have and the extreme lack of privacy – we don’t even have a door that closes. Right now our family of four (plus the cats) is living in and sharing two small rooms in someone else’s home.

Sometimes I feel like I’m letting cagedmonkey down. I know I’m doing my best to try and keep everyone happy and content to make it through these next few weeks.